Are You My Match?
CHAPTER XLV
finished shopping today we were looking for a place to eat dinner, my husband's family loved seafood whereas I liked but the tip was allergic.
I glanced at my husband's cell phone that always rang, once I was still indifferent but this was many times.
"why not lift" I asked
"it's not important and it's not a number I know, you know I don't like foreign numbers" my husband replied
I continued eating again and my husband's phone rang again, there was even an incoming message.
"dawn, here I am, pick up my phone, it's important.I know you're back in your house again." The message is clearly read by me.
my heart rippled again, the roar of anger was already tight in the chest.
"you answer or I answer" suddenly my husband gave me his cell phone to reply to the message.
I pushed the phone back to my husband
"i believe, just look at your reply.I will believe," I replied firmly
my husband typed in a reply message for his ex.
"sorry I'm married and don't disturb my life anymore." replied my husband
after the message was read, my husband immediately blocked all contacts so that he did not have a gap to call or send messages.
even all the husband's sosmed were wiped away before my own eyes.
my heart tells me if I can be like him, who really keeps my feelings in check.
I still have something to hide about my problems.
I try to learn from his attitude again, who can firmly choose friends or not, and only want to be friends with his wife and family.
after dinner, I was thinking a lot.
"this is, if it's cape, it must be that his face is not good to see." said my husband while embracing my shoulder with a friendly.
"i'm okay," I said
"listen baby, don't think of anything. I chose you and that's you can ask papa or Hanum." my husband explained
I just kept quiet, for some reason I felt inferior in this situation.
how can I resist jealousy, can I act ordinary or indifferent like I first met.
love seems like I have fallen in love, my heart began to doubt and even began to think to throw away my jealousy.
I'll focus more on work, so my household will be fine.
if I follow the ego there will be constant suspicion without mutual trust.
"why not buy a snack? ask my husband to break my daydream.
"can you buy what? ask me back.
"martabak only yes, martabak telor only and you like cheese right? said my husband
"martabak telor two and martabak cheese one" followed me
"yes already, I order now huh? said my husband
me and the others were waiting in the car, I opened the sosmed app with his fad I scroll.
even I prefer to see a cooking show or how to make a cake.
after waiting for 30 minutes for the order to be completed, we rushed home.
my husband knows that my mood is not okay.
trying to accept is not easy, even trying to make peace with jealousy is not easy.
I want to be like that, be relaxed try to be indifferent with all her.
when I got home, I tidied up all the groceries first and then immediately cleaned up.
I went upstairs first without taking my husband, I tried to take a shower to cool my brain.
I took a bath with a hum, then I took ablution so that my heart would calm down.
finished bathing and taking ablution water I immediately pray isya, and after the prayer completely calm my heart.
the indifference I feel again, let it be like this because I am tired if I have to fight.
"are you still angry? why go up, that's me buy martabak free if you don't eat, "my husband's upset
"kok are you getting angry? you see I finished praying and taking a shower? why get angry? is it because of that contact that you blocked so you calm me down for what, huh? to say faithful husband?"my shout exposes all my frustration that had muffled up again.
"kok you go anywhere, yes we have each. take care of yourself, I don't care what cake you want." said my husband
"yes, I already know who you are? just sweet in front of it. try if I do not pergokin content chat girl earlier, yes I do not know ya answer what? remember I've been khatam with male models, "my firmness
I took a blanket and tried to take sleeping pills to sleep well, I was lazy I was noisier.
just waste your mind and energy, I better sleep soundly let tomorrow to the office of my mind is calm.
I fell asleep and I don't know what time my husband sleeps, I wake up to the morning prayer and I rush to tidy up all my work equipment.
after that I went downstairs, made some warm tea for me.
then I went up again and it turned out that my husband was still sleeping, I changed clothes with work clothes.
I knew he was awake, he was reluctant to look at me. I let out a long sigh.
"i'm off to work first" my camel
no answer from her, I left the room immediately because I was waiting for ojeg.
"not in between Na? ask my sister-in-law
"sister, there is more business early in the morning" I replied
"to leave, brother? I kissed my sister-in-law's hand
"careful huh? her word
I immediately boarded the ojeg and asked for his way soon because surely papa-in-law would ask again.
All along the way, I just grumbled in my heart.
do I just go home, to my mamih house."my lyrics
"ah bodo very much," I murmured
after I got on the train, I tried to forget about my household problems
I try to focus on my work, sometimes I glance at my phone but there are no messages or calls from my husband.
"yes, my fate is very yes" I said
"why the hell Lo? ask Rita
"no? answer me briefly
"from that moment Lo ngoceh was not clear" said Rita
"swear nothing, maybe less coffee or less sajen," replied me origin
