Always Wrong in People's Eyes
the pressure comes back
"you can think first, I will wait another 2 days, because the day after this brother has to go to the city of the novella" explained Kak yola once again
after that, sister Yola left my room
"hmmm, decision, I have never been given this kind of choice, I will think with mr. hans and olive only tomorrow when at school, hoaam "I said then fell asleep.
☁☁ in a dream 💭💭
"hmm, where is this why it's dark? is this a birthday surprise? "
basic is useless
"!!??, who is it!"
weak, coward
"hey this isn't funny well, you're all out😠"
baj*ngan
"hey I'm scared, please come out😰"
it's bad cheating again, hihihi
"i beg you"
be wicked!!
"heyaham!!! "
baj*ngan, cheating, weak, coward, bad boy, useless, bad boy!
that Sound² keeps showing up and makes me depressed
🌇 on waking, the morning 🌅
"hey!!!, haah haah haah" I shouted in my room
"what's up? is anyone sick? " ask a nun who came to me because she yelled at me
"no, it's just a nightmare, you don't have to worry" I replied
"owh well, if there's anything you can find me outside" the nurse said and left
"i'm not worthy in this world, I'm so useless, I even trouble so many people, I just do that" I said in my heart
/i faced the wall and then banged my head
sound of wall impact
~tes test test test test
the sound of blood pouring down my head dripped onto the floor
" haha, there's a knife in here"
I raised the knife to its height using my right hand, and prepared to throw it into my left hand, but as it was about to float...
"what do you want? " tanya zizi with her charms
I was shocked and stopped the movement of my hand, even though my left wrist had been injured.I dropped the knife on the floor
"nothing, zizi out first well kak al want to check the doctor first" said mama zizi who while anxious about my condition
"astaga Alvin!??, what are you doing, you want to try a roundabout? " ask brother cherry 🍒
I cry because these tears can't be held anymore
"ma - af, hiks "answer me
cherry quickly hugged me
and it was the first time I've been hugged by someone, her warm embrace made me unable to hold back my emotional outburst
🍂🍂 after I calmed down 🍃🍃
"now being honest with big brother, why did you just do a roundabout experiment??! " ask brother Cherry 🍒
".... after my sister said that I must be honest about my past, I immediately remembered the past that was very stressful for me, yesterday I got 2 nightmares about the past. and it makes me remember feeling very depressed by the circumstances, the accusations, the rants, and the ridicule of all of them, actually, "my answer explains everything I've experienced in the life I've been through.
"so so, then now what is your decision" asked brother cherry🍒
"i haven't decided yet, please give me more time" I said
"well then, take a break, don't do another roundabout experiment, zizi is waiting for you to play, so don't let him down" advised kak cherry🍒 then go check on other patients
after that I locked myself in the room, for 3 hours and then went out to the zizi room
"zizi kak al here, let's play together outside yuk" I said
to his surprise, the zizi's body was wrapped in white cloth, we couldn't see each other anymore, and the last time I met him was when I would try to round and zizi saw me.
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