About Saga

39. POV Saga's

I woke up and I don't know how long ago I had slept after doing something tiring but really very exciting. I found myself innocent without a single sheet covered only in a blanket and I was hugging a body that was as pure white as porcelain her delicate skin and her scented body really was a scent that was typical of a person Rastys. My consciousness was gathered by itself because indeed I was not under the influence of alcohol or anything because we were equally aware at that time.

Astaqifurullah... I condemn myself for doing the deed l****t even I have truly become a jerk who has ruined the future of my beloved even though it was with me.

I cried regretful and angry at myself why I could do such a thing, I hooked Rasty my lover who was really very much I take care of even his parents have entrusted me but it turns out I just damaged and destroyed that trust.

I took a look at Rasty's body, which I had a lot of reddish patches on my chest, and two of his precious things became a trace that I was so fierce to do last night. Slowly I got up from my bed I grabbed my clothes that were strewn about irregularly even my shirt got stuck on the sleeping lights. Slowly I picked it up and grabbed the towel hanging not far from my closet at a glance I saw my body in the reflection of the glass and I found four traces of ownership imprinted on my neck and chest. Means last night we enjoyed each other's madness even I remember very well we fused 2 x. Akh... My hairpins are so frustrating why I just lost with ***du damn it.

Before long I saw Rasty start to piqued from his deep sleep I noticed all his movements ranging from a pair of eyes to open perfectly and then looked at the situation of this room and then switched on his body which was now it's just a blanket.

I saw clearly her surprise she immediately screamed as she opened the blanket then looked at me. He shook his head as I nodded then he was hysterical.

I saw clearly the cry of his destruction, I knew at this moment he was so angry at me that he even looked at me with eyes so sharp ready to skin me and hit my whole heart.

I am no different than being angry and disappointed. My heart aches when I see it like this. I dared myself to hug her even though she was struggling and rejecting me I did not care that she finally gave up and resigned when I tried to calm her down.

I hugged him tightly I was afraid he was going to be reckless and hurt him and I really didn't want that to happen. We finally got together. Despite having to argue with each other expressed our fears and all the worst possibilities.

I am a real man, I have become a jerk now but I am determined to never be a coward again. I have done so I also have to dare to take responsibility.

I kept trying to persuade and convince her that I would be responsible and would marry her soon when we graduated from school because no more than 1 month we would graduate soon.

After successfully calming their hearts, each of us agreed that we would get married if something else happened to Rasty , not on the basis of my own will but instead Rasty who kekeh because he did not want to make his parents disappointed. We went back to our usual school routine and this week we did our Final School Examination. Although I knew something was different with Rasty since that incident, he seemed to limit himself let alone physical contact and I understood that I understood it.

Today we carry out the Purnawiyata procession which becomes a symbol that we have graduated from school and as a sign of separation with our friends, teachers and schools. I was really amazed to see him today he wore a kebaya made by Mother with the same color with the shirt that I currently wear which is also given by Mother, very fit and fit in Rasty's body but that's not what makes him so different that I barely recognized him earlier... The shiny black hair that used to be waist-length was indeed a few days ago I saw it had been cut into a boat and today the mane has been covered in hijab with colors in line with the kebaya that he wears. I really admire her beauty manifold with her wearing hijab like that there is a sense of pride but also sad , I do not know for sure what caused him to migrate because what could be because he got guidance so decided to migrate because three days ago we were still with him did not mention the decision of hijab.

Whatever it is I still support him maybe also with him hijab will be a lot to subdue the views of men, especially I should be more able to appreciate it and keep my eyes on it.

As I thought, my Rasty turned out to be the best graduate and I was ranked 3rd I am proud of him. She's a good girl, beautiful and smart dream of all men isn't she? , she's also not a spoiled person and one thing I like is she's quite mature and independent.

To be honest, I really wanted to greet him and congratulate him on his success, but it was very unexpected to mess things up when Sesha and Om Yuda came Sesha this time always stuck with me until it was difficult for me to stay away even just say hello and congratulate Rasty and take a photo with him also my other best friend. Until I realized the misunderstanding happened Rasty would know if the middle-aged man who had represented my guardian was his Papa Sesha even I had seen him looking for me to enter the Hall and its room when he came over me and Sesha was in an unusual position Sesha was hugging me and was congratulating me for my graduation. I know it hurt Rasty but right now I'm in a situation where it's impossible to explain directly I have to keep Om Yuda's reputation if he knows I have a lover at this time. I also stopped seeing him and chose to explain later proved at this time also Rasty must be angry with me proved by not responding to my phone call and also my WA chat message.

In the afternoon I ventured to meet him at home even though I knew I would get a rejection from him, but I still persistently try to explain until as usual Father and Mother who are always in my pocket will definitely help me. Finally he wanted to talk to me but he asked me out, I also agreed with pleasure because I also really missed him three days we did not meet because he was busy with the preparation of school separation yesterday and today must end with a misunderstanding.

I took him to a place on the beach not far from the outskirts of this city I offered him to eat but he refused firmly and finally we did a little hike to be able to see the sun drowning because I know Rasty really likes Sun set

I was very disappointed that in the end I had to obey Rasty who asked us to end the relationship because the day after tomorrow he would go to Singapore to continue his study there, obviously I refused raw - raw I love him very much and I've made a big mistake to live and his future is impossible I just let him go. But Rasty remained tight on his founder until I gave up even though this was a one-sided decision but I will try to understand and understand his decision, he said, although this is difficult for me I feel more cornered when he says if I really love him then I have to let him pursue his ideals. I was weak and I gave up on him. With a broken feeling I drove him home and hoped that tomorrow he would change his decision.

This morning with a feeling of emptiness I was forced to leave because last night I got the news that two months of treatment in Malaysia Mama had a little physical health problem and I had to go there to accompany her. I also left without saying goodbye and without even saying goodbye to Rasty and the others.