About Saga

#20. Heartfill

# pov Saga

Whether what is happening with him every day is actually able to create a different feeling, I who was initially so sure will never put my heart on him slowly you are sure if my defense began to waver. seeing his innocent attitude, his sweet smile, his understanding, his nature that could suddenly become wise and mature. Akhh .. I should be honest from the beginning if I really like it either since when exactly I do not know, but certainly he is different from the girls I have met, but for sure, at first they will die to attract my attention but when they find the truth about my family then they will withdraw from me.

But not with him, he actually deliberately entered my world in my life, becoming like a sincere friend for me, my mother, and also my brother.

I got curious about him and tried to do the same thing with the money he did to me, slowly I entered his world, namely his family and it was true that this girl was special because her parents had educated her well. And I can also be taken for granted by both parents.

His father who was a police officer made me a little horrified to approach him until I found a different reality ter Yes he is very Hubble and I seemed to find the figure of a father that I dreamed of from childhood.

I did not offer a commitment or express about feelings because honestly I still do not believe in all that it feels like trauma to the story of my parents' household is still a scourge for me until I feel reluctant to do it.

Until I can only give

a relationship without commitment, which I realize is very confusing for a woman especially for a girl her age. On the one hand I treat her and behave like a lover who is always there every time she needs me, she said, but in reality I never gave him a statement about my feelings.

That's what makes me insecure about making a commitment because I know I won't be able to treat my partner like a teenager my age by having time to be together, enjoy other beautiful and fun things.

I'm just a young man who has to think about how to get healing for my Mama, how to deal with my sister who when she's sulking will act like a little boy, I just have to think of a company that has suffered a lot of setbacks since my father left, and also my education problems that are also important.

Yes, now the most important thing is to live my day with passion in the hope that everything will return even though it will not be the same as before Papa created a gray cloud by betraying Mama's trust.

Akh's.. I feel so guilty today I have done carelessness even though accidentally I have made my Gadus suffer because the food I chose actually made him allergic and I have to take him to a clinic, he said, honestly I was scared and very worried to see his condition when his face looked swollen reddish and he felt his chest tightness lucky the doctor immediately gave treatment so he was fine.

This whole day with him was an amazing thing I was guilty of causing his allergies to recur, but some time more shocking events happened I fell right on his body and our lips touch each other and even stick, I really want to feel like I enjoy the natural pink ranum lips, but I was too scared if he thought I was taking advantage of the opportunity.

honestly as a normal man my soul thrashed to get a real windfall like that, But I can still master myself to resist my insolent desires. And I finally came home with still leaving a pretty face shadow with natural red lips.