Wife Custody (Second Love)

Renata Crisis

I'm 21 now. Soon I will graduate college. Just finish the thesis, then the trial of recognition, graduation, is finished. But Mami wants me to continue my studies, at least until S2. Let me explore this field that I pursue, said Mami.

Not that I feel like I have enough of what I have right now. By becoming a communication science scholar, I thought I would be able to continue the EO business owned by Dad and Mami later. But apparently, according to Mami, not enough.

"There are some things you can get at a master school later, which you probably won't get out there."

So said Mami.

I admit what my mother said has a point. But I started to reluctantly arranged for Mami. Indeed, what I am currently pursuing is my choice, and I know exactly what I am doing. I'm lucky enough to have parents who don't impose their will.

But every now and then I want to get out of my parents' control, especially Mami. Not because Mommy was wrong, no. I'm tired of always being under Mami's watch.

At that time Adit said,

"Re, if you want what is it, must ask permission from your mother first huh?"

I just nod. Initially rada males was asked so. Because I thought, come on, doesn't it have to be? Talk about what we want to parents, ask for their opinion, then consider it, and make a decision. Who the hell isn't that?

"Your father too?"

I nodded again. Why Adit, is that so?

"Your father is this, you're on, aren't you?"

"Yes, why Dit?"

"Should you tell them first? You can't make your own decisions, can you?"

"It can't dong. Anything must be discussed first. Even Brother Faraz, Brother Dinda and Darrel as well. But the final decision remains in my hands. Why the hell?"

Adit smile.

"I was astonished. You've been this big business is still talking to parents first. The end is the same. Why not just go straight?"

I scrunched my forehead. Is it wrong, am I like that?

"I'm just interested, Re. You are an adult. No longer a child or teenager. It's time you decided everything yourself. By your own. I'm afraid you'll feel dependent on your parents and brother. They will not be there for you forever. Try shadowing, if later for example, amit-amit yes, your mother is not there, your stepfather lives. Will it all stay the same, Re? Must be different dong?"

I thought for a moment. Adit's opinion has a point. All this time I never imagined that possibility, because Mami was always there, and still around me.

"What's thru dong, Dit?"

"I think you should start learning to think about your own business. Don't have everything to say to your family. You can make your own decision. It is more efficient as well. Counting on quick decision-making exercises, Re."

For days I thought about Adit's words. Maybe it was time for me to grow up and fly with my own wings.

Hence, when Adit expressed his feelings for me, I did not talk about it with my family. Because I think this is my own business, not something that can be discussed with one house person. Although I was actually a bit hesitant about this decision, because I had no experience courting and being approached by anyone, but I made up my resolve to act this time around.

But it turns out my decision didn't go as I expected. Mom and Dad object if I want to marry Adit. Though my intentions are good, want to avoid adultery. Pity Papi in heaven if he has to take away the sins of his daughter. Poor Mami and Dad too, later scolded Papi and God for neglecting to take care of me.

After talking to Dad for four eyes last week, I told Adit straight away.

"Don't you, Re? You become your parents. When did you grow up if you kept gini, Renata?"

I'm speechless. True Adit said, if this continues, then forever I will be a child in the eyes of my parents.

How I'm not upset. Breakfast, I tried to greet Mami, but Mami smiled forcibly. Very observant loh. I let Mami talk, but Mami said she was tired again. As soon as I followed, I saw Mami crying alone in her room. Is that so wrong with me in Mommy's eyes?

Mah mending's father. After that conversation, Dad tried to melt the stiffness between me and Mami. Or Dad comforted me, nanyain scriptiku already until where, reportedly Adit how. As always.

Two days I could hold my heart. On the third day, I couldn't take it anymore.

At that time, we were having dinner together. Mami was still showing her sadness, making my stomach feel full and heartburn.

"Mami why the hell? Rena was wrong in Mami's eyes? I'm a grown-up, Mi. A free man who lives my own way of life! That's it, Mi!"

Stupid me, I yelled at Mami. One of the things I never did to the woman who gave birth to me.

Mami was in a severe shock. Then he turned to leave me in the dining room, and went into his room. The same surprised father, looked at me with the anger he was holding.

"Faraz, please take care of Renata. Dad took care of Mami. Dinda and Darrel, help Brother."

Honestly, I felt guilty right then. Brother Faraz told me to finish dinner, as did Brother Dinda and Darrel.

"Although difficult, let's spend it first. This is our emergency meeting" Faraz said.

After eating, we gathered in my room.

"Rere try the story first. What happened to Rere and Mami?"

I told you everything from the beginning. Including Adit's opinion and Mami's response to my wishes. Also my father's advice to me that night.

"Well, didn't expect me, brother. How do you suck anyway? That's not really your girlfriend, brother. Not Mommy. Whoa, bad," raved Darrel.

"I think so, Re. It is true, as adults we must have a stand and free path that we choose. But while we are still in a period of orientation in this world of maturity, there is no harm in us training again under the supervision of parents, let us be better prepared later. Our parents are not in control of our lives, Re. They only give consideration," added Dinda. Here's how, if you have a sister in the footsteps of Mami, the advice is long.

"But inefficient, brother. I feel it is time for me, and you too, perhaps, to walk on our own feet. Not forever can we stick in the armpits of our parents," I argue.

"I think you're starting to turn left and on, Re. We're not stuck with parents, just guarded doang, Renata. That's different" Faraz said.

Also true.

"After all, are you ready for the consequences that will come? Sure ready?" ask Brother Faraz.

"Adit can't finance your living needs? You haven't graduated college yet. Make pay for your expensive tuition, even if it's just one more semester, where's the money? Not yet made living expenses. Not to mention if you are soon given a child. Not that I'm discouraging Adit, but it's gonna be hard, Re."

"The wind is guaranteed by God, Brother" I said again.

"Yes emang. But not in this way either. You're not really ready yet but still, that's not true. You're ignoring Mommy and Dad's feelings, not really."

Is it really like that?

I don't know, I'm confused about what to do. On the one hand I feel Adit's opinion is right. But on the other hand, I cannot deny that the values we have always held in this family are also true.

To this day, I still can't be as fluid as usual with Mami. I've apologized verbally, but it seems Mami knows I don't really understand what Mami means about me and Adit. Mami probably felt that my apology was only on the lips, just to make Mami more calm.

But I'm confused. Adit kept pressuring me to behave in a way that he said was more mature.

Up here, I'm getting confused. What does it mean to be an adult?