What's up Selena ?

Chapter 7: The White Rose

I held onto Kayla's cold hand. It's Kayla's turn to show her piano. Wrapped in a magenta-colored knee-length dress, and with natural makeup, hair draped with pearl-decorated headbands made Kayla very graceful and beautiful.

“Kak Selena used to say the same to me when I was nervous, I just close my eyes and count to five then I will see Selena smiling as a representative of the creatures in the world who also smile at me, I miss Selena” sister Kayla's eyes look teary looking at me. I know she must have missed her older sister very much and I wish I could give her back.

“Sorry sister forgot everything, but even though sister forgot, sister will always be the representative of the whole world who is smiling looking at the very beautiful Kayla” I hug Kayla.

Kayla then closed her eyes while counting to five and right in front of her as Kayla opened her eyes I smiled looking at her.

“Kayla, let's go you” one of the show staff calls Kayla.

“Kayla morale” I said to Kayla who had left with the staff.

I immediately looked at the monitor to see how Kayla was performing. Actually I wanted to see her as a spectator, but Kayla asked me to accompany her, so only mama and Damar sat in the audience seats.

Kayla's performance was stunning, I was amazed how the agility of her hands produced a beautiful music that was very friendly in my ears. Kayla's talent is amazing, seeing Kayla makes me ask myself if I have things I like like like her, because when Mama and Kayla said I liked writing I still had a hard time feeling how I felt in love with the world of writing.

Kayla, who had returned to the talent waiting room, approached me with a very wide smile.

“Kak, am I good gak?” kayla asked me who was still smiling widely.

“Good use one” replied I who also smiled widely see it.

“Big brother is indeed the best” Kayla hugged me tightly, with tears falling on my shoulders. I patted Kayla's chest slowly. I don't know what made Kayla cry in my arms and I just waited for her to stop in her tears.

***

Kayla since crying in the waiting room until the car ride home did not say a single word to me, even she can still joke with Damar or with mom. I was confused as to what was wrong with her.

“You have improved his technique well Kay” said mom to Kayla.

“Ma, it's better if you say it to me, you're good, you're stunning, the show was special than you said it's improved, because Kayla played the piano not to show how good the technical or improvement Kayla is, but Kayla playing the piano just wants to convey Kayla's feelings for the whole world, so said sis..” Kayla's long sentence came to a halt when she wanted to name someone and I was sure that it was my name. His face returned glum and glazed back.

“Ia” replied mama briefly with her sigh, which sounded tight.

“Kayla, mas Damar wants to give you something as a gift for you who have expressed their feelings throughout the world through the show was” said Damar who tried to break the nuances of sadness in this car.

“White rose” says Kayla slowly.

“Okeh we go home first, tomorrow mas and Selena who are looking for the most beautiful white roses for you” said Damar.

“Makasih” Kayla's voice sounded like holding back a cry, and directed her gaze towards the window and I just looked at her from the side.

***

Tonight the house feels very quiet, even mbok Ros who every night always tell a story with mama today was not, mama and Kayla since until the house just stuck themselves in their respective rooms. I know they're like this because of me, because I forgot myself, what I had to do to get them to smile again.

“Ma” I knocked on my room door hoping mom would share her fret with me.

“Masuk” says mom from inside her room.

Mama was sitting on her bed looking at a photo album and I was sitting with her.

“Whose photo album is this ma?” ask me.

“Photo album Selena and Kayla, kayla used to be in every moment of photos with her brother and she always printed the photo and placed it in a special photo album both” as I thought that Kayla really missed my old figure.

“Ma, sorry if I became a stranger to you two” I also started crying and hugging my mom.

“You have never been a stranger to mama, you are still a mama's child, you will still be Selenya mama” mama hugged me very tightly.

That night I spent in my mom's room. Mama told me the whole story between Kayla and me in our photo album, starting from Kayla who was a baby, all Kayla moments and the last photo the day before the accident. Until now my mother has never explained how the event happened, every time she asked me to always avoid by reason I was not ready to receive a lot of information that will make my condition will drop, he said, and not even Mama ever mentioned Ghandi by name, and I never asked, because Kayla forbade me for that and Kayla hasn't given me a reason.

***

“Promises to keep” said Damar.

Damar who was too early had kidnapped me to buy a white rose as a gift Kayla, even my alaram this morning was replaced with my ringtone because Damar had called me since dawn.

“Dam, not part, it's still seven hours, already open his flower shop?” ask me who sounds a little upset, because I think my sleep is not enough.

“It's not open yet, but I want to take you to breakfast first” said Damar who smiled at me.

“Dam, you have not continued our story that used to” I saw the expression of Damar who initially smiled turned serious.

“You want it to be Selena who used to” asked Damar seriously.

“I want to go back to being the real me Dam, you know Kayla was crying in the waiting room and until this morning she hasn't talked to me, and I'm sure that's the reason because I'm not the sister he knows anymore” my eyes are glazed over, Damar just kept quiet without saying anything. I tried to hold back my tears that were about to fall.

Damar stopped the car in a park that looked quiet this morning. Damar came down and brought the things from the trunk.

“Yuk dal” said Damar who was already standing in front of the car window.

“But we want breakfast?” I asked who was still in the car.

“She, we want breakfast, here I take breakfast” Damar lift the item he took from the trunk and show it to me.

I went down and followed Damar to a place where we could sit and have breakfast.

“So, what's up Selena?” Damar smiled at me, just touching my tears that I had been holding back finally fell as well. I cried sobbing in front of Damar, all the tightness I felt after waking up from a coma and until now finally finding his container. I never cried like this from waking up from a coma, but seeing Kayla who was so sad, I blamed myself.

“Dam, if in your eyes how would I?”I asked who was still sobbing and Damar looked at me with a small laugh.

Damar and I spent breakfast in a quiet, cool morning.

“You know, this is one of Ghandi's dreams for breakfast here, he always wanted to eat three, but I never want” said Damar sounding sad.

“Why Dam?” I ask who is not crying anymore.

“I'm afraid just to be a mosquito” Damar came back with his laugh.

“At least you will witness our love story” I said seeing Damar smile.

“True, the witness and only the supporting cast is told about Ghandi and Selena” said Damar looking at me. Damar's gaze made me awkward, I then opened the breakfast that Damar brought as a diversion of my awkwardness.

***

“We have reached” Damar stopped his car at a very beautiful flower shop, indeed the flower shop is not too big just one shop but the design outside this store is very beautiful in my opinion, the entrance is French style, complete with colorful flowers on top, and inside is also very vintage, so many flowers here.

“You want to find flowers for mbaknya mas?” said the flower sales.

“Not for me” I said affirm.

“Who is it?”sounding from behind the voice of the middle-aged woman sounded very friendly in my ears.

“Tante Ranty” Damar hugs the middle-aged woman. Damar looked familiar to this middle-aged woman. The middle-aged woman looked at me with a very wide smile.

“Selena?” the middle-aged woman hugged me tightly.

“Iaa” I said slowly, I was confused what to say, I just saw Damar smiling looking at Aunt Ranty.

“I know everything from Damar, so you don't have to be afraid or feel guilty for not knowing Auntie” said Aunt Ranty who clasped my hand with teary eyes.

“Okay aunt we end this reunion for a while, so I'm here to order a bouquet of white roses” said Damar.

Aunt Ranty and Damar look focused on choosing white roses that will be assembled, while I walked slowly around this flower shop and my steps stopped when I saw a bouquet of red roses are very beautiful. The red color was very bright, the smell was very fragrant, as if calling me to take him home with me.

“Dam, I bought this flower also” said I've been tempted by the flower.

“Selena, since when did you like red roses” aunt Ranty and Damar have been standing right behind me and come to look at the red roses. I was silent about Aunt Ranty's question, and it was definitely the answer I didn't know when, but I could feel that I liked this flower.

“This one is also well aunt” said Damar who nodded his head slowly to aunt Ranty who was surprised to look at me.

***

“Dam, I don't like red roses well?” I asked Damar.

“Consider me, but I don't know well either, because too much has changed from you that I knew in the past” said Damar.

Damar hasn't told me why he moved eight years ago, my meeting with Damar is not like an old friend who hasn't seen each other for a long time, but like a new person who is at the stage of getting to know each other.

“This white rose flower for flapain equals Kayla?” manya curious.

“After me, Kayla does not really like flowers, who likes white roses it is you” said Damar smilingly looking at me.

“Down, hopefully with this flower from you, Kayla can share her sadness with me” said I who also smiled to see Damar.

“Oh yes, what are red roses for?” ask Damar to me.

“I don't know either, but because it's beautiful I'm tempted deh” I said while laughing.

“That means it's the second red rose I bought for you” Damar said.

“Both?” manya curious.

“We have reached” said Damar and the gate was opened by Mr. Rusdi.

“You get off, because I want to go straight away and don't forget to go straight to Kayla's love, tell me I have a problem” Damar stroked my head slowly, and then, I could only obey him and get off while seeing Damar's car drive away from my house.

“Kak” heard Kayla's voice behind me.

“Kay, this is a flower from Damar” I said smilingly giving the flower to Kayla.

“Sorry my sister, Kayla yesterday no talk at all with sister” Kayla hugged me tightly.

“Kakak ngerti kok” I patted my sister's shoulder slowly.

“So this flower want you any?” manya curious.

“You I love my most special friend and I miss Kak” said Kayla who had a smile on her face.

“Siapaa hayoo” said I teased her.

“This flower from mas Damar well? Adudu, goodbye Mas Ghandi” Kayla who replied to tease me.

“Ghandi remains number one” I said with a smile.