What I'm Going to be without You
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Today Keynan went home with Meira, without thinking Keynan directly approached Meira at his desk.
"Yuk", take Keynan.
"Gue didn't bring a helmet" Meira said staring at Keynan's face.
"Relax now I always carry two helmets just in case", Keynan prides himself on being now more able to prepare.
"Wuihh, steady, yuk cus" said Meira excitedly.
"Al, Lu, Sil, I'm the same as Keynan", Meira left her three best friends waving.
"Be careful Ra, you will be dropped in the terminal", ledek Sesil.
Meira just looked back and stuck out her tongue like a mock, then laughed. They're used to seeing Meira's behavior like that. His friends laughed while waving their hands. Bella who is still tidying up her books witnessed the excitement of Meira with her friends.
Keynan and Meira walked towards the parking lot, the hustle and bustle of the other students sounded crowded, it was only natural that this was the hour to go home from school, some of them are still in school following school activities such as eskul or studying together. Keynan walked with Meira through the crowd of children walking along the school hallway.
"Ra, you really didn't you disturb Aris earlier?" ask Keynan.
"It was a big question, no creative, just another cake, why did I say I didn't know what" Meira replied patting Keynan on the back.
"Ra, you don't think to find a girlfriend, let someone take care of you, let you not disturb the Aris", Keynan continues to walk to balance Meira's steps shorter than his steps.
Suddenly Meira was startled, like there was a soft tremor in Meira's chest. What that sentence is, Meira guessed the meaning of Keynan's sentence. The sentence suddenly spread like the roots of a tree but it was difficult to interpret, whether he would strengthen the tree, or spread further and further.
"You mean? I have to date it", Meira changedan asked the meaning of the sentence, Meira deliberately used a short question because Meira herself did not know what to say.
"Yes, I mean, you're on your own right now, maybe if you have a boyfriend, Aris doesn't bother you", Keynan tried to explain.
"Geez Key, when I was looking for a girlfriend just to not be bothered with Aris, Aris was easy", Meira explained.
"Lo knows that Aris outside has a motorcycle genk, I'm worried that he will bring his gang to nyakatin elo Ra", Keynan this time said seriously, Keynan held onto both of Meira's shoulders in the face of Meira to convince her sentence.
Every time Keynan looked at Meira, the shakes always arrived, his eyes full of worry, and at the same time Meira always hid all that, she said, so that Keynan never knew that Meira was storing flavor.
"Gue..", Meira smiled slightly.
"Ra.", Keynan strengthened his grip on Meira's boat.
Meira smiled again, this time smiling like a sneer, "What a date if only to avoid Aris but not happy", Meira raised both eyebrows in front of Keynan.
Keynan just shook his head slowly, he just wanted Meira to protect more than he could for Meira, because Keynan felt he could not always be close to her. However, it seems that Meira does not currently need to have a boyfriend.
Finally they did not debate the issue of dating anymore, Keynan hugged Meira with his motorcycle. They went back to silence on a journey that was actually quite crowded, the mouths of the two of them did not make a sound. However, the inner voice never stopped talking, never stopped guessing. Their heads filled with thoughts of each other, Meira thought of Keynan's words. Keynan thought of Meira who had always considered herself a friend.
Meira never dated, because she did not want to betray her own words at that time, Meira once told Keynan that she did not want to date until the time came. Unlike Meira, Keynan had dated several times even though none lasted long, at most only 5 months. Keynan felt that every courtship could not feel as comfortable and as close as when she was with Meira. So, Keynan often decides on his girlfriend.
Every time Keynan dated or broke up, Meira was always his confiding friend, Meira was always the home for Keynan. Although they were already so close, Keynan did not realize that Meira actually liked him. Keynan considered Meira's kindness as long as it was possible because they were best friends.
Meira closes the fence of her house, and Keynan lets Meira into the new house after which she also returns home.
The rain suddenly fell that night, the speck sounded melodious like singing in the dry season, cold wetting the roofs of houses. Meira closed the window. It brought forth a cold air that suddenly hit his hair. Meira closed her eyes letting the night wind run through her room. Ah, the fresh wind tonight, Meira then locked the window tightly, closed the window curtain room.
Meira lay on her bed thinking about what Keynan said back home. What Keynan said was telling him to find a boyfriend, what he meant to match him with his friend, why not he himself who became his girlfriend, was not it when he was a child he wanted them to date, or she now has a woman she loves again. Meira threw away those thoughts, she did not want to ruin their friendship. Let this feeling be kept until the time comes. Meira does not want to ruin their friendship.
The night is getting late, dark and the rain begins to subside leaving small specks and water droplets on the leaves. The cold night air brought Meira into his dream.
Meanwhile in a different place, Keynan plays his guitar like accompanying the rain, his mind drifts thinking of Meira, his mind wonders if Meira's kindness is limited to kindness because of friendship. He was offended by his words this afternoon. Ah, Meira why are you always firm with your stance. Then, what if Meira said yes, she will find a boyfriend, whether Keynan is ready to lose the attention of a friend like Meira, but she felt unable to protect Meira when she needed it.
"Or I re-express my feelings all this time, ahh ga maybe, Meira will consider me playful for saying that too often", her inner self.
His guitar quotes are getting more seductive, like accompanying love poems that are being read by a poet.
Keynan let go of any unusual thoughts. He hoped everything would be okay. He hopes to always be close to Meira even though only as his best friend.
Keynan was still playing his guitar in melodic tones, his gaze staring out the window that still left a speck of rain. However, as soon as he woke up from his long daydream, Keynan immediately stopped dancing his fingers on the guitar strings, he put down his guitar and picked up a thin book and pencil. He wanted to write a song, a song with lyrics that he feels now. Keynan began to try the tones that fit the lyrics he had made, once he tried, did not match, both times he tried not to match, he tried not to match, the third time he tried to cross out the paper because it still did not match. He had tried many times but nothing seemed to match his feelings. Keynan began to get frustrated, eventually he put down his guitar and pencil. Keynan lay on the bed trying to close his tired eyes.
Keynan was asleep on a cold night before he finished the song. His room was strewn with some paper that he had thrown. He did not have time to tidy it up because he was asleep in his dreams.
Like a friend, it's hard to be happy you just want to be with him, you will always want to do the best for your best friend. Sometimes it is difficult to express the meaning of our friends. Not infrequently they find it difficult to get a replacement from a friend if he loses it. Those who decide to stay despite knowing your ugliness and stupidity are true friends. What about friends being in love???
