VENGEFUL SHACKLES

New day

"I'm willing to accept whatever your decision is, Paula, but I beg you not to blame yourself." joshep continued with pleading eyes and resigned to whatever will be Paula's decision later for herself and also for their future shelter.

Seeing Joshep rest in front of him certainly makes Paula feel sad and hurt, of course she is aware and knows very well if all that is not Joshep's fault, of course, but recalling how his father was in pain at the end of his life made him feel even more guilty about his late father at this time.

"Who should I blame? I should how?"paula asked me from where she was sitting and now she was sitting on the floor.

Joshep hugged Paula who was now right in front of him, they shared the pain in sobs, both of them were even now unable to speak anymore, although there is only a sound of sobbing between the two that is heard, but believe in their inner selves right now they are shouting loudly to let out all their anger.

"Let's forget the past. My father's departure because of our love will feel futile if we eventually go back apart, I'm sure you want to see us happy, let's make up for our father's sacrifice with our stronger love, for father's sake, for Kevin's sake" Paula said after they had long been silent to each other.

Paula has decided to outsmart the grudge that has shackled her heart, but that does not mean she forgets and forgives what Frans did to her father, he just wants to start all over again as per his agreement with Joshep when they decide to remarry for the second time.

"But, isn't it if you continue to be with me, it means that you will be like hugging a thorn for the rest of your life? I don't want to hurt you by forcing you to stay alive with the son of your father's killer" Joshep said.

"Wrong to your father, not you. After all I just want to start my life without feeling vengeful. Even if your father is guilty, let God retaliate and punish him, I believe that justice will come sooner or later" Paula said straightforwardly and confidently.

 "No need, I don't want Kevin to know one day that his parents have thrown his grandfather in prison, I don't want to sow seeds of hatred and vengeance in Kevin's heart especially if until he knows the true events, let's close all of this book up here, it's done in we don't need to be opened again." explained Paula gave the reason.

Joshep smiled, how his wife had a very airy heart and a vast ocean, what her father did was a very painful crime for Paula, but his wife does not necessarily put his own ego first, but attach mental importance to their child later.

Right, Paula did not want Kevin's body to be a figure of haters, she did not want her son to have a grudge in his heart like what he had all this time, it was agonizing and painful, she said, Paula also decided to let go of the grudge in her heart, at least the big question of what happened to her father has now been answered, and the hatred and suspicion of Frans has also been found not to be the wrong target, he already hates people who he should hate, while for the punishment of Frans, he gave everything to God, he gave everything to God, because he believes, the fair punishment is a punishment that comes from God.

"Thank you, I know it's not easy for you, but you've been willing to give me a chance and a place in your life, I won't do anything stupid a second time, I promise!" Joshep clasped Paula's hands tightly, convincing her that the promise he made was a sincerity of his heart and that he would keep it.

"Sometimes, it's good to look back and measure how far along the road we've traveled, how difficult and how painful it is what we've been through, however, if we stare at it for too long, we will lose the good momentum that is in front of us, and I don't want to lose it again, not a rearview only for the lyrics for a moment and just as necessary, not to be looked at." said Paula with her first smile in living the day with a heart that is without a grudge in it.

"I love you, love you so much more than anything, how stupid I was to let you go five years ago, forgive me for being too stupid back then." lirih Josep brought his face closer to Paula's face, then kissed her lips very deeply.