VENGEFUL SHACKLES

Not worth forgiving

By morning, Joshep did not return to the hospital, Paula is worried about her single husband catching up with Frans to an old barn to find out who the man who threatened her has been but hasn't been home all night.

Various bad thoughts now stop by and lodged in her head, especially Joshep's phone can not be contacted at all makes Paula feel sure if there is something bad that happened to her husband.

The next day Paula finally decided to return to the apartment, in addition to changing clothes and bringing some needs for Kevin, she also felt curious, maybe Joshep was there.

"Josh,, are you home? Josh?" call Paula when she finds the middle room of the apartment she lives in with Joshep looks messy due to several empty liquor bottles lying on the table and floor.

Paula kept calling her husband's name as she moved into each room checking that perhaps Joshep was indeed in one of the rooms where she lived, moreover, if it wasn't Joshep who else could have gotten into their apartment and made a mess there.

But there was no answer even though Paula repeatedly called Joshep's name, until finally she found Joshep sitting under their bathroom sower, their room, I don't know since when the shower water continues to water Joshep's body and head, which is clear at this time Joshep's body looks weak, with lips that turn blue like cold because it is too long under exposure to water, proven by his palms that began to wrinkle and whiten.

"Yah! What are you doing, what's going on? Why are you like this?" yelling Paula panicked and hysterical while turning off the water then wrapped Joshep's body with a towel.

While Joshep who although his eyes are open, he still tightly locked his mouth, with eyes that look empty somewhere.

"Josh, what's going on? I was waiting for you at the hospital but you didn't come back, you couldn't call me either, what's wrong?" paula asked again, she continued to lean on Joshep with questions even though Joshep still chose to be quiet.

Paula is busy preparing dry clothes for Joshep to wear and replace them, because it seems Joshep has no energy even to move his hands, he said, so that the big and stocky body was painstakingly pulled by Paula to the top of the bed after changing clothes.

Paula offered a glass of warm water to drink Joshep, but suddenly the man brushed him off, though his strength had not been so accumulated, but his hand successfully made the glass in Paula's hand fell to the floor and broke into pieces.

"Leave me, you don't have to worry about me, you don't have to take care of me, I don't deserve any of that!" joshep Lirih.

"Josh, you're drunk. I'll get you some warm honey tea to get your body back up, and then get some rest. I don't want us talking when you're like this." Paula tried to be patient and not take heart with what Joshep just did, Paula thinks it's because Joshep is under the influence of liquor and he's not aware of what he's doing, wouldn't it be ridiculous if he had to argue with a drunken person whose consciousness was clearly non-existent.

"No need! I told you if you don't have to take care of me, I won't even hold you back if you want to get away from me and take Kevin along with you when he's cured." joshep said again.

"Josh, please stop! You're in a state of unconsciousness right now, so don't talk recklessly, I'm not going to go take our son anywhere, and I'm also unlikely to leave you either now or for the future, forever." said Paula approached and sat down on the side of the bed where Joshep lay.

Joshep threw his eyes away, hearing Paula's words just now he should feel happy and calm, but at this time his wife's words like a knife incision in his chest that felt sore, but, how could he let Paula stay and live forever with the son of her father's killer it would be a very heavy inner torment for Paula.

"But I don't seem to deserve to be your life partner, I don't deserve to be loved by you" Joshep said in a choked voice with a sore throat.

"What are you talking about? You digress! How new to say we're not worthy now, while we're married again, do you not love and want me anymore?" paula asked with both hands she clenched in Joshep's fluffy jaw.

Joshep was closed for a few seconds enjoying the delicate touch of Paula's hand on his face, he was so scared, she fears that her delicate hand will no longer be felt in her body if Paula finds out the story of Frans intentionally killing her father.

"I still love you so much, I still want you so much, only I'm afraid that if you hate me and no longer love you, my parents are already so mean to you." joshep.

"Josh, we've closed the story, and anyway we're together now, we love each other, it won't be easy for anyone to separate us now." Paula gave a glimpse of Joshep's lips, which were now not as blue as before.

"But what if my parents did a fatal mistake for you, would you still love me and still want to live with me?" fishing rod Joshep.

"fatal mistake? It's not that they've made a very fatal mistake for us, slandered me and kept us apart long enough, and it's lucky that God still gives us a chance to be together, maybe we're a soul mate!" goda Paula pinched the puffy nose of Joshep to melt the atmosphere.

"But what if it turns out to be true that my father killed your father? Are you still going to stick to the same decision you made me?" josep finally asked, he still had to tell this truth to Paula, no matter how she did not want to hide a big lie for the sake of selfishness himself who did not want to lose his wife's child, no matter what decision Paula, no matter what, he will accept it, because he realizes that the mistakes made by his family, especially his father, cannot and do not deserve to be forgiven.