UNIVERSE

Choose me or Auksa?

" Sa, what's wrong with you ? " The voice of little Juanda roared in the room. The atmosphere looks gripping, especially the dim room lights are increasingly supportive. Auksa, the slightly long-haired boy was paying attention to his ears. Both of his eyes were closed as flowing water soaked his cheeks. He didn't even care about the pain running through his little wrist. He thought there was only one, he wanted to die. He wanted to leave the world as soon as possible.

" o! "

Auksa pushed onto Juanda's approaching shoulder. His cries grew louder. He hated the figure of the child who was next to him at this moment. He envied Juanda, whom his father had always loved.

" Auksa, why did you push Juan? "

Auksa. He doesn't want Juan to know that Dewanta treats the two differently. He did not want Juanda to know his suffering.

" Auksa hates Juan! "

Juanda little jerked. One hand reached for Auksa, but was immediately pushed aside by the master. Lately, Auksa has been avoiding him and no longer wants to play with him. Auksa also became quiet and reluctant to look at him as he spoke.

" Juan is not wrong with Auksa. Why hate? "

Auksa. Juanda will never understand what he is going through. Children who are always surrounded by affection will not understand the meaning of the vocabulary of suffering.

"Don't come here Juan."

Juanda. He wanted to persuade Auksa somehow for some time. He misses playing with his sister again. But the movement of the Auksa made his intention stop. Without fear, Auksa pointed the cutter at her own neck.

"Auks! "

"Don't go near Juan. "

Little Juanda struggled with what his little sister was trying to do. He was about to approach, but fear first dominated.

"Auksa, don't do such a thing. Juan just wants to play. You never make toys again, do you? "

Auksa crying. He didn't even think about his toys. He won't even get to enjoy his childhood by playing his favorite lego

"Auksa, "

"Diem Brother Juan! "

Juanda. He doesn't know anything. He was in endless confusion. Auksa's actions and snapping at him certainly made Juan think complicated things in his small brain.

"Auxa."

Auksa throws her cutter in any direction. He wanted to be angry, but he could not express his anger

" Don't come here, Auksa and Juan are different"

"We're the same Auksa. "

"No! Brother Juan sams Auksa has never been the same. Papa never considered Auksa more than Brother Juan. "

Both of Juanda's eyebrows swooped. Isn't what her father always invited her to go that Auksa is not her? Papa had always considered Juanda the greater so he was forced to budge. Little Juanda took a breath trying to understand his sister's feelings.

"Papa always cares about you more than anyone. "

"lik! Papa always different us, brother! Papa loves you more brother! "

" Papa loves you more. "

"Wrong! "

"Sa! "

Juanda's small voice echoed again in the low-light room. Auksa. His father obviously did not love him very much. Although he never lacked affection like other children, but he knew, his father behaved more and more to his sister only. He always invites his sister Auksa to go anywhere. Give me the toys that Auksa wants. Even pinned his father's long name behind the name of Auksa as Marga. While her? Juanda was often denounced by his friends. Why is it different? His mother surnamed Alfadiaraga, Auksa was so, while he, how could Dewanta still pin the name fernadita behind his name. Isn't that unfair enough? At the age of the tenth Juanda at this time, of course Juanda knew that purpose. His father did not recognize him as a family.

" Sa, you should be happy ."

Auksa was crying again. Juanda won't understand.

" You should be happy because Papa loves you so much. "

"Juanda out!"

"What! Sa, I have more right to be angry than you. I should have cried because of Papa's treatment all this time."

Auksa. Of course he is more worthy.

"I was treated the same as Auksa! "

"Get out Juan! "

"You're even more-"

"Sister Juan-"

"Juan also has the right to anger Sa! You were a kid so I tried to take Papa's treatment for granted. I was always quiet when Papa was more concerned about you than I was. "

"Son didn't know I was being treated like that. "

"Juan is more than just knowing Sa. Juan see for himself. "

"Sister Juan. "

Juanda turned. Enough already! Next time he won't take the trouble to persuade his stubborn sister.

" It's up to you Sa. juan won't be coming back here again. "

"sister"

Juanda put his foot down. Her tears are spilling.

"Sister Juan-"

Juanda grabbed his ears. He turned the door knob without even regretting his decision.

"Auksa was forced to be Kak's killer, "

Unfortunately Juanda did not want to believe it. Basic braggart!

Apparently his sister is good at lying.

"really right? You wouldn't believe me if I said all that, "

Juanda turned his head one last time and looked at Auksa with a cynical look.

" Papa's not that bad. "

juanda rubbed his face rough. He was already able to connect all the ropes. Frightened Auksa, suddenly stiffened and quiet, and his strong father spoke to fix everything. How stupid of him not to realize that. Auksa must have suffered all this time.

" Em, so-"

Adellia cleared her throat awkwardly, it made Juanda who originally focused on her thoughts immediately turned her head. Right next to her, Adellia sat in an uncomfortable position.

"Gini, so you're Auksa's brother? "

adellia gulped, don't think strangely. He started the conversation not for the caper but to establish a relationship with the Auksa family. He could not talk to Aunt Agatha because the middle-aged woman was pacing back and forth in front of the hospital door.

"Well on ?"

"Auksa is not my brother, it's just sodara. "

Adellia laughed heartily in response to Juanda's silly reply. The man chose not to press. He chose to shift his attention towards agitated Agatha. Auksa kept her words that would take Adellia to the hospital. Now the guy is in the nursery with Om Anta aka Dewanta.

" you know Aunt Agatha, right? "

Juanda berdehem.

"He - mama lo, "

Adellia cursed at the question that came out of her mouth. Goddamnit! he was embarrassed to see Juanda's reaction instantly raise one eyebrow.

"No. "

"O-oh, that's it, "

"She's a great woman who cares for me. My Mother's. "

Adellia held back the feeling of numbness on Juanda's stiff face. He tried to normalize his emotions again, adellia did not want if the effect would look bad in front of Aunt Agatha later.

"Oh, "

"Lo is still the same Auksa? "

Adellia's forehead folded, she tried to trace the meaning of Juanda's words.

"Lo's still dating Auksa? "

Adellia nodded. Obviously still is! People just dated a few days ago, officially anyway.

" Why is it ? " Juanda settled Agatha wistfully. Her lips flicked a small smile.

" Auksa is very lucky." he said Lirih.

" He managed to get a girl kayak lo, also get attention from Papa. "

Adellia tilted her head. One of the two sisters passed by the two without looking. It was as if the world was filled with Adellia and Juanda.

" I can't seem to be, right? You like her? "

" What do you mean by Auksa? "

Juanda nodded. But both of her eyes were still focused on looking at Agatha who was agitated. Her mother must have been anxious waiting for the Auksa who was still inside.

"Yes Juan. I like the Auksa. Really wear. "

Juanda chuckled miris. Never mind. He had no right to be happy from the beginning.

" It turns out that actually Del, until whenever I will not be able to take lo from Auksa "

" What do you mean, Juan? "

" Even if I succeed later, your heart must still belong to him."

" No need to muter-muter, my brain is not nyampe. "

Juanda bit her lower lip in doubt. I don't know, he was so aware that he loved Adellia and loved that girl. However, his ego may be superior. He won't admit it. To be more precise, he did not dare. Juanda was afraid because her feelings were unrequited and she had to hear it herself. He was too cowardly to just hear an answer from Adellia later on.

" Juan, "

Juanda chuckled, then closed his eyes tightly. The pain he felt. Even now, he still feels unfair. His sister has everything. While her? What can he have ?

" Do I have what Adel? " Juanda bowed.he had to try to accept the position of Auksa although reluctant. Auksa was his sister, and it would still be like that no matter how he refused. The blood was clearly the same, the faces of the two were not much different from each other. Moreover, the truth that he had to dig up made him even more eager to improve things. He knows there are a lot of misunderstandings here. However, with the condition of Dewanta that is not possible, Juanda could not ask a variety of questions lodged in his mind. He has to be patient. Perhaps, later or whenever it was, he would know everything without exception.

" Lo has Auksa. "

The deg!

However, in this kind of condition, his logic and heart fought fiercely. His heart still had difficulty accepting it. Auksa is not his sister, he is just an enemy that deserves to be shunned, a pest that deserves to be eradicated as well as a pest that deserves to be thrown away. Auksa the usurper, and Auksa the selfish guy she once knew.

" Lo also still has Auntie Agatha Juan. "

" What about lo? " Task Juanda reflexes. Adellia turned her head, she stared fixedly at Juanda.

" i? "

" I have you, right? "

Adellia fell silent. Breath faltered. I don't know why he couldn't answer.

" Juan, I-I"

" Once you go, you don't have to answer Adel. I know who you're going to choose. How could you side with me and support my position ? "

"Not that,"

"Not to hide. "

Adellia. He didn't mean to offend. Even he did not understand the intent of the position Juanda had said.

"Air, "

Adellia. The two neutrals collided with Juanda's brownish-black eyeballs.

" For the first time, I want to ask this to Lo Del. I hope you can answer honestly this time, because your answer later, you will, it will be decisive where I have to fight again or decide to stop. "

"Adel, you choose me or Auksa? "

"Don't think so juan. "

"i said Del! "

Adellia flinched, as well as Agatha who was still in front of the hospital door.

" Let's choose Adel. "

"Juan, "

Juanda approaching. Both of her hands held Adellia's shoulders tightly. He should know the answer now.

"Choose me or Auksa, Adel, ?"

Bugh!