Trapped In Two Choices

The Endless Debate

I glanced at the watch on my wrist, showing at half-eight in the morning, but there was no sign that Pras was leaving for work.

Finally day after day I passed, it did not feel like two weeks more I was in Uncle Sam's country, and tomorrow I will start college, and tomorrow I will start college, these two weeks I just used to learn to drive, I never even been in this house, every morning at 08:00 am I've gone to learn to drive, first of all, it's a hard thing for me even harder than the math lesson I was in school.

But as the day passed I began to know the car, and began to be able to master it, and today I will drive to the campus, so that tomorrow I can leave for my own campus, and memorize the streets of this city.

For two weeks I had never met with om Pras in the morning, and not at night, because lately he always went in the morning and went home the next morning again, I don't know what he's doing, but I don't want to bother.

Today is the same, I returned home, om Pras is not home, if he is busy working when he rests, I walk to the kitchen to find Bik Siti.

"Siti Bik!"

"Yes non!"

"Sir, has Pras not come home today?"

"It's non, it was home around 10 and go again non."

"Did he do this often?"

"Sometimes non, but non don't worry, his usual master will stay at home non Tasya so do not go home."

"Yes, Tania went to the room first, wanted to take a bath."

"Yes, don't forget to come down for dinner."

"Yes bik, thank you."

I walked up the stairs, to my room, it's been two weeks living as if I was alone, but I should get used to it, if only there was a way that could make me free and get out of here, I would be happier, living alone but not having any burden at all.

When I arrived in the room, I saw a paper bag, I took it and it turned out to be the contents of a new mobile phone, and there was a message scraped by paper.

"This is the new phone for you, don't use your old phone again!"

I sat in the dresser seat, I looked at my phone in front of me,

"good, maybe even very good for the rest of my life I won't be able to afford it, but that's not what I need." I spoke to my heart at that moment.

I also immediately changed the SIM card to a new mobile phone, maybe I need this for my college smoothness, let alone this phone is very sophisticated looks.

I put the phone back on the dresser and headed to the bathroom, after I finished changing clothes I intended to have dinner, but it was like there was a ringing phone but it was not my phone, that's how I thought at the time.

And when I got closer to the dressing table, I patted my head slowly, it turned out that it was the ringing of the new mobile phone given by om Pras.

There's a new number on the screen, I doubt I'll pick it up but I'm afraid it's an important phone, it could be from college.

"Hallo!"

"Have you taken her cell phone? Remember don't use the old phone anymore, what people say if they know you live with me, especially if you know."

"Yes, thank you." Just a word I said, because the same, every thing that om Pras did for me was all because of his papa

"One more thing, in the drawer of my closet has put cash and also a gold card for you, use it for all your needs, and maybe lately I will be busy once."

"Yes, Tania understands."

And the phone connection was cut off, I smiled bitterly, thinking about my way of life at this time, somehow I should be happy, because I was free to do whatever I wanted, she said, even my status as a wife should be hidden.

But my heart does not want to accept, even though I do not want this marriage but I do not want to play with the wedding vows, but as long as I am here, I never have a chance to be a wife for om Pras.

I went down back to the dining room, to have dinner alone again, only the always faithful monk Siti accompanied me.

"Non Tania why?"

"There's nothing bik, maybe Tania soy sauce."

"Non finish the food and rest."

I just smiled, continued eating, and headed to my room, I really need to rest, tomorrow I'll start on campus.

Tonight I was restless about not being able to sleep, I kept being overshadowed by my mother's advice about housekeeping, and right now all that advice I just ignore, I should still do my job, even though I only filled the om Pras plate with breakfast, but I was not given the opportunity to do so.

Because last night I could not sleep well, almost today I was bad luck, I ran to the bathroom and quickly get ready, I passed the room om Pras slowly, I went through, but there was no sign of any occupants inside.

I decided to have breakfast before going to college.

"Non Tania!"

"Yes bik."

"It's no deposit from master for non Tania."

"What'sthis?Om Pras has gone home bik?"

"It's non, at 04:00 this morning, it's a new car key for non Tania."

"But, in the garage, there are cars that are never used!"

"Bibik also does not know non, but said Mr. non Tania to the campus take this car."

"Yes, thank you."

I walked to the parking lot located next to the right, and it turned out to be true, there was a red car, I went straight to the car because I did not want to bad luck to his campus.

I carefully started the car, actually I was still not so Bravo, but I had to be able to so as not to trouble others.

The car I drove started to break up the street crowd that morning, I was looking for a comfortable parking space after arriving at the campus.

And I don't know what a coincidence this morning I immediately met with Alvin's brother in the parking lot.

"Tania!"

"Sir Al."

"You got your own car?"

"Then we go inside."

I just nodded, And we walked together to each other's classes, many eyes were staring at me at that time, precisely looking at us both, I was uncomfortable, because I was not used to it.

We both split up in front of each other's classes, today the lecture was finished at about three in the afternoon, so I had to have lunch at the canteen, and decided to go back home and take a break.

"Tania, do you want to go straight home?"

"Yes, Tania wants to rest at home."

"Yes be careful, see you tomorrow."

I walked to the place where my car was parked and drove it to the house, and it turned out that my car and Om Pras entered almost simultaneously.

"Tumben's coming home, what's the wind?" I immediately got out of the car and walked towards om Pras.

"Om, are you home?"

But the question is just silence just focus on taking his suit in the car, and just pass from before me.

I also came in because I want to rest, and in the middle room there is already a bik Siti waiting for her master to come home.

"Bik Siti, please make me some coffee!"

"Yes sir!"

I just looked towards the two of them and preceded om Pras to go up to my room, I immediately took a shower and put on some casual clothes, and went back down, downstairs, in front of the stairs I passed by Bik Siti.

"The coffee is for om Pras?"

"Yes, non."

"Yes, let Tania deliver."

"But non!"

"It's okay bik, Tania also wants to talk to om Pras."

"Yes, be careful not the coffee is hot."

"Yes, calm down." I smiled at Siti's bik and I used the elevator to go back up, I was tired of just coming down the stairs.

I immediately headed to Om Pras' room, and knocked on his bedroom door.

"Tok tok!"

"Lake in!"sounds from within.

I turned the doorknob of the room om pras, and there was no sight of the owner of the room inside, but I heard his voice, I walked in slowly towards a small table in front of the light brown sofa, and I placed the cup of coffee that had been made by the bik siti.

I turned my head around the room, but I found nothing, But I saw this room was so neat, surely because the bik siti took care of it well, I walked slowly to the balcony of om pras' room, staring at the twilight that was about to disappear from there, what an incredible city.the afternoon breeze made me close my eyes, I was, I could feel so calm that I forgot I was in someone else's room.

And I heard the sound of footsteps, and it must be om pras, and I also intended to leave the room, but it was too late, Om Pras was already at the door to the balcony.

"Tania, what are you doing in my room ?"

" Sorry Om, just wanted to deliver coffee, but tania did not see Om so tania looking to the balcony was not there either, but this Tania already wanted to go kok Om!"

"Where's siti?"

" It's in the kitchen, it's dinner, it's Tania who helped Bibik deliver coffee."

"But you're not a waiter in this house, don't do something that'll make you mad at me."

"But um, Tania's just delivering coffee, it's not a hard job."

"But you don't have to do anything in this house, you just live quietly, and go to college properly, isn't that what you want?"

I was silent where I stared at om pras, I was saturated, it seemed like we had to talk, maybe there were a lot of things I did not understand about life because of my age, But my life with my mother was full of obstacles made me learn many things about life.

"Om pras, it looks like we need to talk, it's been almost three weeks that we've had one roof, but we've only met four days, Tania knows it's busy, it's not a problem for Tania."

"There's nothing we need to talk about, we're under that one roof because of coercion."

"Tania knows Om, and for that we need to talk"

"What do we need to talk about?" Om Pras spoke without even looking me in the face and he walked to the edge of the balcony and turned his back to me, but it was not a problem for me, even so it would reduce my fear a little.

"Om , if all this makes Om depressed and disrupts Om's life, why don't Om just divorce Tania om, Tania can live alone and live it all by herself."

" Why don't you just leave me, don't you know that I've never loved you and loved anyone else, But it doesn't seem to matter to you because all you want is money right ?"

"Yes, Am I right, indeed the money that Tania wanted , Money and money, now Om is satisfied to hear the answer from Tania?" tania's voice began to rise.

"Without you answering I already knew, so why did you make a play by asking me to leave you, so that Papa would get angry and destroy all my Business and it would be as if you were a victim?"

"I am a victim!"

"ha, ha.ha, your victim says, your own victim of greed!"

"Yes I was greedy, wanted money from people I never knew, even I was selfish because I was willing to marry Mr Sanjaya for money, and do I have a choice?"

I began to lose control, I was angry at myself who was so stupid and stuck with all this, but om Pras still did not stare at me, even the cup of coffee he had held was placed on the edge of the balcony, next to him standing.

"Listen to me carefully, you don't show me as if you were the one who was wronged, I never forbid you to leave here"

"Had I had a choice, I would have chosen to go, for what reason would I survive with someone who never thought I existed."

"Then choose a way to go."

Tania is back in silence, at this time she is trying to be strong, but will Tani go and leave Pras?