Trapped In Two Choices

The Heart of Pras

"You don't cry, let alone everything I say is true, and listen to my words carefully, and remember who you really are."

After talking spicy to me om Pras went upstairs, maybe he was right, why I cried, Because it is true that I married for money.

"Non Tania, what happened why are you angry?"

I raised my face to look at the bik Siti, and shook my head, I tried to smile even though my heart was hurt by all the words om Pras .

I walked out and went to the place last night where I and Siti sat, I looked up at the sky that began to darken that afternoon, dark as my wounded heart.

If only I had a choice and a chance, I would rather live in Jakarta alone, looking for my own sustenance to continue my life.

"Mother, Tania misses mother, why did mother leave Tania and face the bitterness of life herself." I sobbed again, powerless as I endured my longing and sorrow.

But rice has become porridge is a life choice that I have to live, and I am confused why om Pras should marry me if indeed he has a lover.

At that time I was like hearing the sound of a car entering the yard of om Pras house, but who came, I intended to see it, but I said I did not want to be wrong again.

Because the day was getting darker I decided to enter, and sure enough there was a red car that was parked in the yard just like that.

I also do not want to bother with it, maybe it's his friend om Pras so he is free as he pleases. I went in and met Bik Siti in the middle room but did not see who the guest was.

"Where's Don Tania from?"

"From the park beside the bik house, Tania has been to the room first yes bik."

"Money!"

I stopped my steps and looked at Siti's bik with a smile."

"Non, if anyone wants a non-story aunt here."

The look of the woman in front of me really reminded me of mother, her gaze was so soothing to my heart, but at that time I just shook my head and smiled at Bik Siti, I climbed the stairs to my room.

But when I was going through his study om Pras, I heard a woman's laughing voice there, but who was the woman there.

The spoiled voice of the woman made me alone become uncomfortable, I also passed through the room om Pras and did not want to bother about it. Maybe it was his new friend.

But no more than three steps I passed through the room, the door was open.

"Hey Tania!"

Because my name was called I faced the voice, and it turned out that Tasya was there, I smiled at him.

"Tante Tasya is here?" Ask me a stale.

"Yes, Tania tried to change your call to me, I think I'd rather you call me mom or sister."

"But Auntie is not her boyfriend om Pras, it is impossible if tania call brother right, does not it sound strange ?"

"Haaah ha ha ha, you are also Tania, why does Pras have to be your om!"

I'm just grinning, I can't say that he's not my om but my husband, and if I say that means who should I call you?

And behind Tasya look Om Pras who went to the door, and at that time did not wear his clothes, what did om and Auntie do inside.

"Eh Auntie, next time you know the clothes, what if there's a tiger here for sure he'll pounce on it."

Tasya also immediately looked at his clothes and grinned at me, because at that time his clothes were indeed open buttons, and I stared at om Pras, but did not say anything, he said, because I have no right to speak.

I passed into my room, I sat in the corner of the bed, even though I never loved om Pras, and he only considered me a stranger, but I am the wife of Sah according to law and religion, should my household be like this, but until when, I should live in this bond.

I'm not jealous, but what's it like to get married, and why should I feel like this marriage, I used to hope that one day I would get a soul mate who loved me and always supported me but it was just a dream.

I close my eyes and lean on the head of the bed, when I can escape the sadness if my life continues like this, having a husband but my husband even loves other women.

maybe right now all I have to do is try not to have any feelings for om pras, because it will only hurt me, let's just say this is my status as a nephew and Om. I also do not want to have a husband who has behavior like om pras, men who do not understand religion, and Om, the foreign world made him forget the rules.

The sound of a phone ringing in the room also broke my daydream at that time.

" Hello miss Tania this is Bik Siti, come down soon yes non, we will have dinner!"

" Bik, Tania isn't hungry yet, eat first!"

" But non, sir can be angry if non don't come down to eat"

" Bik, Kan no difference, usually om pras also eat alone right, especially today there is also aunty Tasya right, Ya already bik, Tania want to rest."

I turn off the phone, and pull the blanket to sleep, I'm tired, but not my tired body, but my tired heart and mind, I'll be strong, it's only been a day that I can't see Om Pras and Tasya, what if that woman comes here every day.

Downstairs Om Pras and Tasya were already at the dining table, for dinner together.

" Bik, where's Tania?"

" Non Tania, he said not hungry Mr. , He asked not to wait." replied the bik Siti carefully.

" Has she eaten?"

"Not Mr."

" Yes, Bik Siti just continue the work!"

"Good Sir"

"Can we eat ? I'm so hungry, baby"

" I'll call Tania's room soon."

"Why do you seem so worried about that girl ?"

" No, I just don't want Papa to think I don't take good care of him."

" He's an adult, no need to take care of it anymore, you don't worry too much he'll be fine, if hungry he'll definitely come down alone to eat isn't it ?"

" Wait a minute I'll call her first, if you're so hungry eat first."

"okay!"

Tasya also took the plate and filled it with food on the table, he was hungry after his hot activities with the pras, but other things with pras, pras, he contacted Tania's room with his cell phone, but there was no answer, pras went upstairs leaving Tasya Yang to eat, Pras does not want if Tania is sick then her Papa will be furious.

Pras knocked on the door repeatedly, but there was no answer, Pras also tried to turn the handle of his room door and it was not locked by Tania, Pras slowly entered and saw Tania was sleeping soundly, Tania was sleeping, It is just right that there is no answer.

"Was she sleeping so hard she didn't hear the phone call and the door was knocked?"

Pras also spoke to himself while shaking his head, Pras slowly approached Tania's bed, Staring at the plain girl before him, and Pras saw there were tears at the end of the girl's eyes, and he saw that there were tears in her eyes, what happened, was it because his words hurt her so much? Pras took a deep breath, there was a sense of guilt in him, although Pras was actually a good person, but his hard upbringing after his mother did not make Pras Soluble in a free life, but his Papa did, especially after he lived alone abroad made him fall into a life without rules.

Pras looked around Tania's room, he saw a picture framed shabby, Pras thought that it must be Tania's mother. Pras breathed a heavy sigh, maybe at this time he was making Tania's life so chaotic, but Pras also felt it was not her fault either, because Tania herself agreed to get married.

Pras rubbed his face rough, he was confused, what he should do, but obviously he would not be able to love Tania, because he loved Tasya so much, she said, and if divorcing him is not possible because Papa has threatened

Nya.

Seeing his deep sleep Tania Pras also undo his intention to wake Tania, he also intends to return to the lower floor. But Pras had not yet stepped out his feet, he heard Tania's voice say his name.

"Om Pras, I'm sorry Tania, but Tania is not a bad person, Tania loves you."

It turns out that Tania was just delirious, Pras again took a heavy breath, it turned out that only two days with himself this girl could make him upset.

Pras does not know the reason Tania married him at all, But he does not want to know, But how Pras will face Tania, because if he continues with Pras will continue to hurt him.