Trapped in a Fake Grip

TGP 12'S

"Did my stomach grow its seeds Er?".

A slightly gray afternoon took me to a walk through a mother and daughter clinic not far from the restaurant where I worked.

Not much to wait for because I deliberately came at quiet hours. Feeling a little uncomfortable when seeing other patients join hands with a friendly and cheerful face after leaving the obgyn doctor's room.

"Mrs Renata. "a nun called my name.

"Yes my sister. "my answer snapped from daydreaming.

"Please madam now it's your turn". The nurse let me into the practice room dr. Ayu Winingsih Sp.Og

An obstetrician who turned out to be young, beautiful with a graceful hijab smiled graciously.

" Please sit Mrs Renata down. Is there anything I can help you with? I see you're a new patient here" he said flipping through the registration book.

" I. yes, doc. I'm a new patient here ".

" I want to see if I am pregnant or not. Lately I feel often nauseous, and my stomach like squeezed, I also easily tired and lethargic dock" explained I at length.

Doctor Ayu responded to my explanation with a nod and smiled.

"Let's Madam, please lie there".

I nodded obediently and followed Doctor Ayu's instructions. After lying down and given a gel spread that is either gel what. I was also directed to look at the monitor screen.

After conducting a series of examinations that I did not understand, the Doctor concluded that I did not actually experience pregnancy.

(note genk Renata apparently did not get pregnant😂💃)

"Sorry Mrs Renata, I have to deliver bad news" Doctor Ayu sighed heavily.

"like her you are just having a false pregnancy condition or in our terms you are having pseudocyesis. Indeed the symptoms are the same as you and in pregnant women generally feel. However, sorry there is no pregnancy and unfortunately in your womb there is no developing fetus".

Doctor Ayu explained in detail and I don't know. After hearing the retribution from Doctor Ayu my mind drifted back.

Between the turbulent feelings of joy and sadness collided with each other.

"Mrs, are you okay?"

The question from Doctor Ayu restored my consciousness.

"Yes Doctor, I'm fine".I replied flatly.

" Mistress, under these conditions the role of your husband is much needed. Is your husband taking you?".

I just shook my head which felt really heavy.

After a series of examinations also the explanation of Doctor Ayu. I decided to take a vitamin prescription and rush home. With shaky footsteps, I again digested every explanation from the Doctor.

A reality that should make me happy and free. I feel the opposite. There was a feeling of disappointment.

When we arrived at the parking lot..

Drrtt.. Drrtt..

Refrigerator Calling...

I think he wants to charge for his work yesterday that has managed to give me a lot of concrete evidence of who the King of Tombal really is that I have trusted all along.

After entering the vehicle and providing a comfortable position for my perched bo kong I also received his call..

"What's the matter you called me? If only to ask for your payment, take it easy, I will transfer!!! Just tell me what your account number is? And one more thing I'm in a bad state. So help you fridge don't talk weird and make my mood messier"

Omel me without asking or just saying hello.

"Can we meet, Renata?"

Nyess...

Like a bonfire covered with water. Instantly my heart slipped a little embarrassed to hear the voice of the refrigerator so calm.

"Why did you meet me?" I'm busy there's no time to meet you".

"What do you think is going on? You don't have to think of the weird Reta. I called you because I wanted to see you there's something we need to talk about. And it matters".

" Well tell me where we're meeting?"

"Later I'll tell you, you've been careful on the road. I see you've been so tangled lately like a lost kite thread".

" You.. Kul.. "

tut tut tut tut tut

"How dare the fridge scoff at me. uh know where He is that I'm tangled up like this"

my great-granddaughter while looking and touching my face from the rearview mirror.

After being satisfied to see my disheveled face, I was speeding the four-wheelers through the traffic jam in the afternoon.

Today was exhausting with the surprises I had.

Arriving home, I saw Dita, Dika and Diki they were studying after fulfilling their obligations to the Creator.

I drag my bare feet to get into the room and lay down for a moment on my most comfortable mattress. Oh God.. I'm like in a game I created myself.

Not wanting to go back into the world of daydreaming, I immediately went to wash myself and fulfill my obligations that were somehow the last time I carried it out.

I feel humiliated, ashamed and insolent.

My parents never taught me to be a cheap woman.

"Dad.. Mother.. I'm sorry"

in my do'a, tucked deep regret.

It's not what I imagined, I don't want to ruin myself but it's all happening.

The fact that I didn't contain her fetus Er re-emerged in the mind. Immediately I clap thoughts that will only make me tangle.

"I should be happy not to conceive a fetus from the results of my unhealthy relationship with Er, and tomorrow I will also get what I want" I muttered with a wry smile.

Kling..

The incoming message from San-san gives the address information of where we meet tomorrow.

Kling..

Back inbound messages across my phone again.. When I saw it was Er who sent me a message.

"Darling I miss.. Why are you avoiding me today. Didn't tell me you weren't well".

"So I picked you up but your friend said you came home sick".

" I'm going to your house, wait."

"Why read only, and not reply".

" Dear Renata please reply to my message"

Back I just opened and read it without wanting to reply to his message. My heart may not be okay. Or is processing to be okay.

Clies..

Back I saw Er sending a message and it was just a heart-shaped emoticon

"❤".

Maybe if yesterday I'd feel excited and blushing just by being sent a message by her. Apparently not applicable for now, my heart was already disappointed in him.

Tok tock..

"Sister, is Brother asleep?"

Dita screamed from outside the room startling me.

"Not Dit, what's up? if only I would take my sister out to eat. My sister ate outside". I lied to Dita.

" No, brother, this is not about that. But it's about the others, brother, yes the others are urgent."

Dita Seru.

"Come on, sister for a second"

Cklek..

I opened the door with my face bent, and my lips pursed.

"What's wrong Dita? , Brother sleepy to sleep!!"

Half lazy to open my eyes for fear of being caught I asked Dita.

"Darling are you okay?".

Dumplings..

That voice that was trying to get me to forget why it suddenly sounded so close.

I opened my eyes quickly, and I could see that He was standing right in front of me.

Immediately I normalized my heartbeat from the shock I saw him suddenly in plain sight.

"Hey baby, has it been a while?" because of the daydreaming preoccupation to the sound of Er's car entering the front of the house.

I made her smile so she wouldn't be more suspicious of my attitude. Not long ago I revealed who he really is.

"Don't worry, I just came".

" I miss you baby" she said sincerely.

He held me in his arms that still felt warm. Gently caress my black crown and give her dozens of warm kisses.

"Kuat Renata strong.don't go back into the trap of the lion later You feel more pain and tormented" in my heart continue to rapan do'a strength not to go back into the hambang hambu enjoyment for a moment.

"I miss you too Er.. But sorry my condition is not good, my immunity is declining. Maybe I'm tired of taking care of the restaurant and serving you Er". The reason I convinced Er not to invite me to Nganu tonight.

" I'll take you to the doctor, baby, get ready" he said firmly.

"I just checked with Er's doctor, it's the medicine in the room just got drunk" obviously I refused because I knew He actually couldn't be strong for long if both and stuck with my body.

"Hmm. okay. Do you want me to stay here with Honey tonight?" obviously I must have refused. If He stays here with me I may fail to moveon I thought.

"Don't be a pity, let me rest and sleep it is enough and definitely soon normal again and can return to serve you to the maximum". My appeal is not tin class. The evidence of Er was silent and as if weighing his loss profit for him.

Basic Maniak instead of his immediately answer He instead mel people my lips deep and as if giving comfort.

"Okay, baby, for tonight I'll give you some time to recover your stamina. Don't expect after recovery you will be free from the pleasure you will feel later."

His whispers make my soul luk nut thrashing.

As if asserting that I am his, before stepping home He again attacked my lips to numb and numb.

I quickly closed the door and ran into the room. I'm afraid Er is coming and I can't hold back all my wild rat has anymore.

I threw my body on the bed. I closed my eyes and without feeling I too slept through the dream ocean.

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Still not feeling it either.

Still road way also typo and his muter²..

Ignore, ignore,

Think of it as the ash among the sparkling cinderella out there..

Comfort themselves.. Comfort without sacrificing the feelings of others.

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Warm regards

💙💚💙💚💙

Ukano