THE WOUNDED EARTH

UNDECIDED

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RIDWAN POV

Ting....

I lazily reached for the phone that was on my bedside table.

There's a watshapp message coming in from Yati.

"Why do you have a holiday today...?"

"Just wake up...Thank you wake up, I want to take a shower first huh...?"

"This morning you can go home, you will pick up...?"bargained.

"Sorry brother, I can't.this is already at work.Titip greetings yes with mama."

"Oh, yes, baby..."

"Yes, brother is also careful on the road."

I left my phone on the bed, and quickly set foot into the bathroom.

***

The clock shows at 08:00 in the morning.

I run the car casually.

The road to the hospital began to be quite jammed by vehicle activity.

To get there faster, I just took a shortcut.

I left the car in the parking lot.

And walk into the hospital building.

"Assynoltom..."

"Wa aleikum salam.."sahut mom and dad together.

"Kok alone wan...?"

"Yati not invited...?"ask dad.

"Yes yeah, you can't do it when you go to work the morning shift."

"Just say hello to my dad to my mom." I explained.

"Oo that way, it's not pa-pa." replied Mama.

"Wan, help you to the pharmacy downstairs, because the father has not taken the drug mama for his outpatient.."ask dad.

"Well yeah."

"Father same mom go home first later Ridwan nyulai.."ujar I then leave the hospital room mama.

The queue at the drug collection counter for the patients is quite a lot.

I took a long breath.

After handing over the recipe at counter 1, I looked for the last seat to make it more comfortable.

"Ridwan..."

I was surprised when a man called my name.

"Sir Yoga..?"

"How are you, brother..?"hello I try to be reasonable.

"Good God."

"Who's sick, man...?"ask her.

"Mama, but this morning we can go home."

"Self, is,...?"reply I'm curious.

Yoga remained silent for a moment and stared at me for a long time.

"There's actually something I want to tell you, man."

"Maybe you should know...".

"After this, can we talk somewhere else...?"

"Good brother."

After we finished taking the drugs, we were both looking for a place to chat.

In addition to the hospital parking area there are several canteens and small cafes.

After ordering 2 drinks to the cafe waiter, Kak Yoga opened the chat.

"For a long time we have not met ya wan,...almost a year more."

"Maybe.." I replied while sipping my drink.

"And during that time you did not try to find out Annisa."

"Sorry sister, please don't discuss my relationship with Annisa anymore" I said.

I turned my gaze in the other direction just to throw away the disappointment that was once there.

"It's all over."

"What do you mean, man...?"

"Annisa just wants an explanation from you, if indeed you do not love her anymore, try it until it is in a good way."

"If you don't love her anymore, say it.Let me deliver."

"He's my brother,wan...."

"I can't see him continuing to dissolve in grief let alone now that he's struggling with his illness."

"Annisa..pain..."

"As long as you're gone, he's been in treatment."

"Annisa never knew clearly about her illness, I tried to hide from her as much as possible."

"Brain cancer that has entered stage 2."

My body feels weak to hear it .

My tongue feels stiff to say.

There is a sense of raging in the heart.

"When you drove him to the hospital, I found out about the actual disease that was lodged in his body."

"Now that you know everything, I hope you can be wise in your attitude."

"Actually Annisa did not expect to see you again but that night, I realized that she was still expecting your presence on her side."

"Well, man, I thought you were the answer to everything."

"When you meet me or Annisa, avoid it so that she doesn't see you again."

"Remember Wan, Annisa my only sister.I won't let anyone hurt her."

Yoga stands ready to leave Ridwan still in silence.

"The man who hugged her at that moment, who is she...?"suddenly the words came out of my mouth.

"The man in the hospital, he hugged and kissed Annisa..."

"I saw myself clearly even from a distance.." I said deeply.

Kak Yoga was silent for a moment, as if he was thinking.

He turned around and looked at me sharply.

"Jealousy has blinded your heart so quickly that you can't think clearly anymore."

"Did you forget that Annisa already has no one but me."

"We have no parents, nor are any of our relatives in this city."

"I am his parents and brother who is always there for him, naturally my affection is only for him."

"Or maybe that's just your reason for avoiding him because you might actually know about his illness first."

"Or do you already have a replacement...?"the insinuation that left me cornered and feeling guilty with my rash attitude.

"Well, I think everything is clear.Thank you for taking your time."

Yoga went away leaving me alone.

My mind is fucked, though,...

A huge regret rang out in my heart.

"Annisa.." I said softly.

The shadows present filled my mind.

The person I love so much struggles with his illness alone while I, who was supposed to be encouraging him, drifted away and disappeared from his life.

Dreet.dreet.

Notification of incoming watshapp messages on mobile disables all remainders.

"Wan, are you still in the hospital or are you on the street...?"

"Please stop by the fruit shop of your subscription yes...?"

"Okay ma, this Ridwan also wants to go home.."I reply.

Drupal.dreet....

Hose not how many incoming also message from Yati.

"Where's mama, kak...?"

"Udah was brought home...?"

I was glued to the screen of the phone, I accidentally did not read.

I want to calm my heart at this time of all regret.

I walked my feet slowly without any spirit.

Walk towards parked car.

After knowing everything Annisa was going through, I became very weak and lost my spirit.

I can not deny, deep down in my heart still loves him very much.

I was so scared of losing him.

I have to meet him and straighten things out into this misunderstanding.

A glimpse of Yati's shadow was present.

For a moment I became worried.

I've also been a darling with her.There's no way I'm covering up my problems with Annisa.

I don't want to hurt them both.

But I also cannot divide hearts.

And which woman would share love.....

I wonder what the next story is....

Wait this on the lap of mom

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