THE WOUNDED EARTH

TAKE A STAND

**** RIDWAN POV

Do I still love him?

Or is it just too much pity and guilt because of my former guilt?

I realized that the affection was still there for Annisa but loved her....?

I don't know.....

My footsteps stopped for a moment.

Kak Yoga was pacing in front of the room in Annisa's room.

Clearly visible on his face was an anxiety about something.

"Assalamualaikum sis"

"Wa alaikum salam wan" answered Kak Yoga somewhat surprised because he was not aware of my presence behind him.

"What's up, sister, is that okay, right?"I asked while trying to enter to find out the situation in Annisa's room which was still tightly closed.

"Wait wan, do not enter first.Annisa is being examined by a doctor"prevent kak Yoga pull my hand.

"Sit down first" he headed for the long chair in front of us.

I also follow his words.

"Anisa called you this afternoon, right?"her question glimpsed towards Ica's room.

"Yes, my dear, I don't know because my cellphone battery is low and I just activated it" I explained.

"Tell me what's wrong with Ica, brother?"insist me.

"Last noon I had an important work matter.When I left Annisa was still asleep in her bed.But 2 hours away, the hospital told her that Annisa had a seizure"kak Yoga with a very sad face.

"Keep how is Ica now?"the anxiety in my heart spontaneously forced my feet to stand wanting to look into the room.

"Wait, patience wan.I have said, inside there are still doctors and nurses who handle it.We just wait while praying for Annisa's recovery" refer to Yoga.

"I called my sister but was inactive" I said slowly as I sat back down to follow her advice.

"Oh that, my phone fell while running here and it looks like it's damaged" he explained.

Yoga and I finally remained silent, swept away in our minds.

"I'm sorry,ca.."My inner shriek.

I feel so bad and feel so guilty.

I can smile happily when you suffer like this.

I don't feel my tears falling unconsciously.

The door to Annisa's room opened, we rushed to the doctor and 2 nurses who were behind her.

"How's doc?"ask us for patience.

"Alhamdulillah, for now we can pass but in the future please cooperation from the patient's family so as not to be left alone afraid of unexpected things like that" he said firmly.

"Well doc, thank you" replied Kak Yoga.

After the departure of the doctors and nurses, we went into Annisa's room.

I don't feel like time has passed.

Kumandang adzan magrib echoed, accompanying the twilight that slowly welcomed the presence of the night.

"Have entered magrib,wan" said Kak Yoga.

"Please brother first, we change guard Ica" I replied.

"Okay, I pray first" he said as he picked up the peci on the table near the bed and went out to the mushola.

After leaving Yoga, I pulled a chair and sat near Annisa who was still unconscious.

"Ca, I'm here.Wake up.." I said softly.

I clasped his fingers tightly, hoping that he would know my presence and be able to wake up from his subconscious.

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The cool atmosphere under the shady tree.The flower petals began to bloom giving a fragrance that flew in the air.

Annisa smiled happily, her face clean with light.

"Later if you're healed yes"persuade me.

"Look wan, there's a dove"he pointed.

I followed the direction of his gaze to the pair of doves that perched on the tree branch.

"I want to be like them,wan" he said softly.

"You want to fly ?Later we will take a plane so we can take a walk wherever you want"kidding me with a small laugh.

"I don't have much time, man.I just want to know what it's like to be happy being a wife."

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I was awakened by the Iandang adhan Subuh.

At first glance I saw Annisa still not siuman.Tadi night I asked Yoga sister to come home so tonight I will accompany Annisa in the hospital.Don't forget I tell mama so that she is not too worried.

For a while I was still in a sitting position.My mind tried to listen back to the dream that had just happened.

Everything seems so real.

I tried to shake the mind that was not due to the dream.

"Ah I better pray Fajr first"I sat down and went to the bathroom to clean the body and take ablution.

I spread the prayer rug beside Annisa's bed and performed the Fajr prayer.

After finishing the prayer and closing it with prayer, I brew coffee milk to just warm the body.

I open the window curtain that displays the view of the morning atmosphere in this big city.

While enjoying the warm milk coffee back I sat down near the bed of Annisa.

I looked at her beautiful face but it was getting a bit more thin and pale.

Back the dream revolved in my mind.The words he said seemed to sound clear.

"How about...?"

"No, no. Don't now, I'm not ready"I'm at war.

"But the age, the fool and the sustenance of only Allah are decisive, we can only strive" my heart cried out.

"Everything is beyond my expectations and abilities but I'll try" my inner voice said.

Yati, sweet girl from the village.She was a strong woman, kind and patient.His loyalty and determination made me choose her as my life companion in the future.

For the first and last time, I will ask and plead for her sincerity to allow me to make amends for my past mistakes to Annisa.

Although it feels heavy but I feel that his time is not much anymore.

I took the phone that was dead because it was charging the battery and then I activated it again.

Ririn, only she can I ask for help in explaining this matter to Yati.

"Rin, what's up yet?"type me.

It was not long before he was seen replying to typing messages as well.

"Tumben would-be sister-in-law nyapa early this morning there must be shrimp behind the stone."

"He.he.he.he..tau aja"my reply.

"Are you in the morning or afternoon shift today?"

"One week is in the day shift anyway, why?"

"Can you come to XX hospital this morning, I need your help Rin" I asked.

"Huh what sick sister, have you called Yati yet?"his reply.

"I'm not the one who's sick with Rin, I'll tell you that you're here."

"Mmm yes later at 9 otw"he said quickly.

May I not take the wrong attitude, my inner self.

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Sorry mom for not being able to update for so long, the busyness of life in the real world that takes time from taking care of 4 people who are still talking to help misua in making a living finally makes mother's hopes somewhat shaky in writing.....

Please help and support everyone sincerely in order to realize our simple dream one of the commoners🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏