The Woman of My Past

Episode 5 Interval

Thirty minutes later...

Turtle Bay Beach is so quiet in the middle of the night. There were only a few fishermen on the boat. I'm still sitting on one of those abandoned fishing boats on the shore.

I cried sobbing sedan. My lips were shaking, my whole body wet with the midnight rain. My cry was obscured by the rain and the sound of waves pounding. I cried for hours until my body shivered with cold. I stared at the dark sky as dark as my heart. The torrential rain had changed the rain and the bone-chilling gusts of the night wind.

I got out of my seat on the fishing boat. My path staggered between my foot massage that pierced through the black sand of Turtle Bay beach. I stared around me so quietly there was only the sound of the waves and a couple of motorcycle taxi drivers cluttering on the side of the road waiting for passengers to get off the night bus.

I walked towards the door of my house which was visible from a distance. I immediately entered the key and turned the doorknob open. I headed to the bathroom cleaning up the remnants of beach sand at my feet. My blood is flowing in the bathroom. My wounds all over my hands I did not heed the pain. The heart in my heart hurts more than my hand. I went into my room, I saw Ara sleeping.

"Ara, I'm sorry you left you alone at home." My whisper sob.

I immediately replaced the wet clothes with dry clothes in the closet. I don't see my husband.

"Did my husband go too? After the fight. Ah care so much about that damn guy!" I talked to myself while changing my clothes in pajamas.

I just realized my hand was badly hurt. I took the drugs from the P3K box, 70% Alcohol and cotton.

"Yyyyyy....!" I screamed as 70% alcohol splashed onto the wounds on my fingers.

I'm getting into bed. I saw 3-year-old Ara sleeping very soundly. I'm grateful that Ara was uninspired to hear my quarrel with my husband.

I remember my happy days with my husband. The first day when Bram married me, I was so happy even though my mother initially disagreed I married Bram because Bram was a former drunkard. Bram has promised to stop drinking water since he married me.

I was very happy in the beginning of the marriage. My husband loves me so much and spoils me. Until I gave up all the responsibilities in the company I started to my husband. I handed over the position of President Director to my husband and chose to be Bram's wife who lives at home to take care of the needs of the husband. I trust my husband so much.

The day I got pregnant first was the most beautiful day of my life. My husband loved me even more when I was pregnant with my first child. My husband always obeyed whatever I wanted though, strangely nyidamku.

When I was in the middle of the night, I wanted toast. I whine for toast. My husband went out at night looking for a toast seller. Apparently there is no toast seller in the middle of the night that is still selling. My husband bought bread, jam, butter and chocolate topping at a 24-hour convenience store near my house to make toast. Don't imagine that it was raining so hard that night, but my husband was still desperate to buy me some toast.

A heavy rain in the middle of the night like this reawakened a beautiful memory when my husband bought me toast when I was sniffing. I shed tears. If only my husband had remained my former husband. I must be as happy as I used to be. My marriage has been 5 years now. For 5 years I have been living happily with my husband. My happiness feels complete when Ara is present in the world of me and my husband.

"I don't think Bram's changed, why did it change?" I cried asking myself in the silence of the night.

"I'll find out Fira and teach her a lesson so as not to disturb other people's households!" I'm grumbling.

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