The Widow of the Duda Doctor

Chapter 5 - The Suffering of Rina

Not 2 hours before Rina fell asleep but she was back awake. How can his sleep be good if the problems he faces like now. I really want it to feel like he ended his household with Anton, he really is no longer strong enough to live with the useless man, but how else, anyway, all this time he's been holding out for Erika. Again for his daughter he was willing to suffer.

Rina let go of her embrace to Erika, then slowly lowered Erika's hand that had been coiled in her stomach. After enveloping her daughter, Rina walked sneaking into the bathroom. In the silence of the night he began to weep lamenting his miserable fate.

What is my fault and sin, God? Why is my fate so sad? Why should I be destined to live together with such a heartless and irresponsible man like him. His mind while crying.

Lina felt that her burden of life was now at the top. Before, even though he had suffered with Anton, he had never felt as heavy as he was today. Maybe because now there was a life she had to keep in her womb. But even so, he had no other choice, inevitably, willing or unable he still had to struggle to bear all this burden alone.

"For Erika, and for you, son. Mama still has to be strong, Mama still has to fight against everything. You also have to be strong and survive in the stomach of Mama yes, son," down and gently stroked her stomach "because you know, Mama also loves you very much as Mama loves Erika your sister."

There was actually another way for Rina to stay at rest to keep her content, which was by borrowing money from others, but she was not so sure this way would work, considering all this time the only person who wants to extend a hand when he is in need of help is just one Marwah ma'am, there is nothing else. Lina also does not know in the future how long she will rest until the condition of her fetus improves. Maybe one week and two weeks Marwah can still help, but so on, Rina is not so sure. Moreover, Rina knew for herself that the middle-aged woman's job was only a washing worker, whose working days were getting quieter because now there were many laundry services around their residence. At a time like this, Rina did not want to attract others to drown in the sea of suffering together with herself. Let him endure all his sufferings alone.

Satisfied in tears lamenting her miserable fate, Lina moved out of the bathroom. Stared at Erika's face that was asleep, immediately her chest again felt tight, it felt like she wanted to cry again, but as hard as she could bear. He tried to regulate his breath well so that this tightness could soon disappear. "I can't continue to grieve like this. Yes, you can't. I still need to be excited." Rina wiped the end of her eyes that had once held tears, after which she raised both corners of her lips forcefully. "I must keep smiling, not be sad anymore, for Erika and her future sister."

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The next morning, Rina re-opened her salon like the days before. This morning she woke up feeling better and more excited than last night when she woke up.

The entire day of Lina's work was as smooth as ever. Some of his regular customers come early in the morning for themselves, there are also those who want to do a series of coloring and hair straightening treatments. But there are things that make Lina worried, when she works, sometimes she feels pain in her lower abdomen. Lina was sure, this must be the code so that she immediately stopped her work and rested.

You have to be strong, son. Forgive Mama for making you feel tormented. His inner. At a time like this it feels like Rina wants to cry again. He should now have rested in the room to keep his weak contents, but what he is doing now is quite the opposite, he still works because of the insistence of Anton. Right now there was nothing Rina could do but just be patient and continue to be patient due to having an unreliable useless husband like Anton.

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