The Widow is mine

Episode 26's

"You have a proposal for sure to marry as soon as possible, grandfather" said papa

"Seriously, answer me, why do you want to marry that widower?" ask agus again.

I exhaled heavily. My chest began to beat rapidly. I was afraid and began to tremble. I was confused to answer what. oh my gosh, I just know if I want a proposal aja going gini, kayak, my inner.

"Hmm-because-akuu" I stammered.

***

"Hmm-because-I love her" I said slowly.

Actually, I'm not completely lying. Anyway, I'm sure that later I will love ben, that love comes because it's used to. I just don't know what other reasons make the most sense. maybe I didn't tell you the truth?

"Are you Really Love Him?!" the screams from kak yansyah were heard

"Yes. Of course" I replied as if convincing.

"isn't it because you fucked up his son?" asked the mother who had just been silent to watch. I'm surprised. How did you know?

"That's one of them, too. I just don't want to, that kid doesn't get complete affection. She was too young to lose the affection of someone I believed loved her so much" I finally explained my strongest reason for trying to evade.

but I promise, I will start learning to love Ben and also be a good wife for him, if we marry later, my inner self promises. All of them in the family room looked at me deeply.

I turned my gaze towards Zahra who was playing alone on the floor, she was playing her doll while waiting for us to finish this interrogation.I realized, my words had offended all of them.but really, really, I did, I didn't mean to. I just wanted this conversation to end quickly.

*F*lashback on*

my mom and dad were very workholic parents. His workaholic finally went down to his kids, my inner self. When I was 3 months old, I had a bloody fever. None of my parents knew I was sick.

at that time, they were going out of town to assume the responsibilities that the office had given them. From the baby, I've been nurtured by my babysister. Then, panicking and worried about my situation, he called my grandparents who were in the garden.

My babysister has repeatedly called my parents, but the results are nil. there is no answer. Finally my grandparents sent a plane ticket for my babysister and I to immediately leave for Palembang.

I was treated until I healed there. When mama wants me to go back to Jakarta, grandpa doesn't allow it. Grandpa is worried, things like that will happen again to me. I'm the first and only granddaughter. maybe because it's a bit special.

I live my life happily, every day full of jokes, laughter and sorrow. I always thought that I would always be happy with Grandpa and Grandma. Do you know? I never even remember my parents.don't even remember, their names aren't.

Until finally, it is the day that has taken away all my happiness. It made me understand that if every human being was going to leave, I was in shock. All my delusions of happiness were gone. I cried when Grandpa left, leaving me for good.

I always cried for a few days.I don't think I could afford to lose it. On the day she left, I kept trying to wake her up. But she didn't listen to me. Until I drove him into the grave, he still did not wake up to listen to me.

When I lost it, I couldn't live anymore.my chest was tight. My throat was stuck. I really loved him very much. He's the most meaningful person in my life more than anything. He always tried to give me whatever I wanted.

I often think, Grandpa evil, why did you leave ana?, or sometimes think why was God unfair to me? the whole thing raged in my mind. I thought, I still have a grandmother to take care of. I have to replace grandfather. After that, I focus on studying and start working for my future.

I want to be like Grandpa. Grandfather tried to help everyone even though not necessarily he would be helped. I promised myself, will be someone who can give happiness to others even if only a little. my motto is my lfe my heaven.

My life is my paradise.I will make my life sad or happy like heaven. Beautiful and will always feel beautiful. Since then too, I thought, I have to be whatever I can. One of them is , I opened an online or offline business and tried to become a famous writer.

I rarely talk to my parents. Let alone to chat, just meet no. Since my grandfather died, I started to feel indifferent and impressed not caring about everything around me, including my parents. I dedicate my life to helping others.

Flashback off

"Are you sure of your decision?" ask papa

"very sure" I replied loudly

"No. You will not be happy if you like gini, Na" said mama refused.

"Ma, Mum. I never asked for anything from you guys. I never even asked to be fed like my friends when they were their age.I never got angry when they said I was a pick-me-up kid. You knew? When I was a kid, I really wanted family photos.don't take family photos, just take my rapots you guys never. In fact, when I was dehydrated almost died, I was still quiet you guys left me alone at home until I finally fainted when I wanted to take a drink of water. You've always arranged for me, ever since my grandfather died, you sent me where you wanted to go. In fact, even the college majors I took you decided. Please, this time, let me be happy by choosing my own life partner. I don't want my last happiness to be with my grandparents" I explained at length

tears had flowed hard on my cheeks. Finally, I let out all the complaints that I have endured for decades. Sister Wanda quickly approached me and hugged me to calm me down.

I can see from the end of my eyes, my mother is also crying in my arms. It was the first time I cried in front of them after my grandfather died. My throat is choked. I can only cry in my arms, brother wanda, please, keep me weak.

"We just want what's best for me, Na" replied papa.

"I don't know, do you think the best thing for me is to always make me unhappy?" my exact question stabbed into their chests while Pressing the Word 'Always'

I don't know what they feel, for sure Yansyah and sister agus have shed tears.I started to try to calm myself in my arms. I'mtired.

I took a few deep breaths and exhaled slowly. Why should my life be like this? though my intention is only to discuss marriage.I never like if the end is like this. whether my life partner can not choose by myself?

when I thought I had stabilized a little, I started to let go of my brother wanda's embrace, I looked at him for a while with my smile. Now that my Attitude and Face have shown nothing has happened, I walked up the stairs to the zahra room carrying my backpack and my handbag.

"I rest first" I said as I walked away from them.

I entered the zahra room, my niece. I put my bag on the table then walked around, put myself to sleep there. I took my phone and opened the case. There was a picture of me with my grandfather in there, I looked at the little picture and kissed it a long time ago.

I closed my eyes while hugging grandfather's photo.I put on a smile on my lips and then started sleeping. I am not physically tired, but I feel very tired in my heart.

**

I'm sleeping well here. A few hours later, sister wanda tried to wake me up. I got up from my sleep and circulated my gaze. This isn't the zahra room? Ah he, right again at home brother agus, my mind. I looked at brother wanda who had closed the window.

"What time is it?" I asked while gently rubbing my eyes

"Hour 6 ,Deck. You hunt for a bath yes, that abis we eat the mallem below" said sister Wanda after finishing closing the window and will step out of the room.

"Hmm, I don't eat malem deh kak. There is still business to be done" replied I who made kak wanda immediately approached me and sat next to me

"You still angry?" ask her while looking at me

"Sir, I've never been angry with them" I replied

"why don't you want to eat?" ask brother wanda

"No laper keeps doing a lot of work" I replied

"This is abis bathing down and down eating. Brother has been cooking tired of the precious time anyway? anyway, this is the desire of your ponakan also, he said to eat with his tantenya" cerocos kak wanda panjang

"Yaudah see later, sister" I replied as I got up from my sleep and walked up to get a towel and change of clothes and then walked away from kak wanda entering the bathroom.

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