The Story Of Neesi
Neesi - Turning Point 2
It's 2014 and the busiest and most important year for me. Well, I graduated High School with memories I didn't really want to remember. Now I have to focus on opening a new chapter in my life of being a student.
After a series of tests, I did not pass the test at the faculty I wanted, namely the faculty of Medicine at State or Private Universities. Sometimes I am still confused why I want to enter the Faculty of Medicine with a brain like this - Neesi, 2019.
And finally I decided to postpone a year to enter the student life, not because there was no faculty or other majors that no one accepted me but also economic matters. I have to give in with my grandfather, because he will go up to 3rd grade Junior High. Although I attended school in SMP Negeri but the cost of re-listing and others is very expensive especially my adek SMP is Favorite Junior High School. But this makes me regret, why should I give up? - Neesi, 2019.
There were a lot of dramas in 2014, from me not going to college or my family's deteriorating economy. Which resulted in my savings to add to my college needs was used and I regret it now. - Neesi, 2019.
My family's treatment is not as beautiful as it used to be even though it was not beautiful he he he. Often angry, in pisuhi, in banter is common to me.
"You don't know yourself" Papa said one day, which made me realize I wasn't his favorite child anymore.
I'm not saying that my life is like a stepchild in fairy tales that get beat up or demonized every day. Notwithstanding. They were kind, still giving me pocket money and food but their treatment of me was not the same as their treatment of my brother and sister.
One time there was a dispute at home between papa and mama whether they were talking what, but I finally realized and understood what they were discussing. Papa has another woman.
My heart is so broken, but it may not be as broken as my mother's. My view of papa or men has changed. Papa who I respect and love even though papa is sometimes rude to me but never that far my mind until papa does that far. The night was getting late and I fell asleep by myself by hearing the cry of Mama who was crying while being soothed by my sister. I just hope my grandpa doesn't hear because I'm afraid it's not good for his mental health. " He's a kid" murmured me.
My stupidities and the events that happened in my life did not make me think carefully. I'm still the same and still hope next year it all ends with me being a student at one of the aspiring universities with me being a student all will return to normal and I will become the proud child.
It disgusts me with my thoughts first. With me trying so hard to be a student and spending all my savings to make this family okay. Make finally papa and mama see if I'm the only child who thinks of giving up money for college not only for the sake of papa mama but also for his brother. Just for them, my mom and dad saw me being a good boy. And I finally realized it was all in vain because it was never seen even at the end of my eyes. I pity you, Neesi, my old self.Neesi, 2019.
