The Story Of Neesi

Neesi - Turning Point

I'm still sobbing in the ER front waiting room. I was confused and scared to lose my dad. Although I don't think you love me as much as you love my sister, but you're always there when I whine in pain when I have a toothache or my varicose veins. I finally hit the group if I can't go together because my dad's in the hospital.

I have a friend named Rima whom I have considered my own brother. But because of my ego and Rima our relationship can't be said Friend anymore. Our relationship is not as familiar as it used to be and eventually we move away from each other and even move seating positions in class. But he's the only one who knows my life as far as I know his, so I tried to contact him.

"Rim, my papa's on fire. I'm afraid how this Rim "Fill my chat sms to Rima. five minutes, 15 minutes even almost an hour no reply. But my chat was read because there's a green two-tick.

"Rim, I'm really scared" I tried Rima's chat again. And again just read it. And finally I tried the phone and 5x my phone was turned off and finally the 6x one was picked up.

" What the hell, I'm tutoring. Don't bother me yet "Reply to Rima before I speak and the phone is turned off.

I was shocked by Rima's behavior towards me. Although our relationship is not as good as it used to be but. (cannot speak). Am I wrong ? What is Rima's behavior to me. Am I being selfish for forcing Rima to hear my grievances when Rima was tutoring? 😭😔

Although Rima finally chatted back, but I think like an indifferent person. Even the chat of friends who are less close to me is better than the content of Rima's chat with me. Am I just sensitive? Am I just my guess? Entirely.

Not only Rima, Brother Jay who I hope people can calm me also like indifferent to me. Chat is ordinary. And again that Chat Brother Jay I first.

" yeah? " reply after about an hour.

" My papa's in Rs because of the burn" my chat. I also wonder and fool myself.Why? why I said it was Kedia. Who her? Who me?

" Huh, how can you? where's kebakar? When?" ask Jay.

" In mall xx this morning by noon" I replied.

" Patient is "Reply. This is how he filled his chat. Although from this chat I started texting again with Kak Jay but yes this contents chat him about my papa accident. Maybe my expectations are too high or because I haven't communicated with Jay or just my feelings for so long.

All this week my mom, brother, and sister went back and forth to Rs to take turns looking after papa. Thank God papa came home not until a week so that he could be lebaran at home. His name is also a sick man, Papa is very chatty. To tell this and get angry is unclear. I feel sorry for my mom who always gets scolded by papa.

And without me realizing the lies have been revealed in this incident. But again and again I didn't realize it. Had I realized it maybe I could have saved my life and my family.Neesi, 2019-.