The Story of an Early Marriage

The Face Behind the Mask

I don't know what made my mom call myself Handsome. I know this is just a misleading name for those who hear it so face-to-face with me. Unimaginable minds if someone knows me who has the face of this hodgepodge was named Handsome Charming. Even I did not want to introduce my name to the front of the class when it was my turn to go to the front of the class to introduce myself as Handsome Charming. This new school year I remain in school despite the corona being a pandemic everywhere, my territory is still a green zone and student teachers carry out KBM face-to-face. The first day of Monday, July 13, 2020 I first entered school at High School Harapan Bangsa, met with Indonesian lessons with the first day of self-identification in front of the class. I nodded when it was my turn to arrive, and Susi Firdaus told me to go ahead.

Honestly, I chose this high school for a purpose, the past that I want to hide by choosing to make friends with new people and new friends as well.This school is 10 KM from my home. By riding a motorcycle in normal conditions I can take it with a matter of minutes or with angkot can spend an hour of travel if not too often ngetem. Sometimes I ride a BMW car given my parents by naming the travel time 15 minutes. My mother said the car could slightly cover my unhappiness that was already at the level of concern.

"Lord! Today I was told to go to the front of the class to introduce myself" I cried out in small hearts.

I thought I would have peace with this school, but it turned out that on the first day I had been confronted by a problem that I had been afraid of.

I had thought that the Covid-19 pandemic was on my side a little, the other day I hid my face from the eyes of the people behind the masks. I just took off when I was alone in my room at home or in the toilet when traveling.

At school Saban early climb the school yard to enter in this Indonesian lesson I did not dare to take off the mask that wrapped my face. When others freely showed off their young faces, I kept my face hidden behind the mask.

But Lord, once again I call that big name to calm down. All children who are advanced are asked to introduce themselves without a mask.

"Let's go ahead" asked Master Ma'am to me, when I hesitated and fell silent for a while.

My classmates began to stare at me as I began to step forward. They may be curious about my face.

Their spies began to accompany me as if I wanted to quickly introduce myself, they had no idea what I was feeling. How now I feel like walking on thorny coals that could make me collapse helpless at any time, fortunately my limped steps are able to take me to stand in front of the class.

I try to fight this indecision, I men have to be brave, I try to think positive and compose self-strength.

No one will shout, no one will mock, no one will spin around as soon as I open my mask. If that happens, my history ends on my first day at school.

"Please start introducing yourself, names, residences, and so on," Master's mother again urged me.

I'm trying to get rid of this shit.

"My name is Handsome" I said slightly trembling

"Now take off the mask," Pinta Bu Guru again.

I began to break out in cold sweat hearing the order, I noticed one by one the faces of my friends in their seats. Everyone looked curiously at me. Their eyes were like the glare of a fiery light ready to burn this wounded heart. Thousands and even millions of taunts have been spouted from my friends before, has the tragedy continued in this new environment of mine?

My hand also slowly opened the coiled mask rope tied firmly at the back of my head, without me noticing my mask fell down so trembling this hand opened it.

I don't know what's going to happen when I know the condition of my face. I quickly turned back to my friends and picked up my fallen mask. I wish they hadn't seen my face this way. This way is terrible for me, more terrible than the past I want to hide.

For a long time I turned my back to my friends. Until the ticking of that step towards me. The sound of high-heeled shoes Bu Susi who collided with the classroom floor was excruciating for me, in tune with my heartbeat that began to tighten. Mom Susi's steps that were getting closer to me made me really scared. In case Miss Susi turns my face to be seen by my classmates.

Sure enough, Miss Susi turned my body around. In an instant, everyone looked at my face. Some of them started laughing.

Almost all of the classmates laughed at the teasing.

"Sitt! Looks like a face full of corona," continued one of the others, this time the voice of a woman.

I trembled with rage, only this time I was given this sadistic title, this evil without mercy. Indeed, the acne that sticks to my face is big, but I did not know that the coronavirus is similar to my acne.

Worse, all laughed mercilessly.

aku hampir oleng, namun aku coba kuat. Aku berusaha memandang seluruh wajah teman-temanku yang senang sekali melihat keadaan wajah ku, kecuali seorang teman wanita yang duduk di tengah-tengah, dia tampak geram dengan kelakuan teman-teman sekelas.

"Hushh. Shut everything!" Snapped by Susi.

Everyone was silent, the class was silent. I looked back at the face of a friend who looked furious with the ridicule. Staring at his face, I like to get a calmness.The eyes are completely different from the eyes of my other friends, shady and cool. Suddenly she opened her mask, her whole face was clearly visible to me.

She suddenly smiled at me, she was beautiful. Suddenly I enjoyed the beautiful view. It all melts away my shame. Why did I see such a beautiful woman this time, this is called falling in love at first sight.

"Alright Handsome Charming, please sit" Pinta bu Susi.

I was overwhelmed by the order, but my daydreams about my beautiful friend were gone instantly.

"The face of Corona" chirped someone, I don't know where the source was.

The classroom atmosphere was boisterous again, interspersed with whispers, they said my face was corona.

Of course they'll quickly imitate, calling me the face of the corona.

I really have no power to hold lara and this pain in my chest anymore. It all seems to have reached its peak. I suddenly felt stiff, unable to step towards my seat.

The sound of my friends is like a thousand nails bouncing my body to silence motionless. I can't make a sound. It was like I was about to fall and fall to the school floor.

"Yes! I suddenly collapsed to the floor until I was unconscious.

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