THE POOR GIRL'S AMBITION

Satria's Regret

Pov Satria

At first I hated the woman I loved so much. After our divorce, I tried to lose contact with him. It was I who felt angry that he betrayed me, my hatred was exploding . But it is not only him that I hate so much, I also hate myself so much because this weak me loves him so deeply . Even from the bottom of my heart, I felt very disappointed and frustrated at the affair I thought Aulia had done to me . My life felt empty and empty when she wasn't with me .I have no passion and I am a mess.

Because I feel my life is chaotic, my mother and mother Riana who have been friends since childhood intend to match me with Riana. Mama threatened me to kill myself if I did not obey her, so I was forced to want to marry Riana because of my mother's orders.

"Sat marry Riana ! Your future is long ! You can't keep going like this, 'Riana is good and she can definitely be your good wife" Mama told me when I was frustrated.

Every day my mom asks me and even threatens suicide if I'm not married to Riana .

When my wedding day had been set and the invitation had also been spread, I suddenly saw Aulia coming back and working at my company .There was longing, happiness, sadness and disappointment in my heart when I saw it. I miss him so much but I can't express it . The thing I did was get angry, curse and censure him in the office . Behind my anger that I infuriated her, I saved the millions - millions of longings that I had longed for and could not express from my mouth . I act as if I hate him when my greatest desire is to always hug and hold him.

Apparently my ego as a man made my attitude rude to Aulia. I often snap at him and also often make him hurt because of the overflow of my emotions are still great on him. I often saw him crying from the CCTV in my room .

I have hurt him for the umpteenth time. While in college I protected her, but while working for my company, I wasted it.

I have also made her pride fall by the actions of Riana who often told Aulia like a waiter in my own office . Riana had Aulia buy anything for her . The cunning woman was acting disrespectfully towards Aulia.I regretted her indentation, especially to the woman I loved so much and she had a very sincere love towards me.

I still regret with my bad attitude towards Aulia late - this end . I, who was loved by him, was cruel and cruel to him.

Aulia never avenged my bad deeds . He always obeyed my desires and hopes as we used to when we were together.I really felt like an uncivilized man who let this anger and hate grow even more without hearing the explanation.

I then remembered what he said at the restaurant yesterday that he was always trying to figure out how to explain it to me . But because of my confused thoughts and excessive jealousy kept me apart from her . I'm really stupid ...