The Moon Among the Stars

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Kahfi was still staring at Rara from the top of her steering wheel. His head had been on that wheel ever since. His guilt began to touch his heart and mind making Kahfi become uncomfortable with this situation.

"Ra?" call Kahfi back slowly without any sense of despair.

As usual, Rara was silent with tears still flowing from her eyes. Rara does not like to be in this position, Rara's heart even more sick and pained silent call Kahfi like this.

"Ra?" call Kahfi with a voice that sounds vibrating until it pierces Rara's heart the deepest. It hurts to hear Kahfi's soft voice in a clear and pleading tone. You can imagine the look on Kahfi's face that looks sad because of his guilt.

It felt like looking at Kahfi and smiling very sweetly, but what Rara still deserved to do like that, while Kahfi's heart and mind were always for Ayumi.

Rara's heart is like a big stone plunge many times, it feels so tight that it is difficult to take a deep breath, like something is clogging his respiratory flow.

"Ra, did you hear Sister Fi? So don't you eat chicken steak mozarella? Kak Fi is hungry, you know," said Kahfi softly in a clear tone.

Hearing the word hungry spoken from Kahfi's lips, Rara's heart was like a sore. Only these words left Rara touched by pity. Rara does not want Kahfi to be sick because of late eating or tired of taking care of Rara's needs while in the country of people.

Rara wiped away the remaining tears that were still stuck to the corner of her eyes and cheeks with the back of her hand slowly. Then taken the tip of his long hijab to wipe the entire face of Rara wet with tears.

Rara turned to Kahfi and tried to smile as if nothing had ever happened.

Kahfi straightened her seat and stared fixedly at the eyes of Rara who was still wet from crying.

"Yes, don't cry anymore" said Kahfi softly while wiping away the remaining tears that were still on Rara's cheek with her thumb.

Rara smiled happily with Kahfi's sweet treatment to Rara at the moment, it felt like she didn't want to stop and stay like this.

Rara felt Kahfi's fingers touch her skin even though it only wiped the rest of her tears, but it made Rara's heart run around for comfort. Both of Rara's eyes automatically closed, enjoying the touch.

Kahfi looked at Rara and smiled as she realized how happy Rara was with her treatment, Rara's pale face gradually disappeared as her happiness was greater.

"Make the bristles, eat the yuk?" said Kahfi slowly while blowing Rara's face slowly and trying Rara's chin slowly.

Rara opened her eyes and blushed in embarrassment, what she did earlier seemed predictable.by Kahfi. Rara just nodded softly at Kahfi's invitation to immediately continue her journey of searching for a steakhouse and eating.

"Yuk Sister Fi, Rara is also hungry," replied Rara slowly with a reddened face and lowered her head.

"If you are hungry do not like to sulk, even torturing yourself. The snack is stored first continue to eat first, later snacking again is okay but the stomach is full," said Kahfi slowly to Rara.

Rara only smiled wryly at Kahfi's words that touched Rara.

Kahfi started his car engine and drove his car at a moderate speed to their favorite steakhouse they had been to several times.

Kahfi was silent, in his heart confirming what Rara said. Kahfi's heart is really unshakable, his love is only for Ayumi, his ideals just want to marry the beautiful and good girl he had met.

Kahfi took a deep breath and exhaled loudly and violently. It's hard to be in Kahfi's position right now. Loves the same girl as her siblings but is engaged to a girl who loves and pursues love from her.

"I'm sorry, Brother Fi?" kahfi said slowly for the last time to say sorry to Rara.

The gaze of Rara's eyes increasingly pusill staring towards the front, his eyes began to heat and poignant again hearing honest and sincere remarks that were thrown from Kahfi's lips.

"It's not that Kak Fi doesn't have the feeling of saying this to you, because Kak Fi knows this is very disappointing and painful, but this is honesty from the heart" said Kak Fi slowly.

Rara's heart beat felt increasingly tight and heavy. Rara ventured to ask Kahfi about the crazy request that Rara had expected.

"One question for Kak Fi, if Rara asks to be married even if she does not expect love, just wants the status of our relationship, is Kak Fi, ready?" rara asked slowly, her eyes fixed on Kahfi.

Rara's question makes Kahfi fail to focus on driving. Suddenly his heart slipped out of his body. A very difficult question to answer.

Marriage is sacred, not about loving, being loved or not having love, but it's all about responsibility.

That responsibility is very broad. When someone has the courage to say the Kabul hijab, then it is a risk, and everything related to him and his partner is the responsibility of a man.

Responsibility is not just a matter of material or financial matters but rather being a good priest, who is able to direct himself and his partner to become better again.

Responsibility is heavy not a burden of life, how to be fully responsible if there is no love in the relationship while sailing the household ark. Love is very important, because it will foster compassion, sincerity, sincerity, care, and special attention.

As long as the love does not grow on one of his partners then the marriage will be bland which ends there are only debates and disputes and ends in divorce.

Kahfi's mind was completely muddled and in a frenzy, unable to think clearly and unable to quickly answer Rara's question. Everything needs a process, it needs prayer. Kahfi had realized that one day this would happen, because the engagement also happened because of the wishes of Rara and her parents who did not have the heart to see the condition and circumstances of Rara.

"Sister Fi?" call Rara in a soft voice.

Kahfi only gave a quick glance and smiled wryly at Rara as if he did not want to discuss about the matter earlier.

"Son Fi won't answer? Or can't answer? Or confused what to answer?" ask Rara slowly.

Rara has been strong at all times, if Kahfi always adores Ayumi, always happy when talking about Ayumi.

But, Rara also wanted to be selfish towards her own heart. Rara wants to have Kahfi as a whole not for others but for herself. Rara wants Kahfi's body and heart for Rara.