The Moon Among the Stars

110

Kahfi and Rara were in the car to return to their apartment. Today is very tiring, busy Kahfi since the morning to register control Rara then went to the campus to collect his college assignments and signature absent attendance. After that pick up Rara again waiting for control and chemotherapy and have started the afternoon all important activities have finished all.

Rara since getting into the car just fell silent staring at the window outside the road, enjoying a different view with the scenery in her own country.

"Is there anything you want Ra? Before we go back home?" asked Kahfi gently while glancing at Rara who was still daydreaming.

Kahfi's gaze refocused on his steering wheel and the streets that began to be congested with four-wheeled vehicles.

Rara gasped in shock at hearing Kahfi's question when daydreaming earlier, even though Kahfi's voice was not loud let alone snapping. As much as possible, Kahfi has always been his behavior and grammar to Rara, not to be rude and harsh to the beautiful girl.

Rara turned towards Kahfi and smiled sweetly somewhat stifled at the corner of her lips.

"Eat yuk Kak Fi? Sis Fi had been with Rara all day and had not eaten yet, must be hungry? Rara's hungry too, are we looking for food? Rara again kepengen chicken steak mozarella same fries plus strawberry float, how?" asked Rara who continued to express her desire to eat the food.

Kahfi nodded her head slowly then smiled widely in her heart. Rara was indeed a plain and innocent girl, still thinking about Kahfi who had not eaten, actually more precisely had not eaten the food given or prepared by Rara.

"Each Mrs Rara, ready to deliver to the most delicious steakhouse in the country," said Kahfi, laughing softly.

Rara who heard him chuckled softly because she was amused by Kahfi's words.

"Why can Mrs Rara? Marry him yet? Or is Kak Fi ready to marry Rara?" rara asked slowly to Kahfi while staring fixedly at the two eyes of Kahfi who was also staring at Rara.

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Of course Kahfi was surprised by Rara's sudden, innocent and spontaneous question. There was nothing that Rara had thought of before and it was all done spontaneously. Just this afternoon, Kahfi wrongly answered Sukoco's father's question this time the question was back present and made all Kahfi concentration ripple out.

Kahfi stared at the crowded streets and occasionally glanced at Rara who was still staring at Kahfi waiting for an answer from the handsome man Rara had long loved.

"Rara is ready to get married?" said Kahfi softly who escaped from her lips without any hindrance. I don't know what he had in mind at the moment until such precious words could come out of his lips.

Rara stared fixedly and sharply at Kahfi when she heard Kahfi's words that were never imagined and never thought of by Rara in the least.

"Sir Fi, no more kidding, right?" rara asked slowly while looking at both Kahfi's sharp eyes and serious facial features.

Kahfi's heart was racing to see Rara's sharp and serious look. This is the second time that Kahfi's mistakes have been made. Kahfi struck his own mouth with his palm slowly.

"Sir Fi, answer Rara's question? Sister Fi was just kidding, Sister Fi just wanted to please Rara?" rara said with a slightly irritated heart.

It feels very disappointed when, our loved ones only speak false and lies to please others, and not sincerely say it.

Kahfi realized his mistake and fell silent, should the words should not come out of his lips without being filtered which eventually even made a disappointment and deep wound for Rara.

Rara turned her face violently directly towards the glass window of the car next to her and looked out of the window. Her tears just fell, Rara's eyes felt hot and poignant, until the tears that were blocked were not able to survive in her eyes and fell dripping on Rara's cheeks.

Rara wiped her tears with the back of her hand violently. His heart ached, what Rara had been doing was just a futility that would never have an end. The prayers that are invoked to Allah SWT every night are not able to penetrate the seventh heaven and shake Kahfi's frozen heart for him.

It hurts to love without ever being reciprocated, to have relationship status only, with the ring as symbolic in Rara's sweet fingers without any proper connection and inner bond.

If the talk persists, of course before having it whole, will always survive hoping someday there will be a miracle that can make Rara's heart happy and smile satisfied.

But the reality is that it is not easy, if it is like this, want to until when to survive and defend themselves on a love that will never be divided even a little. The love given is all mortal, there is no sincerity there, there is only compassion and pity.

Kahfi glanced at Rara, as Rara wiped away her tears, those teardrops were glistening in the sunlight.

"Rho? You crying?" ask Kahfi slowly to Rara. Kahfi's gaze shifted again to focus on the highway and driving.

Rara's luxury sports car driven by Kahfi has pulled her car over on the side of the road that is rather quiet.

Kahfi tilted her seat facing Rara and called out Rara's name repeatedly quietly.

Rara just fell silent and kept looking at the outside window of the stopped car.

"Ra?" call Kahfi gently.

Rara did not suppress Kahfi's call and remained silent.

"Ra, forgive Sister Fi huh? Forgive Kak Fi, if it hurts Rara's feelings," said Kahfi slowly with a feeling of guilt.

Rara remained silent a thousand languages, not taking a word out of her tiny lips.

Kahfi's hand feels like it wants to touch Rara's hand, but undoes fear Rara will be more wrathful and angry because of this situation.

"I'm sorry, Brother Fi, is it Ra? Kak Fi did not mean anything, let alone to hurt the heart of Rara who is so soft and sensitive," said Kahfi slowly. His head was placed at the wheel of the car while looking at Rara from the side, waiting for the beautiful girl to turn towards Kahfi and smile sweetly and say, 'Rara forgive everything, ' Kahfi's inner heart. But all that is impossible will be done by Rara who was already disappointed with all this. Just as Kahfi is impossible to express his love for Rara despite the possibility but still, it will not be possible.