
Early in the morning, Naya woke up with her eyes. His eyes went around staring at every corner of the room he was about to leave. Her tears are back. The girl then got up from the bed and looked at her reflection in the mirror. His pale face and puffy eyes seemed to be evidence of his fatigue.
Naya then turned her eyes to a suitcase in the corner of the room, she had packed her clothes last night.
Slowly, Naya stepped out of the room and climbed the stairs. Then to the kitchen, the place used to dwell in the morning. He started doing his job that morning for the last time.
"Maybe this will be the last time I do all this" he murmured.
While he was busy with his cooking activities, Zian passed him just like that to the bathroom. Naya averted her gaze for a moment, staring at the straight back of the man who was her husband. With teary eyes, Naya refocused on her activities.
If the days before, Naya would greet Zian with a good morning, forcing her lips to smile, but after hearing Zian's words last night while drunk, she said, it was as if he had no courage even if he only showed his face in front of the man.
In the end I lost. From the beginning I was so confident that I could make him look at me. Even if I dreamed, every time he woke up early and didn't find me next to him, he would look for me. He'll hug me from behind when he finds me here. But now that I know, it's just a wishful thinking that will soon be buried with me.
Not long after, Zian came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist. Again he passed Naya just like that, without even looking at her. It was as if there was no Naya there.
For a year that was the life the girl lived. Being a neglected wife, even considered a bearer of doom in the life of the husband.
After finishing cooking, Naya served breakfast at the dinner table. His eyes were fixed on the door of a room that was still closed. Naya sits herself in a chair, waiting for Zian to come out of the room.
Not long after, Zian walked out of the room and without a word, he went to the door and just left and slammed the door hard, making Naya gasp in shock.
Naya froze in her seat, she was only able to stare at the food that was already on the table with a sad look. The tears rolled back down her cheeks.
He really wants me out of his life for all eternity.
After finishing her homework, Naya moves to a place. He was standing in front of a closed workshop. He blamed himself for what had happened.
All this because of me... Because my existence made my Zian lose everything. He had to deal with Marvin and close this workshop, and now because of me, he lost the girl he loved. Am I the epitome of bad luck to him? Why does my existence make him suffer?
After being satisfied to look at the place, Naya turned her eyes to a house in front of the workshop. Her best friend's house, Mia. I want Naya to say goodbye to her best friend, but undone. He then went to the hospital where Dr. Fahri practiced.
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Carrying her notebook, Naya sat in line among several patients waiting in front of the room.
After sitting in line for hours, it was his turn to enter the room. The doctor immediately greeted the girl he had considered like his own sister by hugging her.
Doctor Fahri looked at Naya from toe to head with a sad feeling. Naya is like a bone wrapped in skin, so thin and pale with puffy eye bags. The doctor then took Naya to sit in her indoor chair and placed the mineral water on the table.
"Drink, you look tired" said Dr. Fahri. Naya tries to reach for the bottle of mineral water that Dr. Fahri accidentally puts on the table. However, his hand missed due to his blurry vision . The doctor's face immediately changed to see Naya who could not reach the bottle of mineral water. He then took the bottle and placed it in Naya's grasp.
After taking a sip of the mineral water, Naya handed her notebook to the Doctor.
"I'm sorry, Brother... I just handed you this book now. I want to finish my notes before I give them to you" Naya said as she handed the book over.
Fahri put the book in his drawer and then stood up from his seat. He approached Naya who was still sitting on the chair then stroked the increasingly thin face. He felt sick seeing Naya's declining health. He hugged his beloved girl.
"Tell me who did this to my little brother" asked the Doctor in his arms. Her teary eyes held back from crying in front of Naya.
"I... I'm the one who did this to myself, brother... My selfishness and my ambition made me this way" replied Naya.
"Then I'll punish you for making my little brother like this."
Naya slid her head against the doctor's chest, momentarily closing her tired eyes, "Don't forgive me, Brother! Put a heavy sentence on me... You've done everything you can to keep me alive, but look what I've done to avenge that, I failed to fight for you..."
Naya's soft-sounding speech knocked down the Doctor's defense. He dropped tears in his arms at the girl he had fought for five years.
Kanaya, the little girl who used to light her spirit like a blaze, the girl who was always cheerful even though her life was not easy. Now, he seemed to be breaking down his toughness and giving up on his destiny.
After a few minutes, the doctor let go of his embrace, then rubbed the top of Naya's head fondly. Not much was said from the lips of the two people, but tears were flowing as if they could explain everything.
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Naya wiped away her tears that kept falling, "Yes, Brother... I'll be gone in the morning..."
"Have you told him?"
"No, but I'm sure he'll be relieved if I leave... I just became his burden. Our deal is still a few weeks away. So I guess, the sooner I go the better..."
"He will regret ignoring you" said Dr. Fahri.
"No, Brother... I don't want him to regret it. I forced her, I framed her into our marriage. Before marrying her, I didn't have the condition that she too should love me, did I? He's allowed me to stay at his house for a year and it's not easy for him either. I am the selfish one. I didn't realize how much she didn't want to be with me,"
Doctor Fahri hugged Naya again while rubbing her back, "You're an amazing girl, Naya. Your husband can't see how special you are."
After talking to Doctor Fahri and spilling all his complaints, Naya immediately returned home with the driver of Doctor Fahri. Along the way, Naya recalls a few months ago when she was driven home by driver Fahri, and Zian kicked her out of the house.
It doesn't matter if I get kicked out again this time. I won't leave after this either.
Upon arriving at the house, Naya went straight into the house. He saw that Zian's shoes were already on the shoe rack. Naya immediately went to her room.
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Her night...
Naya sits alone at the dining table waiting for Zian, but after a long wait, the person who awaited did not also leave the room. His eyes were just staring at the dining table that had provided some of the menus he had cooked for Zian.
I want to have dinner with my Zian for the last time... But he even hates to see my face.
Since learning that Kia already belonged to someone else, Zian silenced Naya. She feels Naya's existence becomes a barrier to find Kia, so she is late and eventually Kia marries someone else. Even looking at Naya's face she wasn't willing.
Zian's thoughts were only on Kia who had married an ordinary man. Zian was just filled with questions in his mind, Is Kia living well? Did her husband treat her well? Only that thought kept popping up.
Naya lives alone with all her guilt, which feels she is the cause of Zian losing her loved ones.
Naya fell silent in her seat, then stared at the closed door. The girl ventured to meet Zian in her room. He knocked on the door several times, slowly opening it. Zian stood in the doorway with his hateful gaze.
Frightened, Naya says she meant to come to Zian's room that night, "Can we just wait a minute?" naya said in a disjointed tone as she looked at Zian's eyeballs as if she wanted to******** herself out.
"What?" asked Zian briefly with his cold gaze.
"I've made up my mind, I'm leaving this house tomorrow morning... In a few weeks our deal will be over, so I decided to leave early" Naya said with her head lowered.
"Good, the sooner you go the better" Zian replied, then closed the door again, but Naya's hand held the door. Zian was again overwhelmed with emotion, "What else?" zian's snapping made Naya jump.
"I want to apologize, for all the mistakes I've made. I've been selfish and trapped you into this marriage. I'm sorry..." Naya wiped away her tears, while Zian looked away lazily, "Thank you for letting me stay at your house for a year now,"
Naya stared inside Zian's flat face, then rammed his body into Zian's body. Naya leaned her head against the chest of the field, wrapping her arms around Zian, with her tears in her eyes.
"What are you doing? Get your hands off!" shout Zian. He tried to release Naya's hand which was coiled around her body, but the tighter Naya hugged him.
"Please, just for a moment... Let me lean in here for the last time. Wouldn't we meet again after this day for all eternity?" lirih Naya's.
I used to wish I could lean in here whenever I felt weak, but the truth is this isn't my place.
Zian froze, there was a feeling that was hard to explain hearing Naya's words. Naya finally took off her embrace. And looked back at Zian's face.
Naya also tried to smile at Zian even though her heart was hurt, "Now, you can drop your talaq on me. I'll take it."
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sorry new up... The author is not feeling well pemirsahh.... Sorry for making the wait