The Love That Remains

the morning debate

pekul 09.00 am, nana has just finished preparing breakfast, malika helps a little in the kitchen even though only cut2 vegetables or just washing fruit, after sure all is neat and no longer done, no more work, nana was ready to go home.

"didnana not eat with us?". malika said, nana held the back of her hand and stroked her2.

"no, miss, the chairman is not feeling well, I have to go home soon."

"what is chairman baik2? he hasn't called me in a long time."

"good chairman, even though I have to take medicine several times, mona.I beg you to take good care of the young master, I cannot promise to come often because I have to take care of the chairman."

"it's okay 2 nana, hopefully the chairman remains good 2 and long-lived, he's the one who has helped me, maybe I and darwin should come to see him."

there was actually a twinkle in nana's eye if malika benar2 did that, but she knew darwin would never set foot in that house again,the last time he even had to be dragged by ben to meet his grandfather.

"miss, how could the young master be willing to do that, if that were to happen it might be a cure for the chairman's pain."

malika looked at nana just as sad, actually she was also afraid to meet grandfather, plus the desire of grandfather to have offspring from darwin is still in angan2, the relationship with darwin is good, he said,the discussion of the problem of children does not dare he offended because he knows how darwin fear about it, is still a mystery and a sensitive thing to discuss it, but...until when this will be stored not in the talk, Malika is also confused to make.

"nana, I can't promise, but I'll try, so darwin will understand."

malika tightened her hand, trying to strengthen her heart with hope that she herself still did not dare to hope in her hope, she said, they sama2 hope that darwin and grandfather can meet without breaking each other's blood relationship on their bodies.

nana finally came home with feelings that might be very full of hope2nya about the grandfather and grandson, he shared, there is nothing else he has but the two people, he said,in addition to those who can not be united with a period of time that is long enough, nana only hopes darwin will make peace with his dark past.

while Malika went back into the room, seeing Darwin who was still asleep under his blanket.

"honey, I'm awake."

malika rubbed darwin's back, the man2 wriggled several times yawn before he finally opened his eyes, Malika thrust a glass of water that is always available on the nightstand, and Darwin drank it until it runs out,now he was 2 awakened from his sleep, he looked at his wife with a smile on the face of his pillow.

"what time is it?."darwin

"by 9 o'clock, come on up, and he's making breakfast."

"is nana still here?".

"no, Nana said she should go home soon because.". malika considered2 whether she should mention the word grandfather in front of her husband.

"because what?".

"because grandfather was sick." hesitating malika looked at her husband, she could see a line of cynical and indifferent smiles drawn on darwin's lips.

"here goes up."darwin pulled malika's hand to climb back up to the bed beside him, Malika only fainted even though she was a little afraid if she had discussed grandfather.

darwin hugged his wife tightly, he even sniffed 2 nape malika which of course became a little amused, Malika raised her shoulders hoping darwin stopped his actions.

does he feel good? is it okay2 if I talk about grandfather, is it okay2 right?I'll just ask later.

"honey, why should we go to a big house to visit?I haven't been there for a long time either." right malika considering the last 2 he was there to be forced to marry darwin, but the man2 behind his back did not react apa2, still kissed in the same part, still,finally malika turned to face darwin, a bundle of lips in a soft darwin kiss, why the smell of malika body makes him opiate, making him not want to take off his embrace even for a second.

"honey...".malika pushed darwin chest slowly to stop her husband's behavior, but again2 darwin showered kisses on the face of malika, she kissed cheeks, ears, keening, chin, left and right eyes, and,then landing on the white neck of Malika, she did it long there, tracing every corner there, her breathing made malika curl her teeth, she grabbed the face of darwin with her hand,then rubbed her husband's cheeks gently, a smile on her lips that was glared at darwin as an invitation to do more on his body.

"i want to eat you."darwin has overstretched the body of malika, his hands have pulled every fermented in the body of his wife, malika wriggling, actually he wants to refuse because every night darwin has often pranked him, he wants to refuse,but again 2 her body does not respond like her mind, for the treatment of darwin on her body she seemed resigned to be treated anything to her husband.

"but baby, I'm talking about a big house visit."

"what do you want to do there?". still fondling his wife's body and kissing here.

"nana says grandpa's sick, so should we go see him."

"i don't want to".

"honey, isn't it because grandfather also we met, and I don't regret the past of our meeting, just try to open my heart to grandfather a little bit."malika touched Darwin's chest and rubbed his 2 slowly hoping that the heart could be warm and a little accepting.

but not the warm heart of darwin who accepted, he even saw the face of Darwin who turned cold, when the husband stopped all the activities of his hands, he turned his body, just lying asleep lying on his back staring at the sky2 room, the room,her breath was upset, a little malika pias, if it had been responded so surely there would be a small storm that would attack her, with fear of malika glancing at her husband's face that felt changed, she said,it was like there was a black mist around his cold face.

"what I'm less clear is that I don't want to discuss the old man's problem at all." a heavy, scary voice he spoke but did not look at his wife's face.

darwin moved to his feet, his mood became chaotic, when his taste was lost instantly on the malika, he looked at his wife's face for a while, then was about to leave her to the bathroom before his steps stopped hearing the word2 coming out of his wife's mouth.

"are you forced to accept me?or were you forced to love me just because I was forced to be your wife?".for malika from behind a bowed face, she squeezed2 fingers, tried to give courage to herself.

"what are you saying?."darwin turned his head to look at his wife who looked smaller when she was down and crowded there.

"just be my wife, that's what's in your fikaran, I'm just your bedmate, talk only about what you want to hear, talk only about what you want to hear,you just want me to be nice to you without letting me know about you more deeply."the look up bravely looked into her husband's eyes, darwin smiled smirk, an evil smile long unseen on his face.

"are you answering me now?."

"i'm talking to you, you kind of put distance on me, you don't let me know about all your feelings, you're always gonna say you're okay2 when you're not okay2,I only know you from the story of nana or your friend, you do not show your feelings to me in a certain moment2, why? that's because you only consider me a wife, not someone who will solve your problems or the most comfortable place for you to share your anxiety."you even talk about not wanting to have children just on nana, you don't compromise on me, you don't compromise on me,didn't tell me your pain, if I hadn't eavesdropped that time maybe I would never have known how much you suffered.

the voice in her heart malika made her eyes hold a puddle of tears that almost fell, but she had already protested in front of her husband, her body shook as darwin approached her body, grabbed her shoulder and gripped her firmly2 there.

"don't teach me how I talk to you, I won't be able to talk to you if you keep looking for my weaknesses, what do you think I'll show you?what did you expect?see me cry over the bitterness of my life?even in front of aldo and ben I never showed it."

"why don't you want to show it? show me?I want you to show it to me." Malika clasped a hand on her shoulder.

"because I don't want you to pity me, I don't need that, just getting love from you is enough for me, the color I can't get that in my family, if you ask me if I love you? it's true that I love you because our journey to being a husband and wife is different from normal people, but I won't be able to share any difficulties with you,won't share my sadness with you because I know and you also know what it's like, it's really painful to get that."

"but we're both now, sharing everything doesn't matter to me, you can say anything to me, we can strengthen each other."

darwin menatap malika lekat,masih banyak yg ingin ia hindari dari gadis di depannya ini,benar ia tidak ingin melihat istrinya menangisi kemalangannya,benar juga ia tidak bisa mengungkapkan seluruh perasaanya,ia hanya ingin tertawa bersama malika selayaknya pasangan yg bahagia,separuh hatinya masih menyimpan cerita hitam tentang dirinya yg tak di inginkan,betapa menyakitkannya menjadi orang yg tak di harapkan,bahkan ia sendiri tidak tahu cinta yg bagaimana yg semestinya ada dalam dirinya,karna seingat dia,ia tak pernah mendapatkan itu dari keluarganya .

"give me time, let me think, maybe later I can understand and want to share all things with you, right now, I just feel satisfied enough with your presence by my side." darwin hugged the head of malika in his chest, his chin stuck to the top of his wife's head he kissed her affectionately, his warmth came back, his misty eyes gradually left, he tried to breathe slowly in his chaotic mind, he was trying to breathe,his heart still hurts when he remembers his grandfather's rejection, but, really, the word malika, kakeknya itah he can find malika which is now very valuable for his life.

**connect....

epilog**

nana knocked on the door of the room she used to go to at all times, in her hand a tray filled with a glass of water and some kind of medicine placed on a small plate, after entering the room there was his big master who was leaning on the bearing besara him his mattress bag, his hands checked the phone, he smiled as nana approached him and thrust the tray he was carrying earlier.

"are they ok2?".

and Nana knows the direction of the question.

"hem, they're fine2."

"is there any sign2 that the woman is pregnant?".

"yet".

a line of smirk appeared on his lips, and he smacked the old man's arm slowly.

"what are you laughing at with that nasty smile of yours?let them, now focus on your own healing."

"invite them to come here for dinner" he ordered

"young master won't come."

nana allowed a blanket at the feet of her old master.

"then let his wife come, that stubborn boy will catch up with his wife if he finds out we forced him to come."

"don't do anything weird2."

"who's weird2, I'm just telling him to eat at his house."

"but you're gonna force him and glare at him, intimidate him, and threaten him, right?."

"if it works I have no problem doing it."

nana hit again this time rather hard and slightly made mister darius grimace.

"you mean old geezer2".