The Love That Remains

pity you

"has he slept nana?." Darwin took off the tie on his collar, he just arrived at his apartment when he saw nana who was still at the kitchen table 2, it seems they were experimenting making something, think darwin, like,nana approached him with a bottle of cold water, giving it to darwin who was sitting on the sofa.

"miss exhausted, she made your favorite cake".nana pointed with her chin towards the jar that had been empty was filled again cookis neatly lined there, Darwin smiled happily, he said,tired like yawning imagining the face of his wife who with his love makes a cake that became his faforit now.

"is nana going home?." darwin asked after downing the water until the toilet half.

"hem, since there's already a lady, I can't stay here 2."

"nana can still stay over once in a while."

"alright, but it doesn't seem like it's for the near future because you haven't bothered much yet."

"what does nana mean?."

"of course the baby, if there is already a baby nana will often stay, how?".nana smiled fishing chatter that she knows will always be avoided darwin.

and true, the smiling face of Darwin disappeared, his gaze became cynical and jutek, cih, he was exactly his grandfather.

"what's the old man who told nana to make sure of that?" Darwin stayed for a moment to see Nana's reaction.

"tell grandfather, accept you have given me malika, but so on, I will not let grandfather interfere with my life again, I will live well with Malika from now on, I will live well with him from now on,whether or not there is a child at our wedding is no longer a matter of grandfather, nana.seems like I am ready to break the blood of the father that flows in my body." darwin bowed, he avoids the gaze of Nana who is now tense, he said,he knew that meant that Nana did not like the conversation at this time.

"you're leaving your grandfather?at least look at him for a moment young master, talk to him even though you guys are arguing, the chairman is on the edge of his age, he must be very lonely."nana berkaca2, t,recalling the wrinkled face that kept staring at the end of the street through the window of his room, nana tau, his old friend was waiting for someone.

"do you know why all this time? why do I hate Grandpa so much?."

"don't be such a young master, let him be your grandfather, your father...".

kata2 nana stopped as darwin took a heavy breath at the end of his nose.

"until I was 15 years old, my father never spoke what2 to me, he just handed me over to the nanny and sometimes I was dropped off at the daycare, from when I was born I didn't know who my mother was and where, and sometimes I was dropped off at the daycare,all I know is that my grandfather hated him until he also said that I was born to a woman****** who cheated on my father, who cheated on me,and then Grandpa hated me just as much as he hated my mom just because I had the same eyes as my mom,nana also knew I would want to pry my eyes out if that's what Grandpa wanted me to accept?what did she expect of me, Nana? the kid?I will not give my son to anyone, even I pray to God never give me a child."

"young master".nana stepped mcoba closer to darwin's body, she grabbed darwin's hand while resting in front of the now sad-eyed man2, nana rubbed the back of darwin's hand.

"i don't want my son to be born to a father who doesn't have a family, and then he'll know if his father is someone his own family has never loved, nana thinks what kind of father am I?I'm not a man2 who deserves to be a father nana." desperate, Darwin almost cried saying it, there was a bitter pain when thinking about what used to be in nature, it hurt his pride, hurt his ego, hurt his,and also hurt his life which for him is now his lifelong disability.

Nana who cried a little in the corner of his eyes, he already did not want to discuss this anymore, the color he knew would further hurt darwin who still could make peace with his past.

without realizing it, Malika closed the room door slowly that she almost wanted to open because she woke up from a short nap, she heard all the conversations nana and darwin, she said,his body trembled withstanding the pain in his heart hearing the statement of darwin who did not want to have children, plus again on the grounds of darwin who was very heart-wrenching, "to make darwin give my blood offspring, he said,I've not expected much of that stubborn boy, at least he should give me something in return he lives with his prasetya blood." still clearly malika recalled the words of master darius back then,he was almost desperate and gave up if darwin benar2 did not want to touch him, but, he had to talk about all if darwin did not want to have offspring what should he do, how is this? malika thinks hard, want to be taken where the future of marriage without children?.

*****

"honey...". call malika who was lying on the bed makes darwin turn towards his wife, he bru just finished bathing and changed clothes, Darwin approached his wife with a gentle smile on his lips.

"did I wake you up?". darwin said as he rubbed his wife's head, lying next to her.

"no, I heard the sound of water, so indeed I want to wake up, sorry is not waiting for you, has nana gone home?". malika shifted her body attached to her husband's body, she wanted to embrace the fragrant body darwin.

"right, nana should have stayed last night, it's been quite a night for women to come out alone, uh but why don't you drive her dear." Malika patted her husband's chest softly,darwin grabbed the hand and held it tight.

"nana always carries a car, she's a great woman, it's only dark at night she won't be afraid."

though I'm sure the reason you don't want to take her is because she came home to my grandfather?.inner malika, she let out a long sigh and buried her face into her husband's chest which tonight was refreshing, refreshing,or maybe it's the effect of the bath soap.

"did nana tell you about me?".

shoot darwin, make malika a little surprised, he looked up to see the face of darwin whose hands were still stroking his hair 2, his hair did not change, only his tone was a little indifferent but wanted an answer from malika.

"hemm, are you mad that I know about your past?nana didn't tell me much, just that she drew an outline of your past story that made me,he is considering2 whether he should say it or not next kata2 sentence on darwin who might be offended.

"what?you want to tell me that you love me?don't be that confident, your life is more miserable than mine."tukas darwin by pulling the corner of his lips up, staring at the wavy malika innocently pretentious.

"why am I more pathetic?."

"how not pathetic, you were even beaten up by your stepbrother, I swear I'll beat him up if met by him."

"then I pray that you don't see each other until whenever, I've lost it I don't want you to get hurt by my brother."

"hey, you're still afraid of him, now there's me who'll protect you at all times, so don't expect me not to hurt him if he dares to bother you."

"after all, I'm more fortunate than you, at least I still have a mother who loves me."malika rubbed darwin's chest, she channeled her sorrow to her husband who may now be able to feel the meaning of kata2nya.

"you're right, at least there's someone holding your hand in your difficult time2."darwin's eyes turned to the sky2 room, he didn't want to have a mirror2 in front of his wife, he didn't want to be,

"honey..promise me, no matter how difficult we are later, do not think to jump the building again."malika quipped with a light tone, she did not want her chatter to be a burden for her husband.

"what? nana told me that part too?when I least want to talk about that one."

"you know, I've been thinking the same thing, when I feel like bang arya is always pushing me, and mom seems to be suffering because of it, I want to do what you do, too,I feel unable to stay alone, but I'm not brave enough to just slice your hand or jump the building like you, just imagine it I'm shaking." malika shudder tightened her arms on the chest of darwin,he menguyel2 his face there.

"let's have mercy on each other, after thinking about doing that again, I also hate discussing the past, like opening disgrace." now the hand hugs each other tightly, but I also hate discussing the past, like opening the disgrace,under the covers they close each other's bodies2 to warm each other up, Malika and darwin close their eyes, letting the dream rule them tonight.

**connect.....

epilog*

the almost dark afternoon blurred the view of darwin who was still sitting on the window sill of his class, he enjoyed the breeze that slapped his skin 2, his friends2 had partly returned home 2, respectively,he's the only one who doesn't want to go home, the big house is not a house, but a burial place for him, of course, he just feels foreign to be there.

from afar she saw Nana walking through a large field in her school yard, whatever was on her mind,at that time he only saw the ground under his feet look short and in one jump he would have been able to approach nana without turning through the stairs, then when he was ready, the sound under his feet surprised him.

"kalo loe jump but don't die right away let me throw loe from up there."

and "brugh*". darwin lost his balance, he fell right on someone big body there, even though his head was slightly bumped and bleeding, he smiled as nana ran up to him.