The Love That Remains

love in silence

morning in the office that feels lonely, Wulan tidied up his boss's work desk named darwin very deftly, after completion he will eat his breakfast that he brought from home earlier, he said, already accustomed to the atmosphere of a quiet office, color dulan know the boss will come when the sun is almost high, unless there is a meeting with the client, but,but this time he almost choked on his own food when aldo came with someone who was familiar to him in his eyes.

"morning wulan, again breakfast huh?bring your own supplies? turns out the wulan pinter cook ya."the greeting aldo only responded with a nod of the head of the wulan, but the eyes of the wulan can not be separated from the figure behind the back of aldo, but,now when the figure was very close by his gaze, the moon petrified in his place, really, he was very familiar with the tall strapping body figure.

"wulan knows ben?."aldo who quickly perceives seeing a different view from the eyes of the wulan asked directly without aling2.

"what? emmm..it".wulan glanced at ben who was busy looking at the cellphone in his hand now looking at him expressionlessly, when wulan subdued his gaze, Aldo smiled as if he had found the secret in the pandora box owned by ben.

"ben emng so, his face rarely smiled so a little stiff klo ngeliatin people kayak ngajakin fight."

aldo chuckled, the whistling getting clumsy.

"kalo loe still want to chat let me enter first, so early again the chairman should I accompanied for a business meeting." ben grabbed the doorknob with the transparent glass, it was,the tail of the wulan's eyes followed the back that he could still see even though it was already inside there.

"spent his breakfast wulan, oh yes do not make a drink, we will not be here long."aldo reprimanded him while continuing to walk into the room, as soon as he saw ben turned to him,wulan salting immediately threw his gaze in all directions, and the sound of a "crack" glass door cover was closed there, the wulan sighed regretfully.

"ice cube basics".he muttered while tidying up his food box at the table, he was already not tasteful, now he just sat looking at his desk with an empty mind, while his brain memory turned back to the past, he said, the time when falling in love was very hot2 at that age.

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Benjamin Smith, who does not know the senior brother of one, he is not famous for having high grades on his campus, but his brutality as one of the campus thugs in his place studying, but his brutality,and unfortunately inexplicably wulan stuck romance in the burly but sexy man, no. You are wrong if you think ben who asked wulan to be his lover,but it was the wulanlah who was fascinated by the man2 who was not as scary as his friend2 gossiped about him, the wrestler fell in love with the man2 when ben was several times seen helping grandma2 lift his vegetable basket across the road,then when the man2 was truant his college eyes he even helped his friend sell at the station near the boarding house owned by the wulan first, no one ever knew if ben had such a gentle attitude, like that,only Wulan knows, Wulan has also seen him volunteer blood donation done by the campus, cap for the good-natured campus thugs who may be suitable for the nickname ben at that time, but, thought wulan.

and I don't know what demon possessed the wulan when it dared him to express love to a man 2 who was skipping college hours was found eating ice mixed on the side of the road,with his high spirit and courage wulan approached ben without shame at that time.

"sister ben, we're going out."though it sounded flat, but the wulan was very serious 2 then.ben just looked at him, watching the girl in front of him intensely, watching the girl in front of him, saw him from the end of his shoes to the end of his hair that was just a boat at that time.

"how old are you? you're a semester brp and major in what?."pasan ben with eyes staring cynically at the time vibrating wulan body small and tiny, dainty,if he sees it is just exactly like Ank2 who just graduated from school smp.

"i...

"go home, don't disturb adults, you must also often sleep with saliva on the corner2 of your lips it's when studying, you little boy."

"i'm not a kid, I'm already a semester two brother."

"heuh".ben pulled his upper lip smiling cynically, he left after paying for the ice he spent, Wulan clenched his fingers lentic in his tiny hands, he said,his ego does not want to lose because he feels crazy2 with men2 in front of him now.

"sister doesn't have a girlfriend?come date me, I like brother for a long time."

wulan is the type of woman who blak2an about feelings, she always sepolos it, will say like if it likes and will say no if it is not, if it is not,his steps stopped when Ben also stopped stepping and turned to look at him again.

"finish your school, I don't like stupid girls." ben said really2, Wulan seemed to think hard what if I graduated sooner he would give me a chance?does she want to be my girlfriend? wulan gumam2 in his heart.

"my brother's on the bus, studying".

"sister ben, have you eaten? I'm at Katin' on break, but I brought a book to study."

"my sister's about to graduate".

"sister wait for me."

"sister, why don't you ever reply to my message?."

"sister ben, are you healthy."

wulan was still hoping that at that time, she still saw the face of ben in the third year of school, until finally, benar2 disappeared after graduation, he said,the senior did pass first but wulan did not think that ben bersih2 did not look like his nose even at the alumni reunion event his force, ben never attended, did not attend, gossip on the campus many say that he moved out of the country, some say also that he was married and had children, he said,even his old friend once bilng ben has died because of his life as brutal as a thug, in the rest of his 2 hopes, the Wulan almost gave up if indeed ben was married and had children, but, in the deepest corner of his heart, he said,wulan hopes to still be able to meet the man2 even for a while.

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and finally his prayer was granted, when the wulan began to give up wanting to move on to close his feelings on the cold man2, in a time when all is well2 alone without anyone present, why does he look good2 only, huh, really,all this time I was just like a fool chasing after him, only I kept my feelings for him, only I was alone, and it might be true, if he was married and had a small family right now, stupid me, stupid me,all right, I'll keep moving on, I'll throw away all my feelings for her, and I'll still be fine2 even if she's as indifferent to me as before2nya, you know wulan, you know,the time you gave her was up. Wulan patted both of her cheeks with her own palm, smiling for a moment to encourage herself,he had stood up from his dreamy seat when the glass door was opened and ben came out from there, only he, Wulan had glanced over the shoulder of the man looking for 2 aldo figures there.

"are you married?"

uh, the heavy but sexy voice in the wulan's ears shocked the wulan for a few seconds, not accidentally his eyes stared at the ben who was propping his body on the wulan table with both hands.

"yet".quickly wulan answered him who immediately regretted it because it was found out like giving hope back to the man2, a thin smile was drawn on Ben's face.

just that, Ben stepped away without explaining what his question meant to the wulan, the girl clenched her hand, feeling the big body was playing it on purpose.

why didn't I just tell her I was married earlier.omel wulan to himself.

**connect.....

epilog**

ben kept staring at the glass door that was now tightly closed, he had just pulled the blinds inside so that his gaze would be invisible to the women out there,still remembered clearly the geeky girl with all her carelessness when expressing her feelings blatant2an without a stale first,ben laughed a little, it turns out she had become that beautiful. murmured ben in the heart, muttered ben in his heart,although it feels a long time to see the strange girl to be a satisfaction for ben, however the attention he has been hiding diam2 will make sweet fruit for him.

"so he's been loe diem2 seein, pantesan loe recommend him when he sleeps here, cih, even though I've been a sidekin for me to invite to the opening party later." aldo laughed teasingly, cih,ben looked at her cynically while leaning his shoulders on the shoulder of the sofa.

"don't touch him, he's mine".the firm insistence of the proportional man2 makes aldo nyengir2 afraid, he knows what ben said exactly as he would do, he knows,ben never played2 with his threats.

why can he love a woman in his silence, take care of her without knowing the woman, and move only with his kata2, this strange man2 extraordinary. aldo thought while playing with his imagination about ben who did not show much to anyone.