The Love Behind Friendship

meysha reverie

MEYSHA POV.

After months since that incident, I began to feel my life was falling apart and it was unclear what the purpose was. I can only see my friends happy, can see my ex-lovers happy with my best friend.

I want to feel angry when I know her Final Rudi prefers to try to accept Nisa as his wife for the sake of the happiness of both parents. And accept that match. And then he died by myself. I begged him but his decision was inviolable. I don't want to be silly anymore, I can just let go.

For a moment I thought why God was so hard to punish me, I was once blinded by love until I finally made my best friend disappointed. But that's not my reason alone but it's also because Rudi accepted me, love is not to blame, but I realized it was just my obsession that wanted to have Rudi at that time.as a result I ignored the pain that Devi felt, Devi, but right now I'm happy that woman is happy with her husband, Herman.

Herman is very fond of devi, and indeed Devi deserves her because Devi is a good woman, innocent and beautiful.who is a man who is not interested in her including rudi, who is not, although at this time I can see that Rudi has started to love his wife Nisa.

When I was still in a slump I heard the news that Nisa was chosen by Rudi. I was surprised by the news that I was honestly still shocked by the reality of Rudi and Nisa's marriage, and I was surprised by Della and Gio's marriage. I don't know when they started it, I don't know. All I know is that they love each other now.

At that time, I wanted to feel like I was yelling at the world why it was only my fate that was this bad why I had to go through all this. Why did God give me this fate.

Again I chose to renounce Della with Gio and stay in this city.I didn't think they would be like that. But I can't change the fate that Della's sister is the soul mate of my ex-boyfriend Gio.

My first love turned out to be Della's soul mate. I saw the happy face of Brother Della wanting me to disappear from the face of this earth. But I had to pretend to be happy then. Because I don't want Della's sister to feel guilty about me.

When I saw Gio's face, my heart suddenly felt an excruciating pain, especially when they joined in affectionately in front of me. Oh shit, again I cursed with my situation. Even now there is no one to side with me.

I attended their wedding, and put on as happy a face as I could. I thought I was good at acting. The proof is that I can make a very sad face with a happy face. Aah I cursed myself. I feel hypocritical for not being able to be honest about the pain that until now I felt.

Lord, why did you give me this deep karma, what a great mistake I made that you punish me in this way. Why the Karma you give must make it to this suffering. God teach me to be grateful to you. Even though I'm in trouble. And even now I can only see the people I love remain happy.