The Long Waiting of My True Love
Chapter 3
I don't know why when he asked me to meet I felt uncomfortable. I felt like he was looking for my life. Even I give reasons that sometimes do not enter deacons so that he does not always invite me to meet. I don't like it.
The day passed so quickly. On that day I had a little problem with my boyfriend. I guess it'll be a while, because of the usual stuff, right? if you're having a fight with a boyfriend. Even our problem is just a misunderstanding. But fatally, no one wants to give up. He and I feel innocent. Until I finally decided not to continue our relationship. I broke up with my boyfriend, my feelings are normal because not so many memories that we passed through yes maybe it's the LDR factor and communication is minimal. At first he wanted to but almost every day he called me and even sent me messages from Whatsapp. There was not the slightest intention of me to reply or respond to him. I stick to my stand still choosing to be alone and living my days without a lover.
Although I jomlo not the slightest bit crossed my mind to respond well to petra. I'm still like old sicuek hahaha hehehe wkwkwk. Finally he started rarely sending me whatssap messages. I'm still being indifferent, which means it doesn't matter to me.
At that time I was close to a Law student man who had become one of the state apparatus called Doni. Between happy and inferior, happy to have a chat friend, videocall even stories to friends friends. I'm afraid I'm still in college while he's been working I'm a little inferior plus a lot of rumors that they (like Doni who has worked as a State Apparatus ) like to play with women as he pleases. At that time my feelings were normal because there was no feeling that was so obvious to me for him. Sometimes when I'm bored I often send him whatsapp messages not only that sometimes I also want to start a Video Call first with Doni. Honestly, I'm embarrassed, but sometimes I join. Huhhhh.
At one time Doni alluded to the feeling that I felt bad instead of happy that I felt my mind was increasing. The more he offended it felt like I was starting to ilfeel. I don't know where my ilfeel came from I don't know for sure. Maybe because of my poor nature. Even though I try to be normal, I still can't. I even asked my friends. Not a few of my friends give input about my mindfulness still does not make me stop inferior and ilfeel. But still I can't be anyone else I'm still a meager and ilfeel.
A few days later she expressed her feelings through Video Call. At first I wanted to accept it but I was worried, I was afraid later in our early courtship where the adaptation period I felt bored plus I just broke up. I still want to feel my air of freedom. I gave her a pretty strong reason and convinced her not to be hurt. Doni accepted, strangely she seemed ordinary as if nothing had happened after I rejected her. A little annoyed when the response is normal, on the other hand I am relieved we have no problems and can be friends as before.
