The Long Waiting of My True Love

Chapter 16

The next day I saw my phone was full of spam messages from Liston.I wanted to ignore it but I don't think it's a good thing in relationships. Solving problems is what I have to do. But still I feel and my love began to fade to him.Additionally he likes to borrow my money for so many reasons.

At first I didn't give him a loan. Did he know I was still in college? still need some funding? even my entire work is still from both of my parents. But as time goes by, there is no intention to pay for it. How could I ask for it, and he doesn't want it. I'm afraid he's hurt, I'd rather just shut up until he wakes up.

I tried to think positively about what I had experienced and I took his silver. But my sense of Ilfeel is increasing day by day I am fed up with it.

I want to feel like I have no relationship with him anymore. I always pray and ask God for guidance. In the end I broke it off and didn't want to have any more relationship with him. He didn't accept it but I insisted, I think he should improve his character to make people more comfortable with him. As with me, I will also improve myself so that I deserve a better partner.

I blocked contacts, messages from Instagram I never read and I deleted them immediately. He apologized and never repeated it, but I insisted on refusing his apology. I feel trapped and fooled by the sweet words of a man like him.

The day I was normal as usual only then I had no special relationship with anyone I enjoyed my day with full gratitude. Plus my friends are always in my hard times. I'm proud to have them.

Again I remember bang Ahmad, without me knowing I felt sad remembering his kindness and sincerity to me. I started crying. I also do not forget to pray for Ahmad bang so that he is always healthy and get the woman of his dreams. Although there is no news anymore I feel like Ahmad is very close to me.

Until a month passed I was close to my senior brother on campus which is bang Pen but I think I still do not want to open my heart to him. Because to be honest when I saw a little ilfeel from his behavior while on campus and had some problems.

I began to worry about continuing my closeness so I asked again to brother Risti and the brother gave me some advice to keep my heart open to him who knows he can change.

Okay, I tried again and again I didn't trust him. Just to pick me up to the house he made various reasons do not dare to pick me up at home, financial reasons are lacking, be aware and I had time to know from some of my friends if he likes to disturb other women besides me.

I was ilfeel but Aki didn't show him so he knew I liked him.

The various reasons that he told me in addition he likes to disappear are unclear somewhere. I feel like I have no clarity and I'm wasting my time. I'd better be alone if this is what I think.