The Light of Destiny

Guilt.

"It felt like just yesterday I insulted him in front of everyone, even I just felt that it was too outrageous, but why did he do the opposite, he seemed to protect my good name, he was protecting me,despite what I've done to him, and have my thoughts about him been wrong?".

Dear: Dimas.

This twilight seems a bit dark and not as bright as usual, it appears some black clouds, Dari also speed up his steps towards home, a beautiful journey that he usually enjoys when heading home, and the, this time he was forced to go because it might soon rain he did not want if later he was exposed to rain and fell ill.

Dance finally arrived in front of his boarding room, he began to take the key out of his lunch bag.

"Dance!", heard the voice of someone who rebuked him from his left side, he turned to the source of the voice.

And how surprised he was when he saw someone who had just called his name.

" Ridho, Max", muttered Dance with wide eyes.

"Why can they both be here, and even yesterday there was Dimas, where do they live near here?, and why?" said Tari in his heart.

" Tari, what...kamu.stay here?, since when did we not realize it, when we lived in room number 1, but why did we never see you",said Ridho who was in front of Tari.

"Ah.ya,aku.aku...kok long time here, about a month and a half" said Stuttering Dance.

" One and a half months?, that was the time during your departure from Dimas' house right" Ridho said.

"En.yeah", yeah",

" Dance what really happened, why until you died Dimas' house, if there's anything bad about you there, do you know Ningsih misses you so much,if he finds out you're here for sure he'll come straight to see you" Max said, speaking up.

" Why?, why don't you want to go back does something happen?, you're calm you can trust us all,we promise we won't tell anyone why you died in Dimas' house" Ridho said

The three of them were now sitting on the front porch of the dance room, as they seemed to be silent, but felt that the two people were waiting for an explanation from him,forced to talk even though it was impossible for him to tell the truth that Dimas was the reason for his departure, he did not want to if the two of them instead stayed away from Dimas after he told them.

" I'm sorry, do. I can't tell you why I left, because it might make us misunderstand each other, and again I beg of you,please don't tell anyone I'm here, I don't want to deal with Uncle Bagus's family anymore, not that I feel uncomfortable being there, just that...I don't deserve to be in that family anymore, I'm just an outsider, and I'm just a poor and violent person before Aunt Sulis takes me, and maybe they'll start forgetting me for a long time, too,and I hope so too, but in my heart, I actually miss them all so much, um Bagus, aunt Sulis, uncle Dhanu, minah's mom, and Bima's mom, I miss them all, and Ningsih, of course I miss him so much....sometimes I think how the rumors, does he also miss me, as I miss him?, but obviously I will not forget the good of them all as long as I am there.",answer Long dance

"It's okay if you can't tell us why, and it's definitely the best thing for all of us, but I don't care what reason I'm gonna keep believing in you, and I promise I won't tell anyone if you're here, but, are you okay if you meet her later?", asked Ridho.

" It's okay, we met again! ",said Tari.

" What?, then how did he meet you, did he hit you or something, because he seemed to hate you a little" Max said curiously.

"Yes.yah so, at first we were surprised and so deh, he was his judes, yah.then he immediately went and did not care about our meeting" said Tari lying, who was not,and the lie was smooth as he managed to convince the two men with his fake happy smile.

" Oh.thank you, he doesn't mean to be rude to you" Max said in relief.

"By the way, it seems dark you should come back, it's not good if we see the neighbors gathering at night like this," said Tari as he stood, followed by Ridho and Max who also stood up.

" Oh yes, then go in", have Ridho, and Tari immediately go into his boarding room, as well as the two of them who also enter their boarding room.

Unbeknownst to them actually Dimas somehow since when the sedan peeling their conversation from the end of the boarding building, he was silent for a moment after hearing what Tari had just said.

"Why?, why didn't he tell them that I was being rude to him, but he could have told Ridho and Max everything, but why, he didn't tell them everything, who's really wrong here, if he can't talk to other people, then I feel like I'm the only bad one here," dimas said in his heart with mixed feelings between hate and guilt for the girl.