
Ara who this afternoon was walking around the tea garden owned by residents was surprised by the presence of Aldi who was suddenly behind him. His intention today to finish the afternoon by himself must fail.
"Kok alone, why not bother if you want to go out," asked Aldi.
"Father, be alone" replied Ara.
"So I'm bothering you?" ask Aldi scoffed.
Ara shook her head quickly. No, that's not what he meant. He did not feel bothered by the presence of Aldi, after all this is a public place right, everyone can come anytime here.
"Becanda doang, really serious anyway," said Aldi scrambled Ara's hair slowly. The woman pinched her lips. Aldi likes to make his hair fall apart.
"How come you're here?" ara asked, tidying her hair back.
"Again the streets uh accidentally see you," replied Aldi.
"Bec.."
"Hmm, uh,"
"I want to talk but not here, sit there yuk," asked Aldi to pull Ara's hand sitting on the bench of a small garden near the tea garden.
Ara complied and sat down beside the man, staring at the expanse of the sinking sun. Again and again both of them were trapped in the afternoon which revealed its beauty. The orange sky with the eyes of the day slowly descending further pampering the eyes. Ara loves twilight, for whatever reason. What is clear, the twilight can slightly ease his longing for the people he has left behind including the man who had broken his heart into pieces. Ara hated when she still remembered him and Ara hated when her heart still missed that man. He wanted to forget Gio immediately, but no matter how hard he tried it would always be difficult to remove that name from his heart.
"Fine."
"What?"
Ara asked without turning her gaze away from the beauty of the afternoon sky that God created today. When a hand suddenly grasped his hand, Ara turned to look at Aldi who was playing his fingers. Ara was confused by Aldi's suddenly nervous attitude.
"What's wrong?" ask Ara again.
"Try here" Aldi ordered.
Ara shifted her seat slightly until she could face Aldi and looked at the man who was also looking at her.
"Ra, I've been thinking about this for a long time" Aldi began.
Ara is silent waiting for the continuation of Aldi's speech. He did not know the direction of Aldi's conversation and was honestly very confused by what this handsome man before him would do.
"Ara, from the beginning we met in the clinic and over the last two weeks we were close, I was dead and I'm sure that if I really like you, I want you, I want you, I love you and I love you. Let's not Ra, we're together and build a relationship. If you do not want to go to a more serious level, we just live as a lover," said Aldi gently staring at the two beautiful eyeballs belonging to Ara.
Ara was startled and reflexively pulled her hand from Aldi's grasp. He did not expect Aldi would say that and he did not expect that Aldi would like him. If you can be honest, Ara is comfortable with Aldi. The man treated her well, but Ara simply did not have any more taste than a friend. Ara only considers Aldi as a good friend no more and no less.
"Don't like me" said Ara very slowly.
Aldi looked at Ara who turned his face away. He already guessed Ara's answer would be like that. Even so, he remained a little disappointed by Ara's reply. Aldi thought with the passage of time and togetherness, Aldi can change the heart of Ara but in fact not at all.
"But why?" ask Aldi.
"I'll never be able to, so far I just consider you a friend. Sorry," answered honestly Ara.
"I want to help you move on from your past, I want to help you get rid of that pain,"
"But I can't, Al. Really can't. My heart belongs to him and it will be hard to open my heart to others again,"
Aldi grabbed Ara's hands and held them tightly, making Ara turn to look at Aldi who was also looking at him, assuring that Ara could certainly move on from her past.
"We're going slowly, Ra. I don't care if you still love him and remember him often. I'm helping you not to forget him but to learn sincerely about him" Aldi said again trying to convince.
"But can't" said Ara stubbornly.
"What is the reason?" ask Aldi and take a slow breath.
Ara also wants to forget Gio, Ara also wants to move from her past, Ara also wants to be sincere and no longer think about Gio but there are always things that remind Ara of the man. Not always deliberately remembering but because it was always what reminded Ara of him. Well, he's his son. Every time he interacts with a child in his womb, he remembers the man who gave him a little angel. If it was like this, how could Ara forget about Gio?
"And that's you" said Aldi.
"Not me but someone else. Will you be able to stay in a relationship with someone who always remembers their past? No Al, it's all wrong. We're going slowly?" ara asked making Aldi nod.
"Wouldn't do it, because there's always something that makes me remember him. And it's not a trivial thing that can be lost that way," replied Ara.
"Yes but what?"
"It's not time for me to know you, sooner or later you'll know it all" Ara replied.
"And so far I've only considered you a friend. Thank you for liking me and being kind to me, but please pass your feelings onto me. I'm sorry I couldn't accept you" he continued.
"You deserve better than me" said Ara Lirih.
Aldi sighed softly and then looked at Ara with his own eyes. "Okay, but we can still be friends, right"? ask Aldi later. Giving up for a while. He'll try again later, he's sure he can change Ara's heart, he's sure of it.
Ara nodded once. Befriends? There's nothing wrong with that. Aldi is good, therefore, he must also get the best. Not like her who even got pregnant out of wedlock. Although it was not his wish but all had already happened. As Aldi said, sincerity is also necessary and he is in the stage of trying to summarize everything that has happened to him in the past.
"Wanna go home?" aldi asked after glancing at his watch which showed it almost entered magrib time.
Ara nodded and followed Aldi. The two went home on Aldi's matic motorcycle. The man escorted Ara before returning to his house.
On the other hand, after Ara cleaned up and carried out her duties, the woman sat pensively at the table after finishing her dinner. The atmosphere was lonely as soon as Ara felt. Eat alone, sleep and live alone. Everything he does alone. In the past, he was not this lonely because there was still Gio who often accompanied him even though not every day but it was enough to throw off his loneliness.
Ara sighed softly as she again and again her memory recalled the man. Ara leaned her back on the back of the chair, rubbing her stomach gently. There were so many questions that came to his mind, about yesterday's events and what would happen after his son was born. What should Ara tell her son later and will Ara be able to hide her child from her father forever? Is Ara willing to keep separating a child and a father?.
Ara again sighed softly, during this pregnancy, her child seemed to understand her condition that had to face everything on its own. During her pregnancy, Ara almost never felt nausea or vomiting in the morning, nor did she ever have strange cravings. It's just that, sometimes Ara suddenly misses the man who still fills her whole heart, and the only thing Ara does is to wear Gio's hoodie that she had brought.
Ara smiled wryly, her life is so difficult now. No Gio has always been the amplifier. Now, he had to strengthen himself for the sake of his son. Ara wiped the corner of her eye that was giving off liquid. Is this as sad as his life now?. Ara had no idea that Gio's betrayal had such a big effect on her life.
"Dad, mother... Now Ara is really alone," said Ara Lirih closing her eyes, enjoying the tightness that rained down on her.
"Alone facing the world and taking care of Ara's child,"
"Dad, daddy's little daughter will soon have a baby dede. Dad's not smirk?"
From his closed eyes, a drop of tears flowed. This was his first time crying after he chose to leave everything behind. Ara's heart aches considering that Gio betrayed her, considering that her son would grow up without a father. Not only that, Ara missed both her parents. If only the people who loved the most were still there might not be as chaotic and as sad as this.
"Mother, Ara doesn't understand the baby. Ara does not understand but soon Ara will have a baby dede. What if Ara can't take care of her and take care of her?"
"Father same mother don't hate him yes, he's the father of the baby Ara. Maybe Ara is wrong with her or Ara can't keep the best so she looks for the best,"
"Father's son is strong. Ara has to be strong, for Ara's child later?"
Ara rubbed her stomach gently. Without people knowing, a lot of fear that Ara is alone. Her tears are flowing. His chest was tight enough to hold all the feelings that were inside him. Ara wanted to shout that she was tired, her heart was hurting, she was not strong and she was unable to. But is all that useful?
"Son, thank you for understanding my mother's condition. Thank you for never complaining and always understanding your mother. Mama loves you, be healthy until we meet later, mama can't wait," said Ara as she continued to rub her stomach.
Ara opened her eyes, straightened her seat and wiped away the tears flowing down her cheeks. Right, he must be strong, for his son. Only he has his son now and if he is weak, his son will be sad. Just like Aura said yesterday.
...-To be continued-...
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She how are you? dead or alive?
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