THE HEART THAT HOLDS THE WOUND
Chapter 73
Ningsih did not return to his apartment but he went to the Nightclub to drink. Early in the day Ningsih just returned to his apartment. Ningsih walked unsteadily he threw a bag in all directions. Ningsih shouted like a madman.
"Niingsih you're crazy." Putting himself on after talking about himself he laughed very hard,
"I'm crazy for this fucking love."
Ningsih sat hugging her knees "I have to how. I can't be like this but I can't get rid of my love for her either. I think I'm crazy," laughed again.
"There is no place in my heart even if it is just a grain of sand but when I realize, if I have no heart why this love is still there.... WHY HAH !." Screaming loudly.
The current ningsih mind was very chaotic, Ningsih was dizzy to do what, sleep could not, eat even what could not be done now lamented himself .
How many days has he been like a crazy person sometimes he cries sobbing sometimes he laughs very hard. Over time Ningsih felt sanity slowly disappearing.
Tonight, he can't take it anymore. Ningsih began vomiting due to acute ulcer that his suffering and began to hurt himself in order to stay conscious of his sanity.
Ningsih enters the bathroom filling bathtub. Standing in front of the mirror suddenly Ningsih hallucinated seeing Aditiya and Zahirah mertawariya. Ningsih unconsciously punched the mirror and threw away all the furniture in the bathroom, scattering on the floor. Between conscious and not.
Ningsih squat pulled her hair "I'm tired. I'm really tired. I want to end it" shouted.
Ningsih's eyes were covered in broken glass. Lama Ningsih looked subconsciously at his hand grabbing it. Ningsih held tightly to the broken glass until her hand bled.
Ningsih entered the bathtub soaking herself, her head staring at the bathroom sky. The contents of his head are only Aditiya and Aditiya's words if he loves his wife very much.
Ningsih did not expect life to end like this, even though he aspired to get married and have a happy family.
"I didn't realize loving someone would be this painful said people would rather love than be loved would be happy but I already love him but why am I not happy at all. Only pain so deep I get." Ningsih closed her eyes crying could not bear it.
Ningsih raised both hands and saw one of the hands still holding the broken glass. Lama Ningsih stared at his wrist,
"I'm sorry Zahirah you have to be happy."
Ningsih sliced her wrist "why I don't feel anything" Ningsih, astonished that she didn't feel the pain of unknowingly slicing her other hand.
"maybe this is best for me and best for you Zahirah.I'm sorry Zahirah had to leave you..... I hope you're happy with your children and your husband.I love you so much really but I can't take it anymore I'm sorry....." ningsih's eyes were tightly closed, though,
slowly Ningsih's body began to sink until his entire body was no longer visible because it was covered by a red one.
Hp zahirah rang but Zahirah had not yet opened it hpnya lobet tota
"Well.well..well dead.where did Ningsih send the message...."
"Why dear"
"Hpku lobet mas"
"Sleep yeah.. I'm tired baby." Today Aditiya is very tired because he came to several branches.
Usually aditiya will stay in one of the branches but now Aditiya even keep to go home.
Zahirah immediately put her phone that had wanted to turn on but not so because it was the first time she heard her husband complaining about work
"Capek well "Aditiya nodded
"Mas has eaten" tidied her husband's ramput in disarray
"It's a pity.. how's the baby's dede" stroking the belly of the armour.
"Good mas,"
"Sleep yuk baby."
Zahirah accompanied her husband to sleep but his mind was fixed on Ningsih's message. Long thought the armour fell asleep too.
