The End of Hope
69 Eps. Unexpected
Naya immediately wiped her tears and turned to the source of the voice. He did not expect it turned out that the man was beside him with a position very close to him making Naya nervous. He knelt with one foot on the floor and one leg bent up into the pedestal of one hand. Of course in this position he could see Naya's face clearly, her face filled with tears, even her nose was wet and red before Naya removed her tracks.
Ares raised both eyebrows while repeating his question, "Why are you crying again, what is it now?"
The question seemed to look at Naya who was always caught off guard before him in a miserable state.
Naya calmed herself down then she stood up while taking a deep breath and said, "There's nothing."
Ares followed him and they faced each other and Ares moved his chin, looking at the man in the wheelchair.
" Who is he?" ask Ares later.
Naya looked towards the unconscious Rudian. She assures that her husband is currently unconscious, so she cannot see who is with them at this time.
"He's my husband," Naya said expressionlessly, there was a heavy feeling squeezing her chest.
After that, the elevator sounded indicating the destination floor had arrived. Ares rolled his shirt arm up to his elbow and turned to push the wheelchair out of the elevator.
Naya tried to block him and said, "let me, sir. You don't have to help me continue."
Ares stopped his steps and then turned to look at Naya who was beside him and was still trying to take the wheelchair out of his hands.
"Who helped you? I want to help your husband" Ares said, shaking his shoulder.
'Ck! That's not what I mean'
Because Naya felt helpless, she followed Ares from behind, walking wherever she pushed her husband's wheelchair. Until they reached the parking lot, seeing that this place was not the destination, Naya furrowed her brows.
"Sir. Why my husband was brought here. I wanted to find a taxi, Mom was waiting there" said Naya, worried that her mother-in-law would misunderstand.
Ares again stopped his steps and turned to look at Naya who looked worried.
"Already, with me I want to go home too" said Ares as he prepared to open the door and he bent down to lift Rudian to his seat, as Naya stretched out one hand before Ares.
Ares straightened his back again and looked at Naya with the corner of his lips pulled upwards. He does not like it, Naya seems to worry excessively about what. Anxious too was Ares made. They have not met for long, and when they meet again he must face the reality that Naya is in a state of need. But Naya seemed to have aversion to him.
"What are you really afraid of? I won't make you feel ashamed. Or do something inappropriate for you. Am I wrong to help you, your husband?" ares said as he leaned back into Rudian's wheelchair.
"But sir.." Naya's words were interrupted.
Ares immediately lit up by saying, "have it, let me just, believe me? I can do it myself."
Naya was speechless, unable to say anything, her tongue was like a kelu, seeing Ares lifting Rudian's body gallantly. Ares lifted her husband's body alone. Naya was stunned, actually Naya's intention was also to help her lift her husband's body, but she did not expect Ares to be able to do without her help.
Naya sits next to Rudian, as Ares's car runs into the hospital yard. When I saw Sarita standing there waiting for Naya. Naya beckons to stop and invites Sarita to come with them. Sarita sat in the passenger seat next to Ares. The man smiled kindly and introduced himself to Sarita, as a friend of Naya and Rudian.
He said he had just seen a friend who was also being treated at the same hospital. He accidentally sees Naya and and Rudian and he offers to drive them.
Hearing everything Ares said, Slerita nodded and believed. That's exactly what happened. But the woman then remembered something. He remembered the story told by Yola long ago, about Naya being caught by Rudian and Yola being with a man. Sarita suspects that the man Yola is referring to is Ares.
Although Sarita had suspected and prejudiced, but she saw with her own eyes. How the reaction and interaction between Naya and Ares, so he was sure that between the two of them there was nothing to do, but just an ordinary friend.
When they got home, they went down together. Naya prepares a wheelchair, Ares lowers Rudian's body and sits him in a wheelchair that Naya has prepared. He did it alone without any help from Sarita or Naya.
Seeing this, Sarita could not help but ask, and she said, "doesn't you lift Rudians yourself?"
Ares and Naya who heard both furrowed her brows. Naya felt that indeed Rudian's weight was shrinking. It might not be too burdensome for a man like Ares.
Ares smiled in response to Sarita's question and she shook her head, then said, "It seems like Mr. Rudi is getting thinner huh, Mom?"
Hearing Ares again ask him, Sarita nodded and thanked him. Similarly, Naya, he also thanked and left greetings for Yoni.
It had been their meeting until Ares and Naya did not know that it was their last meeting there.
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That night, after eating and taking the medicine, Rudian had already slept and Naya had also laid down her body beside Rudian. The man, since coming home from the hospital and taking his medication, will sleep more or be unconscious.
He only briefly regained consciousness and what came out of his mouth when he opened his eyes and saw Naya, were just the words, "Who are you?"
Sweetly and gently, Naya replied, "i'm Naya, your wife."
Or also, when Rudian came to his senses and opened his eyes, what he said was speech,
"I'm sorry" looked at Naya meaningfully as if she was afraid that she wouldn't forgive her mistake.
When Naya faced the reality she just smiled and rubbed her husband's head saying, "yes, I've forgiven you."
After Rudian's eyes closed, Naya returned to crying. It hurts more than when he was betrayed, it feels more heartbreaking than when he knew Rudian was remarried. Though forgotten by a loved one in this way was never thought of, she was forgotten by her husband before her own face.
He who used to want to forget but instead he who was forgotten first. He who leaves because he wants to leave, but he who was first will be abandoned, even for eternity. He then thought that the sense of happiness and sadness, disappointment and hope, pleasure and hate was just separated by a very thin thread. That feeling doesn't mean that in the end it will all go away.
" How's your husband doing?"
Naya ignored the message for a while. Then again a sign from his phone that there is an incoming message. Again, the message was from Ares. He asked about Rudian,
"What's your husband hurting?"
And Nanya again ignored, according to him Ares did not need to know it and it is also not important for Naya to talk about her husband with other men who do not have any relationship with Rudian. He is not in a position to seek the sympathy of someone.
Naya ignored the message for a long time, until she almost fell asleep. He opened his eyes again when he heard the sound of his phone ringing again. That's a message from Aras to him, the contents of his message this time are of concern to Naya.
" How are you doing? Are you tired of taking care of your husband? If you need anything, just say it. Who knows I could help."
As soon as she read this one message, Naya furrowed her brows. Questions like this that make a person or himself become misbehaved, it looks like this man is thinking about himself or worrying about Naya. For a message like this, Naya felt the need to answer, for Ares's messages to end soon and the man did not have to think about his situation. And Naya wrote,
"I'm doing fine. And it's best that Mr. Ares doesn't ask me such a thing. Sorry, I'm gonna take a break."
Ares soon returned to reply to his message,
"I'm glad you're all right. Rest yes. Don't forget to do-a," reading the message Naya knitted her eyebrows.
'What the fuck? Hey, I'm not a kid!'
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Days change days, weeks change weeks and this month is the time of birth for Yola. Time goes by without notice, without waiting or delaying. Until the moment we waited arrived. That day all gathered at Sarita's house, welcoming the new baby boy from Yola and Rudian who was born safely, at a nearby hospital.
While Naya is still with Rudian who is being examined by a doctor. Since last night Naya found her husband had not responded to anything Naya said, nor to anything Naya had done to him. His body was completely limp as if it had no bones. Naya screamed her name and Rudian remained silent. Until Naya thought, could this be the final limit of her brain to respond to something and completely paralyzed to move all the vital organs in her body? Maybe if he is in the hospital or he is a sick person, then he will be declared in a coma.
Finally to convince himself, Naya called a doctor and is now examining Rudian's condition. Until the doctor declares that Rudian is gone forever.
The last thing Naya remembered was a few days ago before her whole fingers and eye movements stopped, Rudian just smiled very thinly like weight to move his own lips.
Although his voice was soft, with only a few lips moving, he said to Naya, "I'm sorry,"
Naya brought her ears closer and heard what Rudian had said to her.
Then Naya replied, "I've forgiven you. I also ask, forgive all my mistakes."
Rudian moved his lips again, Naya understood that Rudian would speak again, until he brought the ear closer to Rudian's lips, at which time Naya heard Rudian saying in a stammer.
"You are beautiful." Naya smiled and said,
"Yes, I am your angel. Calm down everything will be fine." said Naya trying to calm Rudian down. Though his own heart was also in a rage, because it was aware that it would soon be abandoned.
At that time, Rudian looked at her with a restless look, like saving and feeling a great pain. After that his eyes closed and never opened again, until now. And no words have come out of his lips laagi, to this day.
Although Rudian had hurt but Rudian was the husband he had loved even today. Those couples who were young did not even have children yet, but being left in this way was more painful than when their hearts were hurting.
Naya reported her husband's departure to Rudian's family and at that time she got news Yola had given birth to her baby. The family gets two flavors at once, between sad and comforted, like having a surrogate come along when the other person leaves.
Not waiting long, the big family came, as well as the neighbors who had heard the news of Rudian's departure before God. The news was heard from word of mouth and from the announcement in maajid. So that at home Naya looks so crowded.
The funeral procession was immediately carried out, because many helped the funeral procession was quickly completed.
When Rudian's body was buried, Naya saw everything until a tombstone bearing Rudian's name was attached. She did not leave her husband's grave immediately. She wanted to satisfy her loss there, shed all the feelings that were in her heart there, and wanted to leave all those feelings buried with her husband's body.
Iia did not want to bring the sadness that she had felt so long, she brought back home. Enough of that sadness got here.
'You know, I keep all my feelings, my sadness my love, my heartache, my grief everything here, buried with you. Although those memories will always be there, but I don't want to bring that painful thing to follow me, until later in the day'
Naya rubbed Rudian's tombstone, she shrank her tears dry, as if she no longer wanted to shed those tears after Rudian's body was buried in the ground beneath.
At the same time, Naya sees Yola walking slowly along with Dero, she sees the woman crying sobbing.Tanpa carrying her baby in Rudian's grave. Yola cried and shed all her heart, her disappointment and she could not seem to accept all the riches of Rudian's departure from her side. When she needed a husband to help her raise her son, she left him, after the baby was born into the world.
It's too painful. The painful moment is not only about when the love is divided, which is about someone who so expects the presence of the person he loves so much, but instead the person leaving will not even return.
Naya sees and hears everything Yola says, and leaves Yola. He went to his house again. For him his sadness was over, he had already prepared himself for this kind of loss long ago. Previously Rudian had actually left and was buried in this Land. She was completely faced with the departure of her husband. So he felt no need to shed tears anymore, because during taking care of Rudian, his tears were almost every day he let out.
Naya sits on the sofa, looking at baby Yola who was laid there with Sarita beside her. The two women were already quite sad while taking care of Rudian, so when the husband and child faced the true owner, the two women were already sincere.
"He looks a lot like Rudian" Sania said with a smile. Naya nodded and rubbed the baby's head gently.
Yes, remember when Rudian once said that when Yola gave birth later, the child Yola will be his son as well. Naya smiled, she remembered one other thing, when there was a suspicion on her first, that the child Yola conceived was not the son of Rudian. Yet this child really resembled his father as if Rudian's face was stuck there. This dispelled Naya's doubts right then and there.
Yola had come from Rudian's tomb. Seeing Naya rubbing her son's head, she was stunned and sat in front of Naya, saying,
"Naya, I'm sorry for you" said Yola.
