The End of Hope

Aps 33's. Giving Up is Simple

Rudian was still resting on the pile of his mind. Even so, but the two people in legitimate ties are like they do not know each other. One is tilted to the right and the other is tilted to the left. Until late at night they were both restless unable to sleep but there was nothing they were talking about.

Some want Naya to argue, want to feel like arguing in everything. But no, he chose silence. Free. Tired soul body. It is free if he always ends up giving up.

When it was past midnight, they fell asleep. Until dawn, Naya woke up because of the sound of her cell phone. She woke her husband up for morning prayers and pulled back the blanket because he was not praying.

"You, wake up!" naya said with a hoarse voice.

"You don't wake up, don't pray?' asked Rudian who was writhing his body and saw Naya stay in bed.

Naya was silent and just nodded. He closed the lazy eye activity, because of the influence of hormones. But because there are other obligations that make Naya then sit, wriggle her body and then move to the kitchen.

While Rudian cleaned himself and headed to the mosque because Naya was reminded to be diligent to the maajid when at home or not being busy.

That morning Rudian was sweet and gentle. From the time they had breakfast together, until Naya went to work, he said kind words encouraging his wife not to have much thought. So you can focus on work. Take her heart?

'What should I do to you, Kanda? There is no reason so bad that I could easily demand parting ways, and giving up on our marriage. Sometimes you are too sweet. Should I wait until three months have passed?'

Question after question decays in Naya's heart, questioning what her future will be like. But not accidentally Allah keeps secret the future of each of His servants. Because if humans know their condition before time, it makes humans reluctant to try and lazy to do the best for themselves and their future.

"What should I do, you think? Am I being used by my own husband, because he still needs economic support?" naya asks Farah, her best friend on the sidelines of her free time while working, through her mobile phone.

"If it is about the benefits of a human being, it depends on how to judge it. I've heard a lecture by a ustafz that the best of servants is those that benefit other humans." replied Farah calmly.

"But should not a husband support his wife? So I think it's natural that I feel used?" ask Naya again.

"It is true, but if the wife gives her husband a living, then it is worth alms. Naya, imagine the alms reward you have?"

"But why do I feel like I'm being treated unfairly?"

"Naya, I understand how you feel. But study more sincerely, be more patient.or you can talk well with your husband."

"All right, I'll try to talk. I'm actually lazy, si. By the way he's kayaking free."

"Don't despair, just try. Who knows if there's a good way out."

"Hmm.alright. I'll try."

Naya ends her conversation on her phone and goes back to work. After the ship was finished and he went home to work he stopped by his mother-in-law's house to ask the promise that his mother had told Naya.

"Well, tumben you keaini, Naya?" sarita answered Naya's greeting and let her daughter-in-law in.

'How are you, ma'am?" naya asked as she kissed the back of her mother-in-law's hand.

"I'm good, sit down. What about you, already pregnant?" sarita asked as she sat in front of Naya with her legs crossed.

Naya fell silent, there was a sharp arrow piercing in her heart. But still he could not die because the arrow was struck by Sarita through his words.

'Even now I still come months' then smiled wryly.

"Is Brother Sania not home, why is it quiet?" naya asked her sister-in-law. They're not home right now.

"They went to the market last night" Sarita said as she folded her hands in front of her chest.

"Oh, it's worth it."

"What's up..? You have something you want to talk to Mom about, right?" Sarita doesn't seem to want to talk to her daughter-in-law.

"Ah, mom's right. Naya wants to ask." said Naya politely.

"Ask what, say." said expressionlessly.

"Mother, didn't you say you wanted to give Naya the capital, if Naya wanted to be polygamous?"

"Oh yeah. About it. I knew you would ask that, too. So, you want to ask for the money now? That so?"

"It's not like that, Naya is just a name, right mom wants to give capital? Now you know Rudian has a pregnant wife, right?"

Sarita laughed at Naya's words. Then take the drinking water for himself. Then said,

"You are matre. I didn't think you'd dare to charge like this. Rudian my own son did not ask me anything..."

'What's mom's judgment that low on me after all this time I've been her son-in-law?'

"Mother, Naya's not asking for the money right now. Naya just made sure. If I really want to give Naya capital. So Naya just think about what business will be. And if Naya doesn't cape to work, Naya can hopefully get pregnant."

"There is no need to get pregnant. Now there's Yola who's gonna give me a grandchild. So you can't get pregnant either no problem."

The deg! Naya's heart was like a jump. So this was the plan all along. Then was his speech once just a lure?

'Ah, I shouldn't believe it this fast.'

Naya was silent again, her body motionless. Like a stiff hold all the flavor in his chest and tears that almost came out of his container. Why does she feel like self-esteem is meaningless just because of a pregnancy?

"Oh, so now Naya also does not need to stop working just because she hopes to get pregnant, mom?" naya said with a small laugh. Laughing at himself.

"Alright, mom. Sorry, Naya has become a daughter-in-law who is very disappointing to mother" Naya said again.

Sarita is silent, there is actually a little bit of pity on Naya, but she also does not have the money she once promised as capital.

Yes, it seems like fate has started to suck its energy bit by bit. Naya steps away, having drawn her own conclusions from her chat with Sarita and then leaves to go home.

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A week had passed and the day of Yola's move arrived. When he came home that night, Naya saw the door of her house open, there were some items that were outside the house. Impressed disheveled.

"You, just got home?" asked Rudian after Naya entered and said hello.

"Yes, I'm shiping this afternoon, Nda" said Naya circling the view to her own house. But a moment later he didn't care.

The empty room next to his room, now filled with some Yola stuff. He also saw Yola and Rudian in the middle of making clothes. While some of Naya's personal items are outside, either will be stored where the items will be. There are not many places to store goods, because their home is a simple house that has not been added to the building.

Naya bathed in cold water, and wet her hair, she had finished her period today. He simply assumed what he saw was something like a lizard or a passing cat. It is not that he does not want to help his fellow human beings. But he only protected his own heart, guarding his own.

The pain of his heart he felt, so he himself also had to take care of it. A woman's heart breaks easily. And if it breaks the heart it will be difficult to recover. Imagine what this invisible pain would be like? Tears all night.

After finishing cleaning up and praying, Naya came out to clean up some of the items that were outside. Keep it from disappearing. Baby, right?

There was a velvet carpet, there was a drawer stacking from the plaatic, there was a small closet containing some home furniture that he had once bought on a creak with a fairly good price. Many of these items are purchased during the promo, because the price is quite expensive. Do you know what kind of stuff means? It's a pretty famous brand. There are also some gift items from friends at the wedding that until now he has not used.

The stuff he put together in the living room only for a while. After he finished saving it, he returned to the room. But just as he was about to arrive at the door of the room, Yola walked out of the next room and said,

"You came home from work last night?"