The Beloved Barbaric Wife of the CEO

Willingly.

POV Dafan's.

In front of Fia's rented house.

Like a fool, I pecked under a mango tree. Standing in silence and darkness with eyes fixed only on the door of the house.

Fan, we have the right to plan and try. But everything is in God's hands.

Didn't you just say, if you have the maximum effort. So leave the decision to Fia. Put it all together God. But Mommy hope you are not disappointed whatever the decision of Fia and her choice. You are the same Dafin brother. Mother does not want you guys to fight because of women. Be hearted.

So hurt. Mother's words have been wandering the mind all day. I try to make things happen, keep trying to think and keep my sanity. But Dafin's gaze at Fia and the way Fia looked at Dafin made me think negatively. Could they like each other unconsciously? Then me, is my position here as the third person among them?

The head is getting pulsating. I continue to try to calm myself by digesting Mother's words if all has been outlined by God. I believe that we as human beings can only strive, but can God not see a little sincerity and my efforts?

Can't Fia imagine how much I've done to make her comfortable and happy when we were together?

Won't he consider me so stupid about women's problems?

I am not as good as Dafin when it comes to women, but I am sincere. I am sincere with Fia and sincerely want to make her happy.

In the past, I had fantasized that the love story that awaits in the future will be beautiful considering how much patience I held back all this time. I really hope that my first love gives the impression of being so 'wow' that I can bring those memories and that happiness to death. One for good, that's what I want.

But I turned out to be so innocent. An educated man like me turns out to be too shy with the name of love. Now I realize that love also brings sorrow.

I never thought my love fell on Fia so easily. The woman I liked for the first time, but why?

Why is it so painful to touch her heart?

Why are the twists too steep for me to pass?

Dafin, he's my brother. He's blood on me. How do I take Fia from him?

He sacrificed a lot for me, but I really don't want to give Fia away because of my debt. I thanked him, but still wanted to get Fia. The egoism?

I've been trying for months to do what's best for that girl. To win her heart, but it seems like my efforts were in vain. I lost, lost quickly to Dafin or maybe .. Because God didn't want me to be with Fia?

Ah .. The more thought I get. Pain, pain, don't ask again. Feels like a needle right in the middle. If I could, I'd like to inject a dead heart that I can't control. Common sense commands to be firm, stay calm to look cool. I want to classify them but in a little heart there is a little selfishness.

Yeah, maybe selfishness is more appropriate I call it. In my little heart I want to ask for an honest answer from Fia. I want to see with my own eyes, did Fia choose Dafin?

I want to ask you directly, what is my lack of Dafin?

I want to make sure everything is in order to end this feeling. Although it's impossible that I still hope, I really hope that there's a little bit of a miracle for Fia to be touched.

Yes, I'm waiting. Waiting with heart pounding in this darkness. I really hope that I'm the one Fia chose. I hope that.

It's been almost five hours. While standing here I was accompanied by mosquitoes that were like laughing evilly and as good as my heart biting my blood. However, I don't care because I really want to see Fia.

But there's Marni down there. He made me just stand by and watch from across here. I'm sure she was told by Mother to stand guard there. I make sure he's also feeling restless. Because it's no secret, waiting is boring.

I'm getting restless, time has shown almost midnight but they haven't come home yet. Really, bad thoughts make me more confused to organize the mind so as not to be prejudiced. What might Dafin have ....

Hais! Why do I think bad? I'm Dafin's brother, I know what's in Dafin's heart. He wouldn't do such reckless and despicable acts, just why would I remain agitated?

"Come Dafan. Calm down please. You have to make sure yourself, please be patient." I mumbled to convince myself. I don't know how many times, but still I do—menggum and strengthen the heart. At least this way I can do even though the effect still makes me uneasy.

Like a fool, right?

The car light blinds the view. I was hiding. Like a loser, I withdrew from the light and decided to monitor in the dark. Behind the big mango tree, I peeked.

The car that dazzled the eyes earlier entered the yard of Fia's house. It was Dafin's car, yes, it was his car.

Taking a deep breath, I tried to calm down, trying to suppress the emotion that suddenly rose to gray when I saw Dafin embracing Fia, very affectionate. Are they so close?

I am not getting to hold back my emotions. Has their relationship continued? Jeez ....

Even though I was angry, I kept looking at them. From here I can see Fia's smile. A smile I've somehow never seen before or I get. Smile is like ....

"Why, Fia? Why don't you ever smile so sweetly in front of me? Why face me you are just smiling? I felt your smile was beautiful, I did not expect your smile tonight to be more beautiful than usual and how you smiled so in front of Dafin. You killed me, Fia. You're stabbing right here." I hit a tight chest. Hope the air is stuck out properly.

Taking a breath, I still decided to hold on. I wanted to wait for Dafin to leave and ask Fia personally about this. I want him to choose, I want him to make a choice. Even in my little heart I feel dwarfed. After seeing Fia's smile, the chances of her choosing me are very small, but may I try? So that I can calm down to step up.

In fury and despair I clasped tightly onto a jewelry box. The jewelry I had been preparing for Fia for a long time. When I first saw the girl, I had a firm heart for her. I always look for whatever pleasure he has. From food, hobbies and even allergies, I find out without making it difficult for others. And the box that is in front of my eyes is a jewelry box that I have prepared for 6 months. Birthday gift for him.

I used to wish that when I gave this jewelry box that Fia and I were sitting face to face and having a romantic dinner. At that time I thought I would say my feelings. I also hope that Fia accepts my feelings with a raised smile.

Who would have thought that the plan I had planned for months was not realized. Not in the least.

Now I'm just standing like a loser, peeking at them from a distance. The little heart says and curses that I am a foolish man. But the other side says, this is what is called struggle, this is real love, love without sacrifice is not love.

My heart is getting bitter. "Love? Why is this love so torturous?"

From childhood I never had the name of trouble. I always get whatever I want easily. I'm the best, I'm lucky, but why do I feel like I'm the dumbest human being and toolol in the world right now. I feel like I am the poorest man because of women.

Ungrateful? I don't know, I'm just describing how I feel.

I saw Dafin approaching Fia, then peeked at the girl's forehead.

The vow! I swear by anything. I want to get angry. I wanted to strangle his neck, but again I was like a poor fool, I was just growling behind this tree. Watching and watching them from a distance until Dafin actually left.

With wide strides and a steady heart I headed for the door that had just closed. I knocked on the door, hoping Fia would open it easily and hoping to open her heart.

But far from imaginary. Instead of being open I only heard the sound of Fia screaming from inside.

I knocked on that door again hard.

"I'm Dafan, please open the door."

Then the tightly closed door opened. Fia looks beautiful with a knee-length dress and natural makeup. She always has, can make me pangling even if not dressed at all.

"D-dafan, you .. Why are you here? Since when?" tanyanya.

Doesn't he have a heart? Can't he understand how I feel, how can he ask that question when I'm hurt just by his words?

Ah, I'm sure he thinks I saw everything. Yeah, I saw everything. From them came smiles and kisses. Original, want me to scream out loud.

Taking a deep breath, I tried to calm myself down. Fia innocent guilty ....

I don't know I don't know.

"Mongoose ..."

"May ...."

We both called names. I don't know why our compactness this time makes me sound even more sad. I'm still Fia, Fia nanar is looking at me too.

Fia seemed to take a deep breath. What did he think of until that?

"True forgiveness ...."

"May ...." I accidentally interrupted when I saw a jewelry box in his hand. The box is the same as what I have. Now I can't focus on Fia's words. I took the jewelry box out of his hand.

Fia grimaced then tried to take it again but I held it.

"Phenated. Go back on that, Fan," she asked.

"What is this from Dafin?" I asked, as much as possible to hold back emotions.

He's nodding. I'm getting pissed.

"Forgive, actually I'm the same Dafin ...."

"Please shut up for a minute" as I was. I'm really not ready, not ready to accept reality. I was intimidated by an object in plain sight. I'm trying to figure it all out on my own with this fucked-up brain of mine. My heart just shrinks.

I slowly opened the box and it was ....

Shit! Why is my gift exactly the same as that given by Dafin? A pair of earrings.

Huh! It turns out that not only our appearance, feelings and desires God made the same. He couldn't make us different, at least make Dafin like other women besides Fia.

"Dafan, sorry .. actually I'm the same Dafin ...."

"Phoi."

I cut his words again. Purposefully. From Fia's expression and gaze I could already guess what she was going to say. He chose Dafin and I was not ready to hear his honesty.

"What is the difference between me and Dafin?" my many. I looked at Fia.

He was flailing, his sighs getting longer. "Come Dafan. I don't know. But still when we were together and when I was with Dafin, I felt something different. I'm sorry Dafan."

Really, I want to go berserk. I had expected this to happen and was ready to set my heart, but still why still can not accept Fia's answer?

Clenching jaws, clenching fists, and cursing Dafin in silence. That's all I can do now.

I saw Fia again. He seemed to be enduring the discomfort. This girl I like half dead looks sad. Is it because of me? Is that unpleasant expression because of me? That means I'm the one who's the bully here.

"Maafan ...."

Fia tried to grab my hand. But I who do not know myself even brushed it off. He was shaking with his eyes moving. He'll probably cry in a minute.

"I already know, Fi. You don't have to tell me everything anymore. I understand that you like Dafin. You chose him over me, didn't you?" ask me to endure the pain. It felt like thousands of body-less slashing knives got any anesthesia.

Fia nodded, a head movement that was increasingly piercing the heart. Heartbroken this much. In this instant suddenly my mind drifted to Nara. Does Nara also feel this kind of pain?

I feel like I got karma, Nara is younger than me, Nara definitely can't accept this reality easily? I'm almost crazy, what about him?

I looked at Fia again. I stared at him and locked his eyes.

"Thank you, thank you for coming and giving me the color of my life. Because of you I understand and feel what it's called like, what it's called deg-degan, what it's called a big mind and can't focus equally anything," I explained. My feelings are not asked again. Despite smiling bitter and hurt feelings remain lodged in the chest. And I don't know when it's over.

But one is certain. Fia didn't pick me. So there's no reason for me to maintain this relationship.

"Maafan ...."

Fia said my name is shrewd. Semenyetihat is that me? Fia called me that. Poor and pity.

I smiled and held her shoulder. "Even if it ends up like this I'll take this as a lesson, I'll consider your rejection a valuable lesson."

"Maafan ...." Fia shed tears.

I can't let him. I removed that tear from her cheek with my thumb. I stroked her cheeks and she held the back of my hand. Our eyes are squaring. But not the look of love that I had been expecting. But a sad look full of sadness and regret emanated from his clear eyeballs.

"Sorry" he said again.

Shaking my head, I tried to be ordinary. At least I want him to calm down. Let me be sad here.

"No problem. Be happy, I won't be fighting this again. I lose, I'll get a chest and accept the truth. Maybe we were not created to be a couple but just a brother-in-law ... in-law," I said and chuckled ironically.

Fia cried, her tears shed more and more. He nodded with his mouth shut. It turned out that he was also saddened by this situation.

I lift my chin with my hand. Our eyes certainly shared another look.

"Maafan ...." The voice of Fia. I'm getting tormented.

"Already, relax. Don't blame yourself. I've liked you for a long time. I have long anticipated this too. I've been determined to remain calm no matter what your decision."

She wiped back Fia's tears, then pressed her index finger against her lips. I couldn't hear and see him cry. Fia is a tough girl. A strong girl who fights for her rights and her life. I remember the first time we met. His gaze was very sharp when I accidentally touched the chest parts. He was so angry and ready to beat. If I hadn't been so alert at that time, it would have been her months.

Given his tough personality and now— tears tear up my— so understand, he must feel so sad because of me. And I, I've been so shameless all this time imposing my will on him.

Fia sorry. I'm mistaken.

I wiped her tears again. "I'm fine, Fia. So don't feel guilty."

Fia was still looking at me with nanar. There was a deep sadness in her brown irises.

"I'm sorry, I've been a burden all along." I held Fia's hand to her left—because her right hand held a gift from Dafin—lantas reached into her pants pocket and placed the jewelry box on her open palm.

"Happy birthday. Be happy," I said, smiling, as much as I could hide this painful feeling even though I knew, she must know how I felt.

Fia feel. He's sensitive. Unfortunately, the choice is not me.

I passed by, went to walk with a puffed chest and shoulders that I made as high as possible, but in my heart was very stunted, very painful, broken heart broke everything.

All this time I was too enthusiastic about my own feelings. Wishing more and loving her too deeply without knowing how to end it.

Groping the pants pocket, I decided to call Sulaiman's number. I can't go home, I can't deal with Dafin. It's up to him to think I'm a coward or something. I don't care, I need time to think. It took itself to calm down and calm this chaotic mind.

"Sulaiman, please tell the house people that I will temporarily stay in the apartment. Give my regards to Mother," I said and hung up the phone.

I flipped over and saw Fia still standing on the porch. From a distance I waved my hand.

If white symbolizes sorrow, I will work hard to color it. I will make so many colors so that Fia does not feel guilty even though in my heart I lost.

"See you soon as the candidate-in-law."

Hua. mewek if you become Dafan. Let's vote a lot. Your vote determines whether Dafan is happy or otherwise.heheh