The Beloved Barbaric Wife of the CEO

Be ill.

Nara POV.

Today, according to the agreement between Dafan and me, we plan to meet at a five-star restaurant in one of the hotel restaurants in Jakarta. She told me this afternoon that she would meet me with her boyfriend this afternoon.

Here's where I am. Standing in an elevator with an irregular heartbeat. From the reflection of the elevator walls I could see the appearance myself. I'm already beautiful, but unfortunately beauty can't charm Dafan. I don't know what could bewitch that stone-hearted man.

The elevator doors open when the number six is on. Again my heart beats more and more crazy. I don't know what happened to this heart. One side I want to avoid and deny the reality, but on the other side I want certainty. Yes, sure, I have to be ready with everything that will happen.

"Sorry who? Have you made a reservation before?" ask a neat guy with a bow tie around the neck.

I'm nodding. "Here, I'm Nara. And the person who is reserving is named Dafan, "i explained.

"Oh, then wait a minute" he replied.

I again could only nod, standing up I saw the employee's back was missing at the door.

My hands are getting cold. Breathing starts short. A new age today I'm groggy like this.

'Calm Nara, calm down. Dafan is still Dafan. He's your soul mate. So don't believe that she said she had a boyfriend. You must be strong, prove that you are entitled to Dafan . No one can take Dafan away from you. Okay. Let's see that woman. Usually, if you just pretend, you will look too late. So stay cool. Be beautiful. Okay.'

That word I kept in my mind. I don't know how many times I've called it, I don't even know. But clearly, I have faith, and faith tells me that Dafan is my soul mate.

The door opened, and the man greeted with a smile. "Please come in, Miss. Mr. Dafan is waiting for Miss inside."

I followed too.

When entering the room, the fragrant aroma of the flower enters the nose. So much Bunya there until I reached pangling with the decoration. Not to mention the beautiful music coming into my ears.

It turned out that Dafan had deliberately rented one restaurant for the sake of this meeting. As I smiled, I felt Dafan so romantic that I was willing to do all this, but ....

Tightness, pain, pain, the feeling hit the body and soul suddenly. Tearing mercilessly. Pain, my heart aches, I can't really describe this feeling for others to understand. I got stuck until I sat in the chair. My energy evaporates like air. I realize now, Dafan has another woman.

"Maafan ...."

The sound of my voice blends with the sobs. Really, for God's sake I don't want Dafan to do this. Dafan is my man, Dafan is my soul mate. She's my soulmate, but ....

Now he sat facing a grown woman. Although I am beautiful, but she is also no less beautiful. She was very graceful, and my heart was suddenly dwarfed.

Oh my God .. Why is this so? I really didn't want Dafan to be close to other women, but right now, he's making out. He wiped the woman's face, then laughed.

His laughter was so loose. I've never seen Dafan laugh until his eyes were so narrow. She ... she really looks happy.

Who is that girl? What excess? What shortcomings? What did he have until Dafan could laugh like that? What is my lack to the point that Dafan does not squirm at all?

God ... please take away my love for her. I don't even mind if you take my life away.

Really, I'm not strong.

Is this a sign that I should give up?

Is there really not the slightest gap to touch your heart, Fan?

Ma, it hurts so much.

Mama says if we keep trying, everything will be beautiful in time.

Mama says that if Nara continues to fight Dafan will be destroyed.

Mama said Papa was too long ago. Mama said try to make Dafan laugh.

I've been trying, Ma. I've been able to make Dafan laugh, but all this time he's never seen my efforts. In his eyes there was only hatred for me. He's just grumpy, and now my heart hurts so much, Ma. When I tried my hardest to make him laugh, but he laughed with other women.

Do I have to stop this, Ma?

Mama says Dafan is a smart kid, he doesn't like stupid girls. So, Ma .. I've been trying to keep up with Dafan. My grades were perfect in school, too, but why didn't Dafan ever see me, Ma? Why is she more attractive in her eyes?

When I saw Dafan never saw me like that. But look at Ma, he laughed, his eyes giving off another light. His eyes were very different when he saw me.

When I saw him his eyes were full of displeasure. Meanwhile the moment he saw the woman his lips and eyes were smiling, implying sincerity for the girl.

Oh my goodness, Ma. I'm not strong.

I bit my clenched hand, hoping no sound would come out. Honestly, I wanted to hit that woman. But one side I am ashamed of. I lost before the war. Ah, no. Which is clear I'm ashamed of losing defending something that should be mine.

Well I give up Dafan is happy with that woman. Be happy without remembering me again.

I'll go, go like you said yesterday. I'm gonna go carry my feelings. I will disappear without burdening you with my love.

Getting out of my chair, I walked out of the room wiping away the tears that kept flooding my cheeks. I'm embarrassed, but why is the body's reaction not in sync with what I want. I want to stop crying. It's my decision to leave Dafan, but ....

God, what am I supposed to do with my tears? Why is it getting faster?

Unable to do it anymore, I ran when the elevator door reached the ground floor of the hotel. My steps were so wide, I deliberately ignored the strange gazes of others until the impact sound resuscitated. I'm slumped backwards.

Quickly I wiped my tears and saw who I hit.

"N-nara, k-are you not papa? W-there's a-sick, isn't it? Y-You came here? T-so you cry? Y-you're not papa, are you? It hurts like hell?" the man I knew was named Ferry. He crouched down then looked at me in astonishment.

"N-nara, k-you why?

I hugged him. I don't know what got into me but I need a shoulder. I hugged Ferry tightly while shedding this fretful feeling. My tears are shedding a lot.

"N-nara, why are you, anyway. J-ja-ngan b-bikin panic. W-we-you're sick let's go to the hospital."

I'm nodding. "sickness, Fer. So ill. It feels .. it hurts so much. I could die, Fer. I could die."