TASTE (I'M A Doctor)

The raka is always there

"why haven't you come home yet? " just ask my mom who's preparing breakfast for me.  Today is Sunday so it's time to relax at home.

"not yet son, next month papa came home" replied mama while giving breakfast to me

Without thinking, I ate the food.

As usual, my mother prepared breakfast for me every day before leaving for the office.

Even though mom and dad are busy working but I never protested to them because I thought my parents wanted to keep busy so as not to remember my twin. Hmm I understand it enough.

But anyway I can understand it still I sometimes can not save if I need the love of my parents. Sometimes I get so tired of pretending to be mature and understanding this situation.

"honey, mama wants to talk to you" said mama seriously

"talk aja ma, Alena dengerin kok"

"hmmm tomorrow mama has to go out of town for work"

I just keep trying to understand it, papa's out of the country and mama's going out of town?  How do I keep going? 

"hmmm it's important dear Papa you open a branch of our company there, so mama must be present to represent papa. You okay if mom stays for a while, son? " call mom while holding my hand

I just looked down and thought for a moment "mama ga love again same alena huh?  Papa went out of the country and now mama also go out of town and keep looking after alena who ma?" ask me with glass eyes.

"hmm there will be a little mum, mama ngelakuin this for your future son" said mama while holding my hand

"Be careful" I said after a long silence.

Mama smiled "boyfriend, mama wasn't there for 1 week. You take good care of yourself here. Don't misbehave. Mama loves you dear" said mama while hugging me.

I just kept quiet and immediately let go of my mom's embrace. This is the part that I never liked once because it seemed to pretend to be okay while the wounded heart was very painful

I headed to my room, slammed the door and immediately hid under my blanket. This is the only way I can do it if my heart is broken. Crying and crying. I'm not lamenting that my poor life is just that I love all of this, if alexa were still around, this wouldn't have happened, and my mom wouldn't have worked this hard.

They were just busy with their work and inevitably I had to understand it. That's what describes my feelings right now. I continued to understand my mother and father's feelings, and my feelings were never understood. I need the love I need so much. Was it too heavy or too simple until both my parents ignored it. They pamper me with material without affection.

After a few moments of crying my phone rang. It was the notif of Raka

"Al, yuk street. I'm tired of it, I'm 15 minutes away from your house" the message went through the chat.

I smiled and immediately rose from my sleep, at least there was still a raka that was always beside me.

I wash my face, brush my teeth and change my clothes. Relax I've had bath gaes.

Choosing simple clothes and my eyes are fixed on a white shirt and black levis pants also equipped accessories such as a colorful hat in line with pants. After everything was done I went to the dresser with a thin lipstick and a makeshift powder. Take the white colored shoes and I'm ready to go on the road with Raka.

All I need is about 15 minutes to be ready.

"titt... Titt. "he heard the sound of Raka's motor horn. I smiled and quickly ran out of the house. I had a chance to say goodbye to my mother who was quoting her on her laptop.

"so pretty you.  Here is the helmet" said Raka while giving the helmet to me. I just smiled and rushed on Raka's bike.

"a very habit" said raka while locking my helmet strap, I just fell silent and continued to stare fixedly at her face

" uh Where are we going? " my words came from my silence while shaking my head slightly.

"it's okay al, the habit of deh ntar raka realize I can see it can be awkward him" my mind

"the most pleasant place. I heard there was an opening of a kind of tourist playground. We'll go there" replied the spirit

"yeyyyy I like it"

"he?  Like me the same?  Ahahahah" continued Raka teasing me

"ih what the fuck you. Ayuk buruan" I replied while hiding my red cheeks that had been made by Raka because of the flutter. Raka was like that always joking. Even though I knew it was a joke, my cheeks were made by him.