Struggle Marriage

Farewell is So Heavy

" My dad said that, not all relationships have to end together to be happy. Like our relationship, I feel like I've hurt your feelings a lot, hurt myself, dumped my identity, changed myself so you could love me more. I realize that I have made a big mistake, my stubbornness, my ego, this feeling of wanting to continue to be prioritized must be stopped. As long as I know I love you, I forget what I am. Of course it's not your fault, so I call it an act of hurting yourself, also hurting you. "

Jenette ended her sentence with a bitter smile that was so clearly visible, but she also had no intention of canceling her plans. An agonizing love, a painful love, a love so beautiful, it is no longer all about Theo alone. Now she has a Dad and a Mom who give her a lot of love.

During the day Jenette went out of the house to meet one of her best friends, there it turns out her best friend was also with other friends. Jenette did feel a bit unfamiliar because all this time she rarely had time to gather with other friends. From there Jenette realized that she had missed a lot of things, especially happiness from another direction that was so clear compared to admiring Theo who always looked pseudo, whether the love he has will be reciprocated or not. This time Jenette will not let go of the opportunity to recognize herself, be happy in another way, see another way, see another way, start to open your heart and mind to see how good the world has been to bring billions of happiness.

" Are you really sure? " Theo's real question is still expecting Jenette to say anything else, at least she's a little shaky and rethinking her intention to get divorced. You know, Theo's feelings as if in a floating state, wavering unable to determine let alone say what he actually felt. Either she loves Jenette without her knowing it or not, but the divorce really makes Theo feel quite unwilling. She is used to Jenette even though Jenette has an attitude and nature that makes her feel disturbed. But in retrospect, isn't it hard to find a woman who can love him that deeply?

Jenette forced her smile, then nodded. His mind kept saying that in the end everything would be fine as long as he had the intention to improve himself and tried even harder to get happiness in other ways.

" It's going to end well for us, isn't it? I did not understand how it felt to face myself who was very selfish and could not help myself. But at least I understand that it must be hard to be you, right? I'm sorry, Theo. I've been present in your life and made a pretty shitty mess. "

Theo was silent saying nothing. To be honest he was eager to say to think about it again, but he also felt quite heavy and felt it was inappropriate to ask Jenette to stay with him. He is well aware that he is also guilty of Jenette, he judges Jenette, blames her for the death of his son. She was busy thinking about feelings of sadness, disappointment, and loss until she forgot to think that actually Jenette was also very tortured. Jenette is the mother, and the baby died because of Jenette's ego, surely she is said to be tormented by guilt, the loss of her son, also the judgment that Theo did not?

If Jenette chooses a path that will make her relieved, then Theo will also agree to it without much questioning and complaining again. Her heart is heavy, but she also wants to look back at her heart, and her mind, hoping that she will meet Jenette again as the better Theo, as well as Jenette.

After today's talk, Jenette's lawyer came to the house the next day to submit her divorce papers. Theo was actually not willing to put his signature, but the hope of being able to both look at each other finally made Theo forced to sign the divorce petition.

The news of the divorce that is running, or is in the process of making Gail and Rien very surprised because in the end the relationship Jenette and Theo will end with a separation. They can't say much except to ask Theo to be patient, as well as Jenette.

About a month later the divorce verdict was handed down by the court that they were officially divorced starting that day.

" Thank you for some time now, I hope that from today on our lives will be better than before. " Jenette said as she thrust out her hand, and Theo immediately welcomed Jenette's hand to shake it. Crazy, she really wanted to cry but she could only express with a bitter smile like her heart was feeling. It felt like he didn't want to give up their hands, but he also had no right to be able to hold Jenette anymore. Everything went so fast, and during that time Theo realized that deep down he did not want this marriage at all.

After saying that Jenette immediately left Theo who was still standing looking at her in front of the trial room.

" No, I can't do this, it's over. " Jenette muttered as she walked to the car park and it was there that her parents smiled at her as if to tell Jenette that they would always be there and love her.

Jenette smiled, then walked over quickly to hug her Mom and Dad.

" It's done. " Jenette's remarks made her parents pat Jenette on the back gently.

" You're gonna be okay, trust me....."

" em! "

Jenette let go of her embrace and arranged her parents with a smile.

" Dad, I'm leaving tomorrow, is that okay, right? "

Jenette's parents looked at each other, were silent for a while, then nodded even though they looked heavy.

Jenette smiled and hugged her parents again.

All right, I just need to tell myself that I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be loved as much as possible. I'll be fine because I'm a strong woman, say goodbye and thank you to the past, and prepare to accept the future with all the life experiences that have given many valuable lessons.

Seriate.