Stabilizing Choices
rey's sadness
until at last when he came home he found his house with a white flag. arrived his breathing was tight. his mind began to mix. had not had time to park his car, car park, but his car, rey immediately ran in to the middle of the people who chanted surah yasin. he saw his mother was crying. and his father who then came and hugged him. heart powerless to see dinda, his sister who has been stretched stiff.rey really loves his sister. The younger brother died of OD(over dose) along with his girlfriend Hariri. He did not expect that his sister who he had known a good sister had turned out to be the same as his brother.The hope he put on the dinda ahar did not follow in his footsteps after all.
rey's mother got up from her seat, then she took rey into the room.
"you're patient, ikhlaskan." said mother rey while rubbing rey's hair.
"you take a shower first, change your clothes, we leave for the funeral" Rey's mother then walked out of the room.
rey who had taken a shower at the time in the villa, just change the brackets and then wear his hijab.it was the beginning of rey using hijab after a long time he did not use it.
he came out of the room using only a black box shirt and black pants, combined with a dark blue hijab. rey's red face blushed making her look very sweet, but her beautiful face was covered with sadness and tears.
the funeral took place at 2 pm. everyone walked with the departure of the dinda until the funeral procession ended.so with the palanquin, after arriving with rey. he did not go home immediately. he accompanied and strengthened the sad rey. gandu followed the funeral process to completion. after everyone returned from TPU. rey with family to his house and also the palanquin. gandu immediately said goodbye to go home.
rey sat in the front seat of his house.The sadness he felt still made his chest tight.he remembered the writing of the story he saw this morning . and he realized that his brother had died in a state of disbelief. It was as if it was going to slap him.
"forgive my brother god" rey said in his heart
That event became the beginning for rey to start his hijrah. Slowly he began to learn to improve himself, re-attached himself to the almighty, studying his religion again. This change of rey had a big impact on his daily life.he was abandoned by his friend's tongkrongnya. even gandu also left his. Gandu left his and went to Australia without saying goodbye to rey. Until the moment he met the boy, a good man who helped the hijrah process and met with new people who are also moving to improve themselves.
That night was full of dilemmas, unknowingly his tears flowed in his beautiful cheeks.he remembered his struggle until he reached this point.but terbesit in his picture, he was, does he deserve to be called a Muslim. The dilemma of past memories that are so despicable makes him feel unworthy to be called a Muslimah. He felt that he was still dirty and did not deserve to be forgiven.
"ih what the hell" muttered rey while wiping away the tears with his hands.
"already, enjoy the process" added rey
Rey got up from the chair.he stepped into the bathroom, then berwudhu to perform prayers. after finishing praying, after the prayer, he took off the mucena that was still attached to his body and prepared to help his mother prepare dinner. After all the family ate and gathered for a while in the family room.rey went into the room. before going to bed, after all the family ate and gathered for a while in the family room, she put on her night care and prepared for bed, letting go of all the fatigue she feels today and preparing for a better tomorrow.
