Stabilizing Choices

Waiting

mama Rey came to him.he came to bring a glass of avocado juice and pastries that he bought earlier on the way home. he sat down next to me while peeping on rey's shoulder

"so happy, are you tired?"ask mama rey

"mah.." said rey.

"boy wants to propose to me" added rey

"alhamdulillah, it's good klo so" replied mama rey

"but rey felt unprepared ma. rey was afraid that the boy would not accept the state of rey" said rey. he shed tears

"why indeed? mama's son is good" said mama rey calming.

"rey this is not holy anymore ma. rey this broken woman" said rey. hearing that mama rey surprised he did not know what rey was talking about.

"what do you mean, son?" ask mama rey

"rey is not a virgin anymore.I am dirty ma" said rey. rey also explained how he could lose his virginity and how the life he had before meeting boy. and how his sister's death affects his current changes.heard the story of his rey.his mother was crying.he was disappointed, but not to rey.he was disappointed against himself.it turns out all this time he, he was, his son whom he loved so much he could not take care of well. he was very sad to fall into the evil black world.

"what happened to you was a process of life" said mama rey

"we don't know how God has assembled our story.we can only accept what has happened." she added. mama rey stroked rey's head and wiped away rey's tears.

"no ma, I'm wrong. I can't take care of myself" said rey. he was crying

"mama should educate you so well that you don't repeat the mistakes you made" said mama rey

"mama mean?" rey asked. mara sayu rey looked at her mama's face that had been wet from her tears.

"mama used to be like you, mama's life during modeling was very bad.mama was trapped with a bad environment.until mama got pregnant before marriage" said mama rey

"so this rey?" rey said he thought he was the boy.

"it's not you son that the boy didn't survive" he said

"mama used to be drunk and intoxicated.until one night at the bar, mama was unconscious and brought people to the same place as mama's boyfriend. After the incident mama felt a change in her. it turns out that mama is pregnant with mama's boyfriend.he heard that mama's boyfriend left mama, he did not want to be responsible because it would damage his popularity.Since it was very frustrating mama, messing with mama has lost her direction. mama's job is gone all mama's friends go. Until your papa comes. he holds your hand and says "i'm here with you". ever since mama got up. mama oriented your whole life to your papa, the good guy who comes when other people leave mama" added mama rey

"trus how's mama and papa's wedding going?" ask rey

"we were married after my son was born because if we were married at that time, the marriage was not legal" said mama rey

"during that?" ask rey

"yes, your papa waited for nine months while waiting for that mama's mind was messed up. mama was afraid your papa would leave mama like other mama's friends. even because of the incident mama even avoids the family mama. mama does not want them affected by the effects of mama's mistakes.but god is very good.he keeps your father's heart only for mama. he who takes care of mama even though he has not become his legal wife" said mama rey explained his life journey with papa. his tears flow so fast"