Short Stories Romance

Atonement

The musical momentum is heard clearly in the ears, in a dimly lit room decorated with flickering discotheque lights has become a routine every night. I am a student at a university in Jakarta. My age is now twenty years old, has a handsome face, a sharp nose, thick eyebrows and lips that tease according to my closest friends.

"Gil!" a woman's voice called my name.

I'm turning. Apparently Aunt Elsa.

"Tonight you're the same as me, huh? Love me the best service" he whispered spoiled.

I smile.

"Since when, anyway, Levine disappointed Auntie?" I blinked one eye.

"Emm... So far, no, never and never, I'll cut your pay!" threaten her.

Back these lips smiled, hearing the threat from a woman who was twice over me. Her appearance is trendy, at forty years old with long blonde hair. In fact, it was not visible on his face that was almost without wrinkles. Maybe she was diligent care, naturally, Aunt Elsa was the wife of one of the famous businessmen in the Metropolitan City.

Women are white, narrow-eyed and have an oriental face is really a charm for those who see it, especially the smell of his body that is increasingly tempting Adam.

"Come, Vin. I can't wait" he asked, pulling this hand.

I cannot refuse, not because of it, my ultimate goal is money. Think of it as a bonus for me. We walked into the parking lot. There was already parked the black sports car he promised me.

"Wow! This is for Levine, Tan?" My eyes are round when I see the latest black sports car.

Aunt Elsa nodded her head which was accompanied by a sweet smile on her red lips.

"Oh my God, thank you Aunt El." I hugged the woman without hesitation, because we usually do more than this.

"Together, Beib. Don't call Auntie, dong. Feels old," protested when he was, his age was twice that of mine.

"Yes, honey." I pinched his pointy chin.

We darted in a fancy car under the night sky towards his apartment. That's where she did it when her husband wasn't there. Recognition Aunt Elsa, she is the wife of a series of famous businessmen. Her money continues to flow only that she is often left behind by her husband, a sense of loneliness that eventually seeks an outlet for her forbidden desires.

When we arrived at her luxury apartment, Aunt Elsa and I got out of the car. Arriving in front of the apartment, Aunt Elsa opened the door and I immediately carried a sexy body wrapped in a soft silk dress. There was the sound of heels falling when the body was already in my lap.

Aunt Elsa's hands were coiled around this nape, she kept spoiling as I was about to take her into the room.

I laid that mole body on a king-size bed. He teased me so much after about a week we didn't meet. The desire came back and the forbidden relationship was repeated.

In fact, I used to be a waiter at one of the famous hotels in Jakarta, my meeting with Aunt Elsa was even, intertwined from there. Because I feel tired of my job as a waiter and even spend time so that my college was a little neglected. I can't divide my time between work and college because I'm too busy to even have time to rest.

I finally took the steering wheel to become Aunt Elsa's mistress. Just imagine, I who used to have to work hard for approximately eight hours by draining sweat and even emotions when finding a fussy person made me even more upset at that time. As for now, I just accompany a beautiful woman and serve no more than half an hour she was overwhelmed.

"Vin, I miss after one week we're not like this" he said, now in my arms.

"Levine is also kangen, Tan. Uh, Honey."

"Emm .. why me or my money?" his god while playing his index finger on this chest.

"You are!"

Without you, I have no money!

He hugged me tightly until we unwittingly fell asleep after doing something we shouldn't have done, the forbidden relationship between me and Aunt Elsa that was more or less already established for a year. At that very moment I became his mistress.

***

I was shocked when I heard the sound of the door being broken. My eyes were wide open and unfortunately at that time an old man was already in front of the bed, where I and Aunt Elsa were still in one blanket, even Aunt Elsa's hand was still coiled in my stomach.

"Glam!" squealing the old man, he forced the hand of Aunt Elsa.

It wasn't the old man I was afraid of, but four men with stocky bodies and tattoos engraved on their bodies that made me shudder in horror.

"Hand him!" her word.

Without a word, I was also mobbed by four men with a rogue face. There was a hysterical Aunt Elsa calling my name. She begged her husband to order his men to stop gnawing at me. Fix, my good-looking face is now shattered by blisters and bruises in some parts.

The boycott stopped when Aunt Elsa and her husband entered into an agreement that Aunt Elsa should come with him abroad. From that moment on I felt lost, but instead of realizing it, I was getting wild. I often change partners.

***

Once, I secretly did that with Aunt Elsa, now I'm more outspoken about flirting with a lot of women on campus not even with the one partner I'm in contact with. That activity seems to be my need now, not the main money in my mind right now, but the more dominating passions. Aunt Elsa's loss made me wild.

"Vin, don't be like that" said Ayana, the hijab girl who had just converted to Islam.

I'm just smiling.

"It's forbidden religion, Vin. In fact, not just from Islam. All religions forbid sex outside marriage." Ayana reminded me, it's just that I consider it a prank.

Woy! You have just how many days of conversion have dared to lecture me who has been Muslim since birth!

"That's not what I said! The prohibition is written in Surat An-Nur verse 3 which means: 'A adulterous man does not marry but an adulterous woman, or the idolatrous woman and the adulterous woman are not married but by the adulterous man or the idolater and such is forbidden to those who believe'," he said loudly with sharp eyes. "And not only the verse and the letter, there are many more in the Qur'an that explain it!" it was her determination that made me shudder in horror.

The hand began to weaken, I removed the grip of this hand from Ayana's cheek, the foot slowly stepped back then away from her. There was a sense of tightness when he heard him mention the meaning of the Quran. Do not read it, pray, I have neglected it.

***

The rebuke from Ayana was only effective when I heard it, after which I took the wind and returned to my path, where there were only women in my fantasy. Sexy body, beautiful face, trendy appearance and can serve this desire. That is always in the mind when Aunt Elsa has gone out of nowhere. It turned out that the activity was like opium, when I felt one body, I was tempted by another body and so on until one day this self complained of pain in the intimate organs.

"Aw!" My eyes were closed when intense pain hit my intimate organs.

Although I was restrained, I immediately got out of bed and went to the toilet to check what was going on in here. Slowly, I opened the zipper and checked it.

"Why is there a rash?"

Worse, not only the rash in the intimate part, there was a rash on the back when I rubbed even pain.

"I why?"

Although the pain was unbearable, I drove to the hospital in a sports car to check on my condition.

Arriving there, I was told to go in for a check, there was a sense of shame when I told him about the complaint, especially when the doctor told me to show a rash in the **** *****.

Although embarrassed, I finally relinquished this asset was shown to a doctor. What a surprise this is, after a series of tests have been done the doctor said that the pain I suffered was syphilis/syphilis/lion king, which is one type of sexually transmitted infection (STI).

The body shook violently, I did not expect that this self could be infected with a disgusting and also embarrassing disease like now.

"Right now, you're on Primary Syphilis symptoms. Symptoms in this condition generally appear in the form of wounds with 10 to 90 days after the bacteria enter the body," explained the doctor.

"Can it heal, Doc?"

"It can, the recovery takes about 3 to 6 weeks."

**

I decided to postpone college, out of nowhere until my friends on campus found out about the disgusting and embarrassing disease I was suffering from. So many incoming messages even on social media also discuss about my pain that makes myself down.

I remembered Ayana who rebuked first, but at that time I did not pay attention to her and now it seems that God rebuked with the pain I suffered.

The rented door was knocked, with great difficulty, I walked over to open the door. Looking like a pretty face, she was the first hijab-wearing woman to remind me of the prohibition of adultery.

"You want what you?" my ketus.

"I want to accompany you."

"For what? My ngetawain?"

"Don't get me wrong, I really want to help you."

After a while we argued, finally my hand weakened and opened the door wide for her. Turns out he even invited me to sit on the terrace next to the kost.

"Beautiful, yes, Vin," said Ayana when she saw the orange twilight sky.

I looked at her face without answering yes or no.

"It will be even more beautiful when we walk in His riddho."

"I mean you?"

"Go back in the way of God, Vin."

"But I have sinned so much that He has punished me with this disease."

"Not a stab, Vin. God reminded you. Remember when I reminded you? But you seem to think of the wind then."

Lips are silent but the heart is silent.

"Can sinners like me be forgiven?"

"Vin, God loves the repentance of a sinner more than the arrogant prayer beads. I will accompany you and always be there when you need to, please come back on His path."

I don't know, Ayana's words made me a little calm. He promises to always be there for me. In the current state, only Ayana is there and not away from me.

Tonight I took a shower to clean myself and then decided to perform the Prayer of Repentance. Rakaat demi rakaat has been done.

"O Allah .. forgive all my sins, I know so many sins that I have committed even proudly when I have obtained the body of a woman who is not my muhrim. My sins continue to flow like a river in the rainy season that never recedes. Forgive me, O God. Forgive this sin and guilt, O Lord." I bowed with regret accompanied by tears streaming down on the prayer mat.

Today is the beginning of the holy month of Ramadan, on this day I also start a new life to improve myself. Thank you God, You still give me the opportunity to earn a reward in a month full of blessings and forgiveness. May You always guide me not to fall back on the black circumference of obedience.