She's From Mama

Part 18's. Feel Guilty

Hearing the dhuhur adzan reverberating Raynka'pun pulled the bike. It is impossible if he continues the journey to the house could-can dhuhurnya missed. Looking at the streets that could be said to be quite dense.

The girl turned her head to imitate Raynka ablution ordinance. Almost everything he goes with ranging from washing palms, gargling, cleaning nostrils, washing the face to washing both feet.

"Thank you."

Raynka's head was struck when he felt the voice was on him, "yes, thank you in what order?" Welcome Raynka smile in wonder.

"Because I followed your ablution," replied the girl bowed in embarrassment.

"Allahumma is okay Ma'am, may Mbak quickly memorize it," the intonation of this woman's voice sounded so softly accompanied by a smile that expands on his shade face wrapped in a wide hijab. Bilsha was really stunned.

"Let's let's go inside immediately" Raynka said. Bilsha nodded slowly. The two also entered the mosque with side by side steps. Bilsha started wearing her face. Bilsha looked at Raynka sitting next to her. Feeling Raynka's gaze turned her head.

Raynka was fixed on Bilsha's hair that wasn't all hidden. Knee becomes a barrier for Raynka can raise his body more than Bilsha, "sorry yes Ma'am," initially Raynka release a rubber rope that is coiled in the head of Bilsha, Bilsha, like the beginning of wearing a hijab, so Raynka practiced on Bilsha until everything was really neat.

"Te-thank you," said Bilsha stammered why awkward. Raynka nodded with a big smile. The sounding iqomah memorization is complete. Raynka and Bilsha rose to pray. They both came out of the mosque.

"Wait," Raynka paused her steps. "Can we be friends?" Raynka turned her head back and approached Bilsha with a look of hope.

"MasyaAllah, may be Ma'am," Raynka took a phasmina hijab from her tiny backpack. Hijab that he bought for tomorrow he used to attend the participants, but a few seconds ago Raynka changed his mind. Raynka put the hijab in Bilsha's head with a cross model. Bilsha was silent. "Mbak will be more beautiful if you wear this" said Raynka smiling sweetly.

Bilsha pulls the hijab from her head, lucky before it happens Raynka gets in the way while shaking her head.

"When I am sad I approach God but when I am happy I forget the Creator. A few days ago I had my boyfriend cut because he was getting married, I was like being used as an affair because during our relationship he never told me at all about his marriage. I love her so much. At first I was not willing, but after seeing the choice of my ex-boyfriend is better than me emmm. You know my heart feels broken. I don't know why I want to get closer to God. But really, this time, I'm no longer playing games. Is there still a chance and a chance? Can I have a hijab while my faith is still shallow?" Bilsha poured out her whole heart to Raynka, someone she had just met. This woman, a woman younger than her but whose obedience exceeds her own, creates comfort in the heart of Bilsha.

"This is a guidance from God. Never again wasted because the opportunity did not come twice. Covering the aurat is not measured by faith but by obligation. No human being is perfect even the prophet still makes mistakes let alone us who are just ordinary humans, perfection only belongs to God Ma'am. Hijab is the consummation of our faith in God. It is never too late to change, never be ashamed to try, the thing whose name reaches is indeed very difficult process Mbak, but behind all that guarantee is heaven, MasyaAllah. Still Istiqomah yes Ma'am," explained Raynka sincerely. With tears in her eyes Bilsha embraced Raynka, shedding all regrets for her obedience that always made God an outlet.

"Thank you for being my friend. Thanks for all your explanations, I made it my motivation."

"Thank you, Ma'am" Bilsha took off her arms.

"Oh yes, we have not yet met. I'm Bilsha. That you?"

"Thank you Raynka. For now it seems like we can't talk for long because I have a promise with my father to go home quickly" Bilsha said scowlingly.

"Yes ngga'papa. God willing next time we tell again. Be careful on the road, ma'am. Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, Mbak," Raynka replied.

"Aamiinu. Wa'alaikumsalam warahmatulli wabarakatuh, Raynka. Dadaah," Bilsha smiled as she waved at Raynka, Raynka' greeted her as she showed her rows of white teeth.

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Raynka propels his bike at standard speed. Under the heat of the sun at noon today. 'One thing you have to underline, they're not my son' This sentence is still ringing clearly in his ears.

Wh why? If you can choose then Raynka chose to love Rafardhan as his father instead of hating Rafardhan as the father of the child he contains. With loud words he is not at all the same reply as what he suffered. Rafardhan always wins and escapes again.

How to make Rafardhan fall worthy of himself who is always below, in fact, he often feels guilt even though the hatred resides in his heart. He was worried, should until when the readiness was created? Continue to commit sins that Raynka'pun confused as to how to end it. One night was never far from his mind.

Because of daydreaming in the wrong situation. Raynka pressed the brake of the motor which did not make the motor stop at all. Why does the motor brake come off? There was no other choice to avoid a collision with the fruit cart in front of him. Looking at the tall tree on his left, Raynka turned his motor towards it at high speed he crashed his motor into the tree. "Akkkhhhhhhhh," the motor'pun fell down with himself frankly Raynka retreated backwards to his body avoid the impact of the motor.

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"Thank you very much, sir, Mom, for helping me to get home" Raynka told the couple, who helped her and had intended to send her to the hospital, but quickly rejected Raynka but to be escorted to his home only. The couple did not mind granting Raynka's request.

"Sama-sama Neng's. Heals quickly yes legs, hopefully no serious injuries," the mother replied.

"Aamiinu. Oh yes Father same mother stopped by first yuk to my house!" Raynka's offer to both.

"Cannot Neng because after this Father and Mother want to continue the office work," subtly refused the father.

"Betul Neng" said the mother.

"It's okay, sir. May the efforts of the Father and Mother always be smooth yes and always facilitated by Allah SWT. Once I said a big thank you to Mom and Dad. I came down sir, Mr. Assalamu'alaikum," said Raynka who was immediately replied by the couple. Raynka smiled briefly.

Seriate........