Shackles of Love

39. Undecided

“Tante Maya same Om Farid where the hell, how long not back here?” ask Keisha in your heart.

Then Keisha sent a text message.

Keisha: Where's aunt? when here?

Maya: Sorry Kei, Auntie and Om go home first. There's some sudden business. Please take care of Fian yes, later in the afternoon Auntie returns to the hospital.

Keisha: Yes, Tan.

“Tante Maya really did not say anything if you go home first.” Keisha grunts in heart.

It is not that Keisha does not sincerely take care of Arfian, even Keisha is very sincere and happy to be able to care for Arfian. It's just that the attitude of Arfian who did not want to spend his meal earlier made Keisha upset so that it had a negative impact on her mood.

For four days Arfian was hospitalized and during that time Keisha took care of him painstakingly even though they were often struggling because of small affairs. Often Keisha is upset because Arfian is reluctant to spend his food or Arfian who criticizes Keisha's habit of watching Korean dramas or playing online games on his phone so often ignore Arfian.

On Sunday, the Arasyids went to the Wirahadikusuma family home, which held the 38th anniversary of Farid and Maya's wedding as well as thanks for Arfian's recovery.

Farid and Maya invite only their closest family and friends. Gratitude was held in the garden behind their spacious house.

That day, Keisha wore a blue conduit dress that, although simple in design, made Keisha look more feminine and graceful. Her short hair was decorated with colored hairpins in line with her dress.

Keisha looked at Arfian who was sitting alone in the garden chair. Keisha approached Arfian with a small plate of Apple Pies and Arfian Pastels.

“Sister, this is Brother's favorite cake. Special mama who made Sister.” Keisha thrust the small plate filled with apple pie and pastel into Arfian's hand.

“Still.” Arfian.

Keisha nodded her head and sat down beside Arfian.

“Later, Brother wants to eat your homemade cake.” Arfian said as he stuffed the apple pie into his mouth.

“The apple pie tastes good even though it doesn't taste as usual.” Arfian.

“Ituuuu...I also help mama make it.” Keisha Sahut.

“Let's make it yourself. Brother wants to try your cake.” Arfian Pinta.

“Iya.” Keisha answered while bowing his head watching his new shoes which made small circles on the garden grass.

Keisha actually made the apple pie and the pastel. Keisha rehearsal of making apple and pastel pies while in Milan.

“Later, I made pizza with spaghetti huh Brother. I learned to make it fit again in Italy. It feels so authentic, I learned to make it from my neighbor in Milan.” Keisha said that he had learned a lot about making Italian food and promised to make it for Arfian.

“Key...” Call Arfian.

“Hmm..”

“You...hmmm..can not if...got be deh.”  Arfian canceled to ask Keisha something.

“What the hell is Ka..?” ask Keisha curious.

“When you left…. Can't you if you know where you're going?” ask Arfian carefully.

“Hmmm...” Keisha began to think about whether she would recount her adventure in healing her heart.

“You don't want a story?” Arfian asked in a disappointed tone of voice as he felt Keisha was closing herself off from him.

Keisha was still silent, his heart and mind were wondering if he was ready to tell her.

“If you don't want to tell a story it's okay. Now you just tell me what your plan is going forward? Do you want to work in your Papa company or have another passion?” tanya Arfian changed the topic of the story of Keisha's disappearance.

“It looks like so. I studied fashion design in Milan. Looks like it'll work at Papa.”'s place Keisha told me a little about his plans for the future.

Arfian felt that the distance between him and Keisha was a bit distant. Just now Keisha mentioned the word ‘aku’ to call herself. Usually he calls ‘Kei’ to call himself if chatting with Arfian. While in the hospital alone Keisha still calls himself ‘Kei’.  Arfian does not understand what makes Keisha call herself ‘aku’.

“Kei... Have you eaten baby?” maya's scream broke the silence between them.

“Udah, Tan.” Keisha replied while nodding her head.

“Get Fian eat, Kei. Since he left the hospital, his appetite has not increased. Still lazy to eat him if not forced.” Maya said as she spooned the rice on her plate and brought it closer to Arfian's mouth.

Arfian closed his mouth while shaking his head.

“Fian is not hungry, Mam. You just ate apple pie with pastel.” Arfian shows a small plate that still leaves one apple pie.

“So early in the morning, you only ate two tablespoons of oatmeal, now just eat cake. You will not have the power. When can you do your usual activities?” mayan's Omel.

“Iya later Fian eat if hungry. Mami is very chatty anyway.” Arfian was upset that his mother treated him like a child.

“If Mami is chatty it's a sign Mami loves you very much, Nak.” Maya said as she hugged and kissed her eldest son's cheek.

“Mami what the heck..” Arfian tries to let go of her Mammary embrace and covers her cheeks stained with a red lipstick from her Mammys kisses.

Angered by her mother's actions, Arfian got up from the park chair and went into the house and locked himself in his room. Arfian did not want to be disturbed or meet anyone.

Once inside her room, Arfian replaced her kameja and cloth pants with shorts and a t-shirt. The mood is completely broken. Right now he just wanted to lay down his body and try to close his eyes hoping that his mind could calm down a little. There was a sense of anger and disappointment when Keisha heard the answers.

Arfian had high hopes for Keisha's return. He hopes his relationship with Keisha will improve. But noticing her interaction with Keisha in the park earlier, it seemed like Arfian's only hope remained. Arfian felt that his relationship with Keisha would not be as good as it used to be.

Although Keisha has returned, Keisha is not for her.

Arfian opened the letter again from Keisha and reread it line by line.

Somewhere, Kei will try to regrow his rightful love for Brother Fian, a sister's love for his older brother. Brother Fian will see the love of Kei as he once was, the love of a five-year-old Kei to twelve-year-old Brother Fian. A sister's pure love for her brother.

Kei has no idea how long Kei can heal Kei's heartache and change that love. Maybe Kei's liver can heal within a year or two or maybe five years. Maybe longer too. But Kei promised Kei would return to Brother Fian. Stand before Brother Fian with a sincere smile.

Arfian read this line and became convinced that Keisha's heart was not for him. Keisha's present love is a sister's love for her older brother.

After finishing reading the letter Keisha who I don't know how many times. Arfian folded the letter that already looked catapulted because it was so often opened, read, and folded back.

After keeping his letter in a drawer near his bed, Arfian lay down and tried to close his eyes.

Tok…

Someone knocked on his bedroom door.

Arfian did not heed it and remained lying down and closed his eyes.

Tok.dok…

Back there was a knock that sounded louder.

Arfian wanted her to still not heed him, but the loud knock on the door of his room was very disturbing his quiet time.

After two beats were not heeded by the human in the room, the human outside the room banged on the door of his room.

Doc.file..dok…

Arfian opened his closed eyes and immediately woke up reluctantly from his bed to open the door of his room. Arfian hoped that the person who knocked on the door of his room was Keisha but hearing his crazed gedor, it was impossible to knock on it was Keisha.

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to be continued

Read also my other stories yes.Title I found Love With You.

it's about the love story of Kagendra and Sadiyah.