Satuku Hand Husband

Traumatizing

"I'm not a nice guy, Dea. I'm vindictive. If I get hurt, I will hate it. Did you see my change in attitude towards Meirika? See how much I don't care about her anymore, even hating her in such a quick time.

Don't fall in love with me, Dea. Seriously. I can be very scary when I am angry. You know how I am in the office. I have difficulty controlling my emotions.

If in the past as a secretary, I was angry maybe you will only be hurt and tomorrow will be most afraid of me. That's not how much, is it? But if you already have a close heart and a special relationship with me, it will definitely be heavy on you. You'll be tired of facing me.

Meirika knows about my bad nature and my difficulty controlling my emotions. He said he would be able to face me. But in that relationship I never once got angry with him. He never made me angry either. Maybe because I was afraid of myself eating it I was a bit holding back as well.

To be honest it is a bit uncomfortable to have such a relationship. I am a normal guy who wants to get married. Then Meirika was the most reasonable choice back then. At least that's what I believed before I finally knew his true nature."

The words of Mandala made Amadea bite her own lips.

Mandala Barata spoke in such a serious tone. Amadea doesn't know what to respond to. What he felt, now his head was full of guesses: What makes Mandala become personal like this?

Suddenly silent.

The two just look at each other.

"Mas can change slowly and try to control emotions." Amadea finally said quietly after a few menus they were silent to each other without a sound.

Mandala shook her head with a slick smile on her lips that was as if she was aiming for herself.

Yes, Mandala does smell with her own attitude, her own nature, her own personality.

"No way, Dea. Difficult. I've tried for years and I've stayed back grumpy again, especially for work and business.

For sensitive and personal things like friendship or romance, I'm stiff. Do you know that I have no close friends besides Rafael? Others are just business partners in the name of interests. I shut myself down for fear of disappointing them because of my grumpy attitude.

About the lover, Meirika is my first boyfriend. He approached me first, he was aggressive and assured that we could be serious. He assured me that I could fall in love. He used to promise to accept me with all my vices.

Until now I didn't know I didn't love him. I don't know, I'm confused. But the point is I've been disappointed with his attitude that suddenly left me because of my disability. Then I hate him."

Mandala said at length again with a tone that was difficult to feel.

Amadea was silent for a moment. I don't know why this thought suddenly popped into his head.

"Have childhood or past trauma related to parents? I don't study psychology in detail, but some of the traits that shape us as we grow up come from our childhood.

Do you have trauma?" The question came out of Amadea's mouth with a guessing tone. Amadea doesn't mean to know. He only suddenly thought because from earlier this theory appeared in his head.

The look on Mandala's face changed. Amadea was surprised by herself.

"Dea, we've talked too much. I have a meeting outside. I have to go" Mandala said in a cold tone.

Yes, Mandala does not answer Dea's questions about her childhood or past. He looked uncomfortable and even seemed to hate the question.

But her grumpy Mandala is not angry this time. Though he can rebuke Dea which he feels presumptuous. Mandalas prefer to shift the topic and then avoid leaving.

The tall man immediately stood up from his seat and stepped away leaving the bewildered Amadea.

"Did I say it wrong? Jeez my mouth! You should know yourself, Dea. Don't be pretentious and guess people's personal lives or pasts! Mr. Mandala must be offended or upset with you." Amadea shouted to herself in her heart.

And suddenly a feeling of guilt ambushed him. Amadea suddenly upset, depressed, exhausted.

Amadea lies down on the sofa. He patted his own mouth with regret for feeling sassy.

The rest of the day until the night Amadea continued to fidget.

Amadea no longer agitated at the thought of her mother's behavior hiding her new husband in her father's estate which she fought against the threat of bank seizures. Amadea thought of Mandala.

Mandala's comforting sweetness also counsels her after she confides in her life's problems leaving her touched. But the change in Mandala's attitude at the end of their chat as Dea touched on a bit of the past made Dea feel guilty.

If you tell all your life problems to people who want to listen, then just there. Do not try to explore his personal problems back because he is not necessarily the same as you who want to open up.

Amadea learned a lot starting today. He promised to keep his mouth in front of the Mandala.

Many times the wife of the owner of the Barata Group business giant checks her mobile phone and hopes Mandala contacts her.

Then what's the outcome?

Mandala did not leave a message or call him.

Amadea was upset until dinner arrived and Ms. Lulu knocked on her bedroom door to tell her the dinner table was ready.

"Bapa exists, right? Is he home yet? She's coming to dinner?" Amadea asked expectantly.

Bu Lulu was a bit surprised as well. How can the future wife not know what time her husband came home. In this sophisticated era, there is no communication through mobile phones?

"Mr hasn't come home yet. I should have been. He didn't call if he came home late so we kept asking the chef to cook dinner. Miss Dea's at home anyway and it's Mom's first day. So we're preparing a special menu." Miss Lulu explained.

Dea was immediately not excited.

"Maybe the streets are jammed and he's a little late. Mr. Mandala loves to eat at home rather than outside. Miss Dea want to wait for Mr Mandala or eat first?" Lulu asked again.

Dea wanted to answer the wait but her rumbling stomach answered first. He immediately looked embarrassed. Bu Lulu pretended not to hear but she followed her head with a laugh.

Oh, this new hostess is starving apparently.

***

Mandala who escaped from Dea after lying there will be a meeting actually sleeping on the sofa of her work room in the office.

I don't know for a long time he closed his eyes. But now he seemed restless in his sleep. It seems like a nightmare.

And in the dream Mandala screamed like a frightened man.

"Don't hate Mandalas, Ma. Pleases. Pa, please, Pa. Mandala is wrong, Pa. Please, Pa..."

Then the man whose hand wound had not healed too much woke up with a body soaked.

This same and often repeated dream made him this happy.

Yes, he had a dream about his childhood...

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