Satpol Girl Beloved Young Master

Chapter 40

Zarow laid his body on his bed staring at the ceiling of his room, after gaining Zarow's enlightenment hoping that he and his family would repent.

Honestly, he is very grateful because at the age of almost a quarter of a century, he and his family are still given the way to his repentance, still given the opportunity to know his god before his death.

It is beautiful to think the fate of God, who would have thought just because it started from a meeting that made him hate the Rainbow precisely because the Rainbow also he so back to the path of God.

If only he had not met the Rainbow, he might still be a jerk who never knew sin.

But there are still things that until now are very stuck in his heart and make him keep thinking, this he must ask immediately to Ustad Sham

He thought to immediately meet Ustad Sham to ask about the sins of Zinah that he had been doing, if there was a way for his sin of Zinah during this time also forgiven by God.

So long the journey of life that he lived, his free lifestyle he got from since Zarow took his education abroad about three years ago.

Given that Zarow came from a rich family and his handsome face is only natural if since youth he has been surrounded by beautiful women.

Although he never felt the slightest bit of his name in love because when he was young he only focused on his education without thinking about love.

It continued until he grew up like this, he never knew love, spending time with beautiful women was just entertainment for him after feeling tired while taking care of his company.

Recollecting the first time he committed his sin of adultery, when he was still sitting on the lecture bench, he was about 20 years old at that time.

As a student who is quite popular because of his cleverness, good looks and wealth Zarow has many female friends and men. During his studies in the country of people he never did anything that impressed at the limits of the reasonableness of human reason.

For two years he studied his lifestyle is still normal, only he often went to nightclubs to refresh his mind after being busy with college with his close friends.

Although he often went to nightclubs he never thought of having sex with any woman, until in the end he got a challenge to fuck one of the girls who had been crazy about him.

In the end he also did the challenge because he began to get bored often in the issue as a same-sex lover, initially he never took a headache with the rumors circulating about him.

But over time because the more chaotic his life because of the rumors, not only became bulian material but more and more same-sex enthusiasts approached him.

He finally did what was ordered by his colleagues to prove if he was a real man and not a same-sex lover as rumors circulated.

At that time he began to get used to life as* free, having sex with any woman without love was common to meet his biological needs.

Even sometimes in a day he can hire two to three women he just met who was approaching him, but he never made one of the women he had slept with become his close friend or lover.

Even after a night or a day of intercourse the next day he will immediately forget who the woman who had slept with him even his name was never known.

He always considered the relationship only for the satisfaction of their biological needs without any coercion, so there is no need to know more about how and who they are.

Remembering the sin Zarow closed his eyes imagining how low he really was like a wild animal.

" astaghfirullahaladzim, O Allah, the life of the servant has been too shameful all this time, I am afraid of your punishment, O Allah, how can you forgive the sin of Zinah " zarow said to himself while crying full of regret.

He felt himself very dirty, he felt that if his sin could never be forgiven by God, he wept bitterly as he continued to say something in his heart.

" O God the servant is a sinful people, the servant is aware that the servant does not deserve to be in your heaven but the servant is very afraid of the torment of your fire, O Allah " zarow said himself still crying sadly.

Zarow lamented and wept over every sin of adultery he committed, however he wept he knew that nothing would make him remove all the evil he had done. How to do penance for an adulterer he did not understand.

He wanted to immediately ask about this with Ustad Sham, he was not calm because he was afraid that there was no forgiveness for his sin on that one.

Suddenly he remembered Rainbow again, whether maybe Rainbow would still accept himself if he knew how depraved he was in his past thought.

Whether he should hide the ugliness of his past or if he should tell Rainbow all his thoughts again.

Maybe he should be honest about his past to Rainbow considering Rainbow will be his wife, Rainbow also deserves to know how Zarow's past from Zarow's own mouth is not from others he thought.

It would be better if there is nothing covered from the past of the two of them so that their household will be fine, regardless of the intruder & bully.

Because Zarow is sure there are plenty of women out there who will hate the Rainbow and try to take down Zarow so they won't survive.

Before everything happens it is better he must be honest with Rainbow, regardless Rainbow wants to accept Zarow's past or not it is up to Rainbow at least now he has returned to the right path.

tock.tok.

The sound of the door coming from outside made his daydream crumble instantly, Zarow stood up to look outside to see who was knocking on his door.

When he opened the door of his room, Zerin stood at the door of his room smilingly revealing a row of white teeth.

" can you come in? " ask Zerin.

Zerin knew that his brother was not asleep so he came to his brother's room to ask Zarow something.

Without answering Zerin's question he immediately walked to his bed again and sat on the edge of his bed leaving Zerin who was still in the doorway of Zarow's room.

As usual her brother was always like that, instead of answering Zarow instead left her in front of the door of her room that was still wide open.

" i'm in, right? " said Zerin again.

Zerin began to sit next to Zarow as he continued to look in all directions, he was very rarely able to enter into Zarow's room even when Zarow was not at home he also did not dare to carelessly enter his brother's room.

Zarow continued to pay attention to his only silent puppet sister while looking at all corners of Zarow's room, I don't know what makes Zerin come to his room these nights Zarow thought.

" you came here just want to diem while looking at my sister's room, huh? " said Zarow who finally opened his voice.

Zerin turned to look at Zarow who had just said something with his characteristic voice that was always flat with no expression. Zerin smiled again, revealing his white teeth.

" anu kak, Zerin wants something" said Zerin.

Zerin was very curious why Zarow suddenly became religious as he is today, thanks to his brother to invite their family to emigrate Zerin so understand what the importance of a head covering or headscarf for a woman.

" what? " the short Zarow said.

Hearing Zarow's reply he again smiled, as a younger brother Zerin was always proud of his older brother, in his eyes Zarow was a responsible older brother.

Always prioritizing family and of course also affectionate with his family even while migrating Zarow invites his family to migrate together.

His family now has something of a great direction, his brother invites a Ustad who leads them to learn and know their god whom he never knew before.

" sister, what is the reason why our brother taught us to study religion? " ask Zerin.

Zarow took a rough breath once he heard Zerin's question, at first he was curious about Rainbow's persistence towards religion.

For the first time he washed the ablution water to his face because of the invitation of Rainbow parents to pray together & it was also the first time he prayed again after decades of not having prayed.

His heart was completely touched at that time, his mind became open so that his intention was stronger to migrate to a better path.

" all of a sudden we realize that the world is not where we live eternally, because in reality all beings will die and return to the bosom of the khaliq" explained Zarow.

" sister is afraid to die? " ask Zerin.

To be honest he never feared that he would die, he was only afraid that he would die unconverted.

" no " answered Zarow briefly.

" why isn't brother afraid of death?, Zerin afraid of brother "asked Zerin astonished.

Clearly Zerin was astonished by Zarow's reply because he thought anyone would be afraid of death but why did his brother not fear death he thought.

Zarow smiled as he stroked his sister's head, hopefully her sister will become a girl like Rainbow she thought, a good girl & devout of religion.

" frankly brother is not afraid to die, but brother is afraid if brother dies but brother has not been penitent, nauzubillah kebayang not if we die in a state of infidelity continue to go to hell " zarow explained.

Zerin shuddered at Zarow's reply, remembering how terrible the torment of hellfire was obviously to fear if he died and went into hell.

" sister Zarow, thank you brother has brought Ustad Sham for enlightenment love, all this time Zerin, papi, mommy also brother never know about religion, but I never know about religion, but thanks to brother brought Ustad Sham now we all become more know how the rules of our religion "said Zerin thanks to his brother, "sister" said Zerin called Zarow.

Zarow turned his head back towards Zerin, his sister smilingly looking at him meaningfully.

" sister, Zerin will wear the rich hijab of Kak Pelangi to cover Zerin's aura, so that the brother is equally not dragged into the torment of hell because of Zerin" said Zerin.

He did intend to close his aura by wearing a hijab as he did Rainbow, he did not want the sins he did like opening his aura would actually make his brother and father bear every sin.

Zarow speechless heard the words of his sister, almighty for the power of God thought only tonight they listened to the lecture for the sake of the lecture delivered Ustad Sham his sister was now just stirred up his heart.

Zarow took Zerin into his arms, he was quite moved to hear the words of his sister, he was grateful that Zerin also tried to be a good people of God with his intention to close his aura.

" sister sorry yes because all this time did not know if not wearing the hijab was a sin inadvertently Zerin had tried to pull brother and father to hell" said Zerin again.

Zarow then released his embrace from Zerin, his gaze still focused towards his sister, who was still looking at him, he held Zerin's hand because he felt he was more sinful because it was so late to introduce religion to his sister who had grown up.

" why say that?, Zerin is not wrong, this is all one brother and sister who are late to teach you about religion "said Zarow, "now we are both focused on hijrah huh, yes, so you want to wear a real hijab? " question Zarow continued his words.

" yes, brother, Zerin does not want to continue to bear sins by not doing the obligation of veiling and closing the letter "answered Zerin.

Zarow again smiled and stroked his sister's hair softly, as the only brother he had of course Zarow was very fond of Zerin even though sometimes he looked stiff.

" morning tomorrow I tell Mr. Handoko to find you a hijab suit, so you don't have to go out to buy clothes anymore" Zarow said.

" makasi ya sis" said Zerin hugging Zarow.

Of course Zarow responded with great pleasure to his brother's good intentions, without having to bother he advised his sister instead his sister expressed her intention to wear the hijab.

" thank God, thou hast made the servant-brother conscious and will fulfill all his duties" Zarow murmured in his heart.

" o Allah make the servant always be Istiqomah with the clothes of the servant later, because the servant does not want to plunge those who are loved into the fire of hell, o Allah spare the servant and the parents of the servant and the brother of the servant from the entanglement of the fire of hell, Allah "murmeth Zerin in the heart.

After getting the answer and telling his intentions Zerin then out of his brother's room and back to his own room.