Right Person, Wrong Time (An affair With First Love)

I still love you

Bianca and Nicholas both knew they had to work out the unresolved issues between them. They hope today will be a close to their story.

"Nic, you know from childhood I was forced by circumstances to become precocious. Growing up without a papa figure, not to mention that I often see my mother cry alone. It was just me and my brother who were my mother's greatest strength, so I had to work hard in front of my mother. Even though I know there's less Nic in my life!" bianca said with a trembling voice.

Nicholas then held Bianca's hand tightly and her left hand wiped the tears that flowed down Bianca's cheek.

"Eatingly Nic, I built a wall as high as possible against men until you finally got into my life" Bianca continued, looking into Nicholas' eyes. He misses the figure of Nicholas who is currently in front of him.

"I knew it was bi, so I told you you were a stalactite for me. At that time I was sure that one day I could tear down the wall in your heart. If only at that time you gave me more time, surely now we are still both bi, the wall is no longer certain between us" said Nicholas.

"Nic. the wall does not exist anymore." said Bianca lirih. It took over ten years until he dared to be honest with Nicholas, there was a feeling of relief in his heart for successfully revealing the burden in his heart.

"What do you mean bi?!" ask Nicholas. He doubted whether the wall was between him and Bianca or Fritz.

"I always denied my feelings Nic until one day I realized I was really in love with you. On the other hand, I'm afraid Nic is just as much my own feeling" explains Bianca.

Nicholas then wiped his face violently.

"Bi, this is really ga fair! You never know how broken I am! I think I was wrong with you, I think you are totally totally free because you can't love me!! Trus today you said you left me because you love me!!! Bi... don't understand me as you!" Nicholas. It was a shock to know the truth.

"Nic, not only are you ruined, you never know how broken I am, Nic! I love you, but I have to leave you!! I'm sick too!! Living in my own fear..If only time could be played, I wouldn't be that stupid." said Bianca full of emotion. Her tears were dripping down her cheeks again and this time her tears were more rushing than before.

Nicholas saw Bianca sobbing, her heart breaking. He approached and drew closer to Bianca and hesitantly hugged Bianca. Seeing Bianca not resisting, he hugged Bianca even tighter. His eyes were soaked with tears that he could not control.

Bianca's heart was broken, she knew it would hurt Nicholas. Often in him he regretted his actions leaving Nicholas but he was young at the time and naive. As Nicholas hugged her, he felt a warm feeling in his heart. He felt very calm in Nicholas' arms.

They hugged and cried for quite a long time, pouring out all the emotions and feelings they had been craving all along.

"Bi, thank you for being honest with me" said Nicholas, then took off his arms even though he refused to do so.

"Yes Nic, you're sorry I am." said Bianca.

"Everything's happened, bi, I need an answer to what happened. I can't live forever wondering. Sorry, but I was selfish. You must have been sick too..If only time could be played, maybe we are still both bi" said Nicholas softly while staring at the face of Bianca.

"Yes Nic, if that could happen I would not have left you. I must have fought to scare my opponent but now I suppose there's no point in Nic anymore" Bianca said.

"By Nic, whatever you ask, I'll answer Nic. Tonight we have to finish everything Nic." replied Bianca.

"Do you still have the same feeling I'm bi?" ask Nicholas.

Bianca looked into Nicholas' eyes deeply and then nodded. How could he stop loving Nicholas?! At any moment there will be room in his heart for Nicholas who will never be lost or replaced.

Nicholas then grabbed Bianca's hand and held her tightly. He could not lie that Bianca was still in his heart. It might even be his only love for Bianca all along.

"Bi, I still love and love you..Even before we meet again, I can never forget you bi" said Nicholas honestly.

"But Nic. We're both married now. We need to focus on our family, Nic. More people will be hurt if we keep doing this" said Bianca, trying to think with her common sense.

"I understand bi. I also understand the condition now how.. Anywhere we have to be the responsibility of our choice, right?!" Nicholas says. He thought with a cold head.

"So, what are we gonna do now?" ask Bianca.

Nicholas sighed and said "We have to move on bi, there's nothing we can do now".

"Okay Nicholas I agree, after tonight we bury everything deeply yes." said Bianca with teary eyes.

"Don't bi, not tonight" said Nicholas cutting off Bianca's speech.

"Don't tonight? What does Nic mean? If not tonight when?" bianca asked confusedly.

"On my birthday, five days. I'm asking you as my birthday present. One day with you, we spend time together like first again. Pleasee bi..." Nicholas begging.

Bianca doubts whether she can fulfill Nicholas' wish this time. Thinking of what had just happened made her feel guilty towards Fritz, she felt that she had betrayed her husband.

Especially now Nic asked for it clearly without implying that he wanted to be with Bianca all day..Honest in his heart he also wants to spend more time with Nic, at least for the last time...

"Nic, I'm not sure I can be too risky and too dangerous for us" Bianca replied.

"Please biii's... One day just bii.. Just you and me, after that we're done" said Nicholas trying to convince Bianca.