Ren & Rena: World Heroes Legend

Chapter 44 The Undelivered Voice of the Heart

It's me, Wulan. Somehow some crazy guy told me to kiss Ren Gill all of a sudden and finally, he hurt my head. Maybe he thought of this as entertainment, but this was not entertainment but a true feeling.

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Did he reject me?

No, he didn't reject me. Only, he said that this is not the right time. For him this is an important thing, where can I impose this selfishness on him.

I wanted to wait, but kept moving to get closer to her. Of course because it was my goal to be the wife of that person. Not that I like it for no reason.

I don't know if he still remembers what happened between us. Some people say that he has a very bad memory, but I did not believe it before trying it. Finally, I felt a complete rejection due to my selfishness.

Is he going to hate me now?

Will she see me as a cheap woman?

I'm afraid to face that reality. While my own problems are not finished yet, I don't want him to be one of them either. I will not allow my pride to be ruined because of that refusal.

Eh? Didn't he say, don't reject me?

Uh! It seems I was the one misunderstanding.

But, I'm still not sure if he can recall that event.

Yes, when we were Junior High and did not get to know each other. Back then, he always saved me even in distress. Because of me, too, she had to change schools a few times.

Slowly, I started to remember what happened between us.

It was about 5 years ago, exactly when we were in 8th grade Junior High.

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I was a quiet child, rarely sociable and always isolated by my surroundings. My days felt monotonous and there was no impression of anything at all as time went on. However, everything changed when she moved to the same school and greeted me back then.

"My name is Ren Gill, just call Ren. I wish we could be familiar, this is for you!"

A transfer student greeted me familiarly. He seemed to be able to get along with anyone, but chose me as the person he first greeted. Not to forget also he gave me a necklace, actually at that time I never considered it a necklace or a gift.

I just accepted it without saying anything.

After seeing me accept her gift, Ren sat right next to me. I just assumed because it was just an empty place, never expecting him to really want to know me.  Even now he is just a wind past for me.

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When the first lesson begins.

The first subject is history. Before starting the lesson, do not forget the Master asked Ren to introduce himself. Renpun introduces himself to everyone.

"For new students, please introduce yourself first."

"Include me, my name is Ren Gill. Just call Ren, nice to meet you guys."

The applause of all the students except me started flooding the classroom. He really looks perfect in the eyes of socialites. If those girls get their hearts, I'm sure they'll ascend to the top of the caste in this school.

N-not that I overvalued it. His handsome and easy-going face alone became a plus point. Especially if he is smart and athletic, I am sure all the girls will immediately pursue a perfect lover.

After introducing himself, he sat down. The lesson began and we followed Master's direction casually. Until finally, the teacher gave a question to all students in the class.

"What do you think is the greatest discovery in the world?"

Everyone was silent while waiting for Master to ask one of us to answer, Ren who was impatient looked eager to raise his hand. At this point, I don't want to be the chosen one. Unfortunately, bad luck started to come to me.

"Wulan, please answer and give your explanation."

That's it, a misfortune for a student who's not as good at talking as me. Never mind, what happens let it happen. I ventured to answer that question.

"I-internet, without the internet everyone would not be able to connect either in the field of socialization or education."

After I answered, everyone just kept quiet and didn't care. Yeah, as always. I'm just an extra student who wasn't considered.

However, Ren gave a round of applause to me. Seeing him do that, everyone else came along as well. Slowly the sound of applause began to grow louder until finally, the class became peaceful again.

"Is there anything else?"

The teacher began to seek the opinions of other students. At the very least, he would not stop until he was satisfied to see the faces of the disciples being frightened. With confidence, Ren raised his hand.

"Please."

The teacher invited him to answer.

He stood up and looked very excited.

"Paper and paper."

Hearing his answer, a barrage of opinions started coming out from some students.

"Eh? Stationery? Isn't it more ancient than the previous one?"

"Yes, there's no way it could be the most advanced invention?"

"Is he just answering?"

"Please relax!"

That was until Master stopped the sea of opinions from the students.

"Can you explain your answer?"

"certain."

Master casually thought Ren's answer was a joke, asking him to explain it and Ren accepted it with pleasure.

"Paper and paper are important. I know it's not as sophisticated as you want to hear, but thanks to it all the equipment you consider the most sophisticated in the world exists."

"... Without a written research report, other scientists would not have been able to develop it until the stage we considered sophisticated until now."

Everyone could only remain silent because the answer he gave had a broad point of view. Not only that, I'm sure he's a smart student. No doubt, the future king will be born in this class.

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On lunch break.

Ren invited me to lunch together, but I ignored him. I left without giving a reason. After all, he was also being invited by some of the top caste groups present in this school.

I went to the roof of the school building to eat my provisions. Thought to be enjoying this provision himself, the door to the roof was opened by someone. The students who appeared behind that door were the group of girls who often asked for my supplies.

.... Can't they stop bothering me?

I just kept quiet while watching their movements. To be sure, they approached me with annoyed looks. Like wild animals that have found prey, that's how they're in my eyes.

"What's your relationship with Ren?"

"N-there's nothing."

"Don't lie!"

Their leader started to corner me with his words.

"I'm not lying."

"It seems he won't confess."

"Just give him a lesson!"

The girl's followers started giving me advice to torture me. Usually they just want to spend my provisions but, this time is different. The leader of the group took out a scissor from his pocket.

"Hold him."

Just by that order, the members of his group held me against the wall.

"W-what do you guys want to do to me?"

"Isn't it clear?"

Although he had dared to ask, the answer he gave was very uncomfortable for me.

"By the way, your hair's pretty long huh."

While saying that, the chairman took my hair and cut off a quarter of it very slowly.

"H-stop."

"... Please!"

Several times I begged, she continued until a quarter of the width of my hair had been cut.

Suddenly the door to the roof opened violently and the figure that came was that man, Ren Gill.

"Stop!"

He shouted loudly.

"R-ren i-this isn't what you see."

Without caring for them, Ren immediately approached me.

"You okay?"

Do you think I'm okay? Isn't all this because of you?

Feeling that I couldn't stand it anymore, I slapped him in the face very hard. While crying, I walked away from them. Since that incident, I never spoke to him again even though he always greeted me.

At first I was satisfied, but the turning point of our relationship began to change from then on.

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When I go home from school.

"Revelation!"

Ren from the other side pushed me and finally, he got hit by a truck hard. He can still maintain a bit of his consciousness, I also don't know why he would insist like that. Even so, he had time to direct the pose "V" to me while smiling broadly like the first time we met.

We were both taken to a nearby hospital. Despite saving me, guardian Ren would not allow anyone to visit him. When I tried several times and finally got approval, something painful happened to me.

"Who?"

That painful question always lingered in my head.

"It's me, Wulan."

"I'm sorry I don't know you."

I can only be silent.

"... But, thank you for visiting me."

Ren smiled warmly at me.

But that's not his smile. He's not the Ren I like! I-this ....

I ran out after saying goodbye.

After that I realized that, he never said my name. To him, I was just a stranger. I also just remembered that from the beginning he never knew my name when he first met.

The next day, I left him a gift and a letter. The gift was the same as the one he gave, a necklace eye that was associated with a piece of rope. It was the final parting gift of my old self and the relationship between us.

I began to study diligently in order to become a smart student. Don't forget, I've learned the way a girl lives today. The rest, I just want to say hello.

"Who is Ren?"

"Ren Gill's? I never heard the student's name?"

"Maybe what you're talking about is Ren Kimochi, the comedian?"

Unfortunately, he never came to school again. When I asked about Ren, all the teachers doubted if he ever went to school here. At the end of the struggle, someone finally gave me a document as proof Ren existed and he also said that Ren had changed schools.

Too late to regret everything that happened. I can only move forward and keep growing. That's the end of our past.

I'm not the one who likes him because he helped me. I have harbored this feeling for a long time and finally, we were reunited. From then on, I've decided that my goal is to be a good wife to Ren.

No matter what it is, to me he is my pride. I'm not gonna let anyone take it from me, even if there's gonna be a really shitty obstacle. Again, I want to be close to him.