Rainbow At The End of Longing

30. Misses

Tonight only Mas Awan and Keinan accompanied me in this hospital. Mas Awan had deliberately told Papa Surya, Mama Wulan, Bang Langit, mother, and Hamzah to go home first, so that they could all rest well at home. Tomorrow they will come here again if they are not busy, said Mas Awan earlier.

Right now I just finished nursing baby Angkasa. Quayun softly my little son in my arms to make his sleep more soundly. While Mas Awan was putting Keinan to sleep on the sofa bed that was in my inpatient room.

"Have we fallen, Mom?" I asked when I saw Mas Awan walking towards my hospital bed.

"Udah. That, look at it yourself," replied Mas Awan as he sniffed towards the sofa bed.

I looked towards the sofa bed, and sure enough, Keinan seemed to have slept well there with a blanket covering up to his neck.

I smile. Keinan did ask to sleep while being confused with Mas Awan. I see, that boy must still miss his papa, that's why he's so spoiled with Mas Awan today.

Not only Keinan, actually I myself also still miss the same Mas Awan. Almost six months did not meet, after the accident and Mas Awan was declared missing.

I am very grateful to Allah Subhanahu wata'ala because finally Allah Subhanahu wata'ala granted all our do'a-do'a all this time and returned Mas Awan to be able to re-assemble with all of us now.

It seems that I am still not satisfied to see the face of Mas Awan and want to continue to see the face of Mas Awan until satisfied, to treat my longing. Ah, fortunately, Mas Awan asked Papa Surya, Mama Wulan, and others to go home first and rest at home. So now we have time to be together and let go of this longing.

"Why smile at yourself, hmm?" ask Mas Awan while sitting himself next to me.

"Hmm, no pa-pa really," I replied with a smile.

"Dih, what a lie. You know, you must be thinking about your handsome husband again, right? You also thank Allah Subhanahu wata'ala for finally returning. And you also want to see the face of Mas for a long time so that your longing is treated, right," guess Mas Awan who can often guess the content of my heart with that exact.

I round my eyes. Haish, it turns out that my husband's greatness in knowing my heart is still as great as it used to be.

"What the hell, Mas. Narcissistic, "elakku.

"But really, right? Hayo, I just. Same again, you must be secretly grateful because Mas asked Papa and the others to go home on the grounds that they can rest comfortably at home. Now we can have quality time together. Yes, right?" continued Mas Awan who was again on target.

"Mas Cloud iiihhh," I said, embarrassed and misbehaved.

"No, really," teased Mas Awan again.

"Maaasss,," I said by lengthening the word, the more misbehavior.

Mas Awan actually laughed more and more to see my wrong behavior like this. But the laughter was slow and a little restrained. It seems like Mas Awan doesn't want to disturb the sleep of the baby Angkasa in my sling.

After his laughter subsided Mas Awan then rubbed my head and kissed my forehead.

"Mas is also very confused with you, baby," said Mas Awan.

"Yes, Mas. I also miss the Clouds very much," I replied with a gentle smile.

Mas Awan then put his chin on my shoulder while rubbing gently the cheeks of baby Angkasa who is still faithful asleep in his sleep.

"The son of Papa from earlier slept continuously," said Mas Awan.

"The name is still a baby, too, Mom. If you don't sleep, it's normal. Drinking breast milk sometimes has to be built as well" I said in response.

"Kayak still did not believe, finally Mas had a little son like this. Yes, although Keinan also considered as the son of Mas himself. I mean Mas --"

"I understand, Mas. You don't need to explain anything. And I also know that Mas Awan also really love Keinan. Mas's affection to baby Space is just like Mas's affection to Keinan."

I immediately cut out the words of Mas Awan who wanted to explain that. I know Mas Awan would not want me to misunderstand his words. That's why I convinced Mas Awan that I understood what Mas Awan meant.

Mas Awan raised his face, smiled gently at me then kissed my forehead full of affection.

"Thank you so much for all your understanding, baby. Mas is very lucky to have you, Keinan, and baby Angkasa in the life of Mas," said Mas Awan.

Mas Awan then hugged me and baby Angkasa. Kissed my forehead back full of love. Mas Awan then put his chin back on my shoulder and back rubbing soft cheeks baby Angkasa.

"It feels impatient to see that you are big and we can play ball together with Kak Keinan, Dek," said Mas Awan suddenly.

"This cloud exists. Yes patient dong, Mas," I said.

"Yes Mas is just wondering, baby," said Mas Awan defended himself.

"Hmm, yes," I replied later.

"Baby Angkasa is already very sound sleep. Not in a crib, baby?" ask the Clouds.

"Yes anyway. Why the hell, Mas?" I asked back.

"Mas wants to sleep while hugging you. Kangen," replied Mas Cloud spoiled.

"Geez, Mas" I laughed at the reply of the Cloud Man.

"Kangen loh, baby. Don't you know what the same thing is?" said Mas Awan half sulked.

"Hmm, yes. Mas move aside first, let me put baby Angkasa in her crib," I said later.

"Here, let it go."

Mas Awan then took over baby Angkasa from my sling. Mas Awan then woke up from his seat and put baby Angkasa into a crib located next to my hospital bed. Mas Awan enveloped baby Angkasa then kissed his forehead full of affection.

After that Mas Awan went back up to my hospital bed. I deliberately shifted a little to the edge so that this hospital bed fit to lay us both. Mas Awan hugged my body then took my body to lie down with him in this hospital bed.

"Ah, finally Mas can sleep while hugging you again like before, dear," said Mas Awan who then kissed my head.

"Yes, Mas. I also miss sleeping while being hugged by Mas Awan kayak gini," I replied, increasingly drowning myself in the warm embrace of my husband.

"Mas kangen very much with you, baby," said Mas Awan again and again.

"I also miss the Clouds" I replied.

"Udah is almost midnight. We sleep yuk. Fill the energy first before you wake up again because baby Angkasa cry ask ASI," said Mas Awan.

I laughed at the words of the Cloud Man.

"The clouds are all there," I said.

"But it's like that, baby. Babies like baby Angkasa gini are still often awake at night. In fact, he said many like to stay up late too," said Mas Awan.

"Yes that way, Mom. We enjoy it. Every phase of baby development like that is a time that will not be repeated again later after they grow up" I reply.

"Yes, honey. We enjoy every stage, yes. Yuk, we go to sleep first. Take a break for a moment," asked Mas Awan again.

"Yes, Mum."

"Good night, dear Shofi. Mas very dear to you," said Mas Awan after kissing my forehead.

"Good night too, dear Cloud. I also love Mas Awan," I replied.

Me and Mas Awan then began to close our eyes and try to get into the dreamland of the two of us.